Detention Boys

Chapter Thirty-Four

You hear that silence? No? Exactly. I wanted to bury myself in a pit when my alarm started blaring at half past seven. The start of a new term. Holidays are over, time for the chaos of Christmas dance committees and mock exams to begin. What a joyful time of year... Meh.

I used what little willpower I had to drag myself out of my bed and into the shower. First day back at school, and this time I have a boyfriend. Holy crap. To be honest, I had been deliberately not thinking about returning to school, not thinking about how I was to have a relationship with Dylan in school. Did that mean I was going to have ‘come out’ or whatever? But then surely my parents will then find out and then I’ll have to deal with that shit and what if I tell everyone that I am gay even though I really don’t think I am cause I ain’t thinking about other guys’ penises all the time, well except for Dylan’s, but then he is my boyfriend-

Okay. So I was freaking out. But that was to be expected, right?

I took a deep breath and leaned my back against the cool tiles. Think happy, positive thoughts. Release the negative energy...

What the fuck are you doing, Alec? Get a hold of yourself.

I turned off the water and got out of the shower and quickly got dressed before collapsing on my bed.

During the holidays it was so easy. It was just me and Dylan, we didn’t have to care what anyone thought. We could just be ourselves around each other. I rubbed my hands over my face and groaned in frustration. I even went as far as to punch the wall.

“What?” I yelled as someone knocked on the door.

“Dude, what did the wall ever do to you?” asked Luke as he opened the door. I glared at him before pulling a pillow over my face.

I heard the door close then felt the mattress shift under added weight.

“You’re freaking out,” stated Luke, pulling the pillow away from my face.

“Is it that obvious?” I asked sarcastically before rolling onto my stomach and burying my face into the mattress. I heard Luke sigh.

“Can I borrow your phone?”

“Yeah,” I mumbled into the bed. A few minutes later Luke began to talk.

“Hey, I was just wondering if you could talk to Alec cause he’s kinda freaking out....yeah....you knew this would happen huh... haha okay, here he is.” Luke held the phone against my ear. “Alec, take the bloody phone would you.”

I took the phone from him and rolled over to face the ceiling.

“Hey,” I said, knowing who it was Luke had called. Convinced that I was going to talk, Luke left the room and quietly closed the door behind him.

“Hey,” replied Dylan. “You doing okay?”

“Yes. No. I don’t know.”

Dylan chuckled softly, and already I began to feel better just hearing his voice.

“I know what you mean. It’s going to be okay, trust me. I’m not going to start making out with you in the middle of the hall or anything.”

I had to laugh at that.

“But seriously, Alec. You don’t need tell anyone anything. It’s none of their business. I’m not going to all boyfriend on you and demand that you hold your hand in front of everyone. I wouldn’t do that.”

“I know you wouldn’t. I guess I just got used to us, and I didn’t want that change, but I know that I’m just not ready for that yet.”

“Hey, I totally understand. No one expects you to do anything, especially not me. Our friends all know and are fine, and that’s all that matters. Screw everyone else.”