Who's the Boss? (Salvaje Caballero Series 1)

Treinta y Seis

Annie's POV

My heart broke seeing Ynoa's eye filled with hatred. Wala akong ibang nagawa kundi ang lumayo.

I hope our friendship will run over her hate. Sana hindi malagpasan ng kanyang galit ang pagkakaibigan namin.

Many wanted money, car, big mansion, jewelries and material things. I have all of those things. But am I happy? No. All I wanted was a family, a friend and just someone whom I can run to.

Kung nabibili lang sana ang ganito, matagal ko ng ginawa. Pero hindi eh. You know what? We are blessed with different things. In my case? I have everything, except for that one thing I longed and wanted. Love.

"Leave! You fucking slut! Leave!"

"I will bring Melannie! I will leave with her!"

"Hindi mo kukunin ang bata, Desyrie! Baka nakakalimutan mong ako ang mayaman dito! What will you feed her? Salt?!"

Countless of nights that I had to hear how my parents fought. I was only 7 years old that time, and it lasted for three years.

Hanggang sa umalis nalang ang nanay ko ng walang paalam. The person whom I genuinely cared for left me. Just like that.

Isang araw nagising na lang ako na walang magsusuklay sa buhok, walang naghahanda ng almusal ko, ng baon ko. Sa dinami dami ng katulong dito sa bahay, walang pumantay sa pagmamahal ng aking ina. She never came back. My father will always come home drunk. At ako ang napagdidiskitahan. I would be locked up in my room for days, without food. Why? Because I remind him of my mother. Because I exactly look like my mom. I will always end up being beaten.

I think I was fourteen years old when I started to feel something about myself. Parang palagi akong galit, tapos malulungkot ng sobra. My emotions are too intense! I thought I was just being insentive but it happened everyday.

I was suicidal, I thought everything would end if I die. It's feels like all of my problems will end once I face death. Not noticing that I was dying everyday. 

I became aggressive. Madaming nagresign na katulong sa bahay dahil sa naging ugali ko. I would be angry and I would say words that are beyond my limits. It forced them to resign, because I was toxic.

Even in school, I was introvert. No one dares to talk to me. Their stares killed me every single day.

One blurry lunch time when I was eating alone in the corner. I looked around and all of the students have friends. They were laughing, probably sharing stories. Agad akong nakaramdam ng inggit.

"Hey Ynoa! I heard you mom is a mistress the reason why you can afford to study here?" halos napatingin ang lahat babaeng nakahawak ng tray na pagkain.

She looked boredly at the girl in front of her. "Are you done? I'm starving." Mataray niyang sambit.