Chapter 32: Jealousy

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I was thinking about making a trailer for this but I suck at editing lmao whoops.

GUYS I ALMOST FAINTED IN GYM CLASS TODAY OMG. Idek why but my vision started going blurry and i was really dizzy. My blood preasure was low i think. idek im gonna go see a doctor.

Songs for this chapter:

Steal my girl by One Direction 

Glass table girls by The Weeknd

House of Balloons by The Weeknd

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Kennedy (Also now known as Ashley):

Austin was gone and I coudnt believe I did what I just did. I had kissed him to get Justin jealous. I made Austin cheat on Vanessa! I wanted to curl up into a ball and hide. "I can't belive you did that!" Justin yells. We were in a more sucluded part of the club. "Don't you dare blame me. You choose to hang out with Chantel then with your own girlfriend! I get you might want space or whatever but drinking, doing drugs and making out with Chantel in one night is too much for me to handle." I start to spaz out. "I can't take this anymore! I- i'm going to go." I honestly don't know what else to do- but leave. I want to get out of this club as soon as possible. In one swift motion, im pressed up against the wall and Justin is pushing his weight against me. I don't speak and nor does he. He trails a hand over my cheek and I close my eyes. 

"You're not going anywhere," 

"J-Justin." 

"Shh." He starts to trail kisses down my neck, placing a hand on my hip and the other one against the wall, next to my head. I push him away from me. I will not let this happen. He's first pissed at me and now he's getting sexual with me. "Justin, stop it." I demande. Justin ignores me and presses himself up against me. "Why? I know you want me." He whispers seductivly. "Justin stop." I plead. "We've never done the dirty." He groans, as rubbing himself against me. My bottom lip trembles as he continues to attack my exposed skin with kisses. He pulls away as he takes both of my wrists and pins them over my head. He leans in and kisses me passiontly a moan escaping his perfect, pink lips. He pulls on my bottom lip and continues to kiss me. He was a much better kisser than Austin. I liked the feeling of Justin's lips on mine but right now, I needed to get away from him before we go overboard. I felt the heat rush to my cheeks when Justin looked at me in the darkness of the place. His eyes stood out in the dark of the room. 

He licked his bottom lip and sighed, running his fingers through his messy hair. "Im sorry." I whisper. He shakes his head. "No, i'm sorry. Chantel was messing with me and I shoudn't have let her. I shoud't have kissed her either." 

"You just kissed her... right?" Justin then looked un easy and I scoffed, compleatly pushing him away from me with disgust. "You've got to be kidding me." I mutter as I try to walk away from him but he depretly grabs onto me. "It was a mistake I was drunk and she took me to the bathrooms and I was horny and thinking about you and-" 

"Justin, just stop talking. Please. Just get away from me. I don't want to talk to you right now." I sigh. I honeslty didn't want to deal with him right now. Real girlfriend or not, I will not tolerate Justin's hook ups while he's 'dating' me. I still want to be treated with respect even if he actually isnt my boyfriend, but my twin sisters. Yes, I kissed Austin and yes, I feel very guilty and yes it was a huge mistake but what Justin did was ten times worse. The worst part is that I know this isn't the first time he's done something like this.

I'm ashamed of myself for cheating on him with that one simple kiss but Justin might have had sëx in that bathroom with Chantel. I don't care if he was drunk of if he was horny while 'thinking about me'. He still did what he did. Austin was just trying to help me but clearly that didn't get us anywhere. I had to talk to Vanessa. I needed to make sure she was okay and I had to explain to her. She was so nice and sweet to me and I still can't believe I did, despise what Austin told me about how they know it means nothing when they're drunk. They are still in a strong, loving realation ship and I shoudn't have had kissed him just to make Justin jealous. 

"Ash, please just listen to me, I-" 

"Justin stop it!" I yell, startling the both of us. "J-just stop it. Im going back to the hotel, and you will not speak one word to me. I want to just go back." I plead. I don't care if im being rude or a bitch, I don't want to deal with this right now. I just want to go to bed and sleep. 

"Okay." His voice is light. We go back to the hotel, no sign of Lee (Ashley Tisdale), Alexandra, Vanessa or Austin. I walk into the bathroom and change into some shorts and a plain t shirt with little cartoon characters on them. I think i'll sleep on the couch tonight. I don't care where it is as long as im not next or near to Justin on the same sleeping grounds. He notices me trying to settle on the couch and moves closer to me but I back away from him as I look down at my feet. He sighs and I know he's upset. "Y-you don't have to sleep on the couch. Take the bed. I'll sleep there." I don't bother arguing with him and take the bed. The bed is cold and empty and I hate it but I can't bring myself to ask Justin to join me. No one of us deserve the other person's company in either bed or couch. 

I try to close my eyes and sleep but I coudn't fall asleep! It was really starting to get on my nerves. I hear Justin shuffle around on the couch and I start to fell bad for him but I have to remind myself that he did do something with Chantel in that bathroom. But you kissed Austin so you cheated too. That annoying voice in my head reminded me. 

Yes but I didn't pleasure him or anything like that in the bathroom at the club! I fought back with the voice in my head. As soon as I felt myself starting to get sleepy I heard Justin let out a breath. 

In a soft voice he whispers, "Goodnight, Ash. I hope you forgive." 

I open my mouth to respond but I don't. 

I stay quite and hope that sleep takes me in soon.

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A/N:

GUESS WHAT? 

What?!

I UPDATED!! 

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WELL ANYWAYS YA I UPDATED SO YAY AND TYSM FOR READING THIS FANFICTION IT MEANS A LOT TO ME AND ILY U GUYS SO THANK U AND HAVE A NICE MORNING/DAY/NIGHT!!

-Diana

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