Not Good Enough

chapter 6

Andrea Daniels.

The way his hands caressed my naked body had me in a trance. I couldn't believe I was laying her naked allowing this boy to take my virginity. His hands were warm against my cold body...it felt so good.

"Mhmm"

Did-Did I just moan? Just from his simple touch? 

He leaned down placing his lips onto mine. My eyes closed finally as the kiss depended.

"Andrea"

I rubbed the back of his neck pulling him closer, deepening the kiss. I don't even know where all this was coming from but it felt so right.

"Andrea"

His fingers creeping at my entrance, my back arching slowly off the bed.

"Andrea"

"What?" I screamed.

I looked around noticing  everyone staring at me funny.

"Wha-what?"

"Girl are you okay?" Clar asked examining my face.

I looked around noticing I was on a deck chair at the beach. 

"Yeah I'm...what happened?"

She started laughing at me.

"Giiiiiiiiirl"

Before she could finish talking Cal came over.

"Shit sis you good? You got knocked the fuck out man" He said examining my face.

"I got what? Where's Zay?"

"Man I should fuck that fucking nigga up man, shit look at your fucking face" He yelled handing me a ice pack.

I frowned allowing Clar to put it on the side of my face.

"Can someone just tell me what happened"

"We was talking, cool then some fucking idiot kicked a ball and it hit you deck on the side of your face knocking you out instantly"

"Oh..." I chuckled lightly.

"Shit ain't funny Andrea" Zay said clearly pissed.

I tilted my head checking if her was talking to me.

"Df you crying for? I'm okay ain't I?"

He glared at me.

"What the fuck is your problem?" Clar asked.

I rolled my eyes and sat up completely.

"I'm ready to go home now" I said bored of this whole situation.

"Common Drea, we juss got you out your house" Cal said.

"Well you need to check your cousins attitude" I said getting up completely.

"Ain't no one need to check me" Zay said waving me off.

I juss chuckled lightly but before I could say anything I was interrupted.

"Lets go get ice cream" Monique said dragging me and Clar away.

"I don't know what his problem was, it was clearly a accident" I said rolling my eyes.

"Its okay girl, we getting ice cream" Nique said.

Izayah Smith.

"Bro whats the matter with you man?" Cal asked.

I waved him off sitting on the beach chair watching the girls walk away.

"Sn, we finna talk when we get back home then"

I shrugged not even caring on what juss happened. Must everything be a joke? Am I a joke.

"Im going for a walk" I said getting back up.

I walked away before anyone could say anything. I walked by the water thinking about my people back home. Why could nothing go right for me? 

Bzzzzzz

"Hello?" I answered without even checking the caller ID.

"Zay?"

I moved the phone from my ear then looked at my phone.

"India? Why it sound like you crying?"

She sniffed.

"I miss you"

I sighed shaking my head.

"I miss you too sis, but you know I can't come back"

"Why did you---"

"---Don't" I said cutting her off.

"She's getting worse"

I chewed on my bottom lip.

"The rest of us miss you too"

"Your juss gonna have to hold it down till I get back on my feet sis"

I heard her sniff then loads of movement.

"Zayyy" I heard Iyana scream.

I small smile crept on my face.

"I miss you, we all miss you, mum is getting worse and .... we wanna live with you and cousin Calvin with auntie Nikki" She said asif she was going to cry too.

"Look Yaya, I got to go, but I love yall and tell India to hold it down I will see yall soon"

"Okayy"

I quickly hung up wiping my hand down my face. 

"I can't do this shit alone"

"You don't have to"

I looked up to see a slim brown skin girl looking directly at me.

"Sorry" She said quickly.

"Nah your good"

"You okay, if you don;t mind me asking"

"I...Idk"

She walked over handing me her blunt, I instantly took a long pull on it.

"I'm Alicia"

"Izayah" I said finally handing her back her shit .

She smiled walking beside me.

"I know you don't know me, but if you ever need someone to talk to, Im all ears"

I looked at her long and hard.

"Thanks" I said walking away from her.

She wants Andrea.

***

"Bro that was your 5th spliff, talk to me" Cal said starring at me with a worried look.

We was currently home, it was early morning and I just couldn't sleep.

"The girls called me early at the beach"

"They said mums is getting worse with the shit, I know that dead beat ass nigga ain't helping either, I juss need to get quick and easy money man"

He raised his eyebrow.

"I need to move them out here with me, shit ain't fair, if I never--"

"---I got you" He said stopping me. "You got me?"

I nodded.

"Always"

"Then this what we gonna do...."

Tbc...