Complexity Of Us (STATION Series #2)

Kabanata 16

Kabanata 16

Yakap

Puno ng pangamba ang dibdib ay tumitig ako sa madilim niyang mga mata. Ang paraan ng pagdaan ng daliri sa pisngi ay nakaakit, nakalimutan ko tuloy huminga. Idagdag pa na hinahapit ako papalapit sa kan'yang katawan tuwing bahagyang nalalayo.

I feel so sorry for all the rational thoughts I deprived of talking! Why did I even allow myself to be irrational? At nagpahalik pa talaga, ha? Dalawang beses pa!

Marahan ko siyang tinulak palayo ngunit hinila niya ako pabalik. Suminghap ako sa namumuong inis at pinatapang ang sarili.

"Let go of me," matapang kong sabi.

Amusement fueled the crook of his lips to move. Humigit ito pataas tila nakitatawa sa aking ginawa.

Lalong nanuya ang mata niya. "Bakit, Brella? Hindi mo ba ako kilala?"

The remnants of my rational thoughts forced me out of his grip. With a wicked smile, he let me go and distanced himself a little.

Niyakap ko ang sarili at pinakiramdaman ang tibok ng puso. Mapanghamon ko siyang tinitigan. I can't accuse him about the kiss because I am aware of what I did. Tanda kong tinanong niya ako at pumayag ako roon!

"You're the band's pianist and a student of Trinity, that's all I know," I defended. "May dapat pa ba akong malaman?"

His curiosity glistened under the moonlight.

Pumamewang siya at yumuko upang silipin ang paang pinaglalaruan ang bato. "Sigurado ka ba, Brella? Hindi mo talaga ako kilala?"

Humalukipkip ako at tinawanan ang kan'yang kumpiyansa. "Who are you to know in my life? Ilang beses pa lang kitang nakita pero hinalikan mo na agad ako."

"Hindi tayo ilang beses pa lang nagkita, Brella. I know you know it's more than that."

I bit the inside of my cheek to prevent my annoyance from seeping out. For all I know, keeping rational thoughts is a weapon under a forged fight. Kung saan 'man abutin, ang mahalaga ay ang katinuan ng pag-iisip.

Dinilaan niya ang kan'yang labi at kinagat bago pakawalan. He grinned at me. "Your lips taste so sweet, my princess. Pwedeng isa pa?"

Napuno ako ng galit. "And I thought you're a woman advocate?"

He nodded. "It made me rethink your experiences, princess. Hindi ka magaling humalik at—"

"Bastos!" nagpupuyos sa inis kong sabi. Nagpipigil pa ako ng galit nito! Kaonti na lang talaga, Elgene, at hihilahin ko 'yang pilikmata mo!

He shrugged as if he disregarded my invitation for him to stop!

"Well, if you're honestly very eager to know how to kiss—I kiss French, by the way—then I might as well invite you to my pad. You know, MOMOL-MOMOL?"

Kahit gaano kasobra ang inis ay pinigilan ko ang sarili. Hindi ako papayag na mawala ako sa tamang pag-iisip. In a place where people can be irrational, I should be the one to be held rational!

"I am not anyone's MOMOL partner or fuck buddy. Hindi ako gano'ng babae!"

"At hindi rin ako gano'ng lalake," saad niya. "Princess, you're so goddamn hot with that shirt and shorts I want to marry you here right now."

Napasinghap ako. "Your libido! Oh my- I- ang ano mo!"

His raspy chuckle was a symbol of my failure. "Bakit? Halika, dali, isang halik pa, please? Ang sarap-sarap mong halikan," nanggigigil niyang sabi.