Ken didn't go with Aubrey back to Canada. Galit na galit si Hans sa kambal ni Iya nang malaman nito ang ginawa ni Ken. Aubrey had been staying in his penthouse. Ilang araw na itong hindi lumalabas. Wala itong matutuluyan so Hans lent her his penthouse for a few days. Aubrey's parents were in Canada. Nag-migrate kasi ang mga ito a year ago.
Awang-awa siya sa kaibigan pero hindi niya magawang magalit kay Ken. It's Ahn. She's messing with his head again. Halata namang hindi pa nakakamove-on si Ken sa kinakapatid nila. It didn't really surprise her. Kilala niya ang kapatid. Minsan lang ito magmahal, pero malalim.
"He's just confused right now," she told Hans, in Ken's defense.
"Confused? CONFUSED? It's been three years, Iya. He should be over her already!"
Sinimangutan nya ang asawa. Dapat honeymoon nila ngayon, pero heto sila, nagtatalo.
"Kung nakipag-break ba ako sa 'yo, makaka-move on ka kaagad?" Hindi ito sumagot. "Kasi kung oo, masasaktan ako. I will get hurt knowing that you found it that easy to move on from me. I'd be thinking that you didn't love me enough."
"So you'd rather have me hang on to you than see me happy after you left?"
"Kind of selfish, I know, but yes."
Hans sighed. "Iba naman kasi tayo. We've been together, they haven't. May pinagsamahan na tayo so walking away would be harder for us."
She shook her head. "There's no justifying the hurt, Hans. They may not have been together, but that doesn't mean that they didn't love each other enough."
"I just can't stand seeing Aubrey like that. Ramdam mo rin siguro."
"Oo naman. I love Aubrey like I love Ken. But they have to get through this on their own. Hindi tayo pwedeng manghimasok. Buhay nila yun e. Let them sort things out on their own."
"Okay," pagsang-ayon ni Hans. "But if things get out of hand—"
"I'll talk to him. I promise."
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How do I unlove you?
She remembers that line all too well. Nagsisisi siyang pinanuod nya pa ulit ang palabas na 'yon. Ilang beses na ba niyang iniyakan ang reruns ng Starting Over Again? Kahit ilang beses na niya iyong napanuod, pareho pa rin ang epekto. Masakit pa rin.
How do you unlove someone? Kung alam lang sana niya ang sagot...
She sighed.
Ilang araw na rin ang nakalipas simula nang umalis si Ken papuntang Canada pero hanggang ngayon hindi niya maiwasang mapatingala tuwing may makikita siyang eroplano. Life went on for everyone else. Hers remained stuck.
"Ahn, pwede ka nang umuwi. Wala na namang masyadong trabaho rito," sabi sa kanya ng supervisor sa pinag-o-OJT-han niya.
She simply smiled at him and nodded. Wala nang masyadong ginagawa dahil February na. January pa lang ay nilubos na niya ang pag-o-OT para maluwag na pagdating ng Feb. She still has to go to school from time to time. Once a week, nagmi-meet ang klase para sa pagpapasa ng weekly journal nila.
Wala naman syang ibang pinagkakaabalahan kaya ibinuhos na lang niya ang oras sa pag-o-OJT. She even celebrated her birthday there. Binibiro nga sya ng mga kasama. OJT pa lang daw pero sobrang sipag na niya. Baka pag nagtrabaho na siya, workaholic ang labas niya.
She didn't need to tell them na wala naman syang social life. Walang nag-aaya sa kanyang kaibigan para lumabas tuwing weekend o after ng OJT.
Nag-ayos na siya ng gamit at nagpaalam sa mga ito.
