Falling Inevitably

40th Fall

40th Fall

I breathe in and out. My heart beats so fast in nervousness. Muli kong tiningnan ang screen sa aking unahan. It's been eight hours already.

Mattheo Massen
On-going

I felt a hand touch mine. I looked up and saw the face of the love of my life, somehow it made me calm.

"Calm down, baby, it's not good for you," He said. His other hand move to reach for my baby bump.

I smiled as I remember the day I was going back to New York.

"Amara!"

Hindi ko na napigilan pa at nilingon ko na si Rigo Psalm. Wala akong inaksayang oras at tinakbo ang distansya namin.

I can't afford to be away again. I can't afford to leave him again. We already lost years, we can't waste another more years again.

"I'm sorry... I w-wasn't thinking at all," Ani ko habang patuloy na humihikbi.

We both end up getting on the plane to fly to New York.

"Amara, I want you to remember that your burden is my burden too..." He paused as he cupped my cheeks. "Your problem is my problem too. Everything that involves you, involves me too,"

I look directly through his eyes. His eyes sparkle for an impending tears. How can I keep on hurting this man who just kept on loving me unconditionally? I'm such a bad person!

"We should be together, always and to forever," Pagak siyang tumawa pagkatapos sabihin iyon. Tumayo siya mula sa kinauupuan. He kneeled with his one bended knee.

"I know, it's not the right time and the right place, but what's important is our love, our promises, our time together," May kinuha siya mula sa kanyang bulsa. It was a black ring box! He opened it and a shining princess cut diamond ring was placed on it.

"Marry me."

It wasn't a question but a command. A command I'm willing to fulfill. Without having second thoughts, I immediately nod. He stood up again and got the ring from the box. Matapos ay isinuot niya ito sa daliri ko bago ako hinalikan.

That kissed sealed our road to be together forever.

Miraculously, Theo didn't gave up and fought for his life. He stayed in the ICU for a week then he woke up again. Duon nagsimula ang tuloy tuloy na pagiging malakas niya. Until he reached the age of seven, the age of when he can finally have his major surgery.

Ipinatong ko na rin ang aking kamay sa kamay ni Rigo na nakapatong sa aking pitang buwang tiyan. He and I are almost six years married. Gaya ng sinabi ko ay wala kaming oras na dapat sayangin na naman. We married months after he proposed.

Rigo Psalm Lexington is close to being a perfect husband. Sobrang pasensya, sobrang pag iintindi, sobrang suporta at marami pang iba ang natatanggap ko mula sa kanya. Sobrang swerte ko ata sa kanya.

He's just everything I needed. Like he was given to me, he destined to be with me. That's why my I fell for him inevitably. Kahit sa unang pagkikita namin ay nahulog na agad ako kasi hindi ito mapipigilan.