Complexity Of Us (STATION Series #2)

Kabanata 37

Kabanata 37

Gulo

Nakatitig ako kay Elgene habang tumutugtog siya sa keyboard sa loob ng studio nila sa Trinity. Umaalingawngaw sa pader ng kwarto ang malumanay at malambing na himig ng piyesa na kan'yang tinutugtog.

I couldn't help staring at him as he played with the keyboard.

He is one with the keys that he's maneuvering. I saw how his passion dripped from the tunes that he's creating. And when he closed his eyes tightly, savoring the arrangement of rhythm in his heart, I could only worry about the destruction he's going to fill.

What will he feel once he knew the wickedness of their heart? How can I break the news without breaking anything in him?

Malungkot ang aking puso kahit na buo ang kan'ya habang tinutugtog ang piyesa. His fingers kept on pressing on the keys as if he memorized the whole piece with his heart.

He is very dedicated with what he's doing. Pansin ko iyon tuwing naggi-gig sila. Lahat ng mga kabanda niya mula kay Cloud hanggang kay Zake ay halata ang puso habang tumutugtog.

"Just a little change, small to say the least. Both a little scared, neither one prepared. Beauty and the beast..." I sang.

Nakahalumbaba ako habang nakatitig sa kan'yang likod. Gumagalaw ito tila isang enggranahe na inaangat at dinedepina ang bawat sulok ng kan'yang braso. Natatawa pa rin ako kapag naaalala kong hindi ko siya gaanong mamukhaan noon.

Puberty hit him as much as I could remember. The image of him being a lanky and a fragile kid is the only thing that remained is a bit of his youth. Since the world is so complex that it is cruel for the youth to survive, he is forced to throw away whatever innocence that he has.

I can't blame him for that because to adapt is to survive. Iniaakma lang niya ang sarili sa kapaligiran para makipagsapalaran... katulad na lang ng pangangailangan ng irasyonalidad sa ating rasyonalidad.

Habang abala si Elgene sa pangingialam sa mga piyesa upang makagawa ng tunog, abala ako sa pag-iisip ng paraan upang sabihin sa kan'ya ang tungkol kay Elisha. Pero hindi ko kayang sabihin sa kan'ya ang plano ni Andrea Carbajal lalo na kung hindi pa nakukumpirma.

He loves his mother and sister so much that if ever he lost one of them, he'll be so broken that he'll be render unable to move.

Bumungad sa aking paggising ang malambot na unan at marahang paghaplos sa aking buhok. Tahimik ang studio room nila at nakababahalang mukhang hindi nagpunta ang ilan niyang mga kabanda rito.

Did Elgene asked for privacy at this time? Natawa na lang ako sa naisip.

"Come stop your crying, it will be alright. Just take my hand and hold it tight. I will protect you from all around you. I will be here, don't you cry."

He's singing Tarzan's soundtrack and it felt heartwarming to hear him singing a song like this. Nakapaglagay pa siya ng sariling arrangement at estilo kaya lalong naging emosyonal ang kanta.

How beautiful it is to hear the comfort in his voice and the affection in his gentle strokes. Malumanay ang kan'yang boses, iniingatan ang aking paggising. Sasabog ang puso ko sa sobrang kasiyahan sa kan'yang ginagawa.

This is too much for me and I think that I deserve him.

"This bond between us can't be broken. I will be here, don't you cry..."

Tumagilid ako at humarap sa kan'ya.

His hot breath fanned my face. Rinig ko ang mahina niyang pag-ismid sa aking ginawa kasabay ng paghalik sa aking pisngi. Doon naman ito lumipat mula sa paghaplos ng aking buhok.