im upset and i want it to be over

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okay.

so i honestly thought i wouldn't have to make an authors note about this but im so done

not only am i getting messages from certain people but i've been going through my comments and holy shit it makes me sad

my inbox is filled with hateful messages from people i've never once talked to yet they have the nerve to tell me i cant write and im ugly and worthless and so on

i have tried my hardest to ignore it but guys, i cant do this anymore

not only that, but my comments are getting rude

some of you are kidding but it doesn't hurt any less

and I've said things like "suck my ass" but its because im trying to make you laugh and i constantly tell you how much i love you (if I haven't lately then well, I love you so fucking much)

its the little things that bother me too.

in one of my first ever preference called "you like him" i made the girl ask ashton to be her boyfriend and not the other way around because (this may surprise you) girls are fucking strong enough to ask the guy. they dont have to wait for him to text first and they dont have to wait for him to ask because we are just as strong but yet all the comments say "wtf" and "what"

like is it wrong? no. so why would you say that?

like, I thought my readers (being mostly female) would be glad that I was proving that girls are strong and such

but no

other than that people are saying "not your best work but it was cute" and even worse things (i've deleted most of them because it makes me upset to see them and I don't want it on my book)

people are adding me on snapchat and letting me know how ugly i am

you don't have to remind me lol

they have found my twitter and instagram

i just cant do this

im sorry if you dont like my writing

im sorry if im sarcastic

im just sorry, okay?

im considering deactivating and i have been for a long time

some of you are so nice and i love you so much but i dont know how much longer i can take this

but fuck i still updated today

who knows maybe it'll be that last one

and again, im sorry

ily

bye

- becca

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