My Public Diary

The Wrong Things

Somehow I always say and do the wrong things. When I talk to a friend, I'll say something wrong. It'll either offend them or just make them wonder why they're my friend.

I always have to ask myself, "have I said anything that might turn them away...?" "What did I do this time?"

Then there are the times that I know what I said to turn them away. I instantly regret it. I'll say something and I'll know I shouldn't have said it based on their reaction.

I hide things as well as say the wrong things. And if someone unknowingly asks about something I hide, I might say something wrong.

When I say something wrong, I don't know if the person still wants to talk to me. I feel like they hate me. Usually I'm wrong, again...

And when I do something wrong, it's worse. Actions speak louder than words. If I let an emotion slip in the wrong way, it could be catastrophic.

Being the youngest of three, I'm usually the wrong one. I'm constantly being corrected or judged.

Saying the wrong things is one of my fears. I'm scared of losing a good friend if I say the wrong thing. I also have a fear of being alone. I'm afraid if I make a mistake, everyone will leave me, and I'll be alone. Maybe that's why I correct people, because I'm scared of being wrong.

Even when I'm not wrong, I'm still wrong.