Dear Highschool

Chapitré 25: Home

Mariz' POV

Pauwi na kami ngayon sa Manila. Kakatapos palang namin ayusin lahat ng gamit namin. Actually papunta na kami sa sasakyan.

"Mariz? Tulungan na kita jan." Pagpipresinta ni James na dalhin ung gamit ko.

"Eh? Wag na. Okay na ako." I said. Ambilis ng pangayayare. Alam kong madami sa inyo ang nagtataka kung bakit sinagot ko kaagad siya.

We are... In an open relationship.. Nakakalito man pero, we just made this thingy so he can help me move on.

We will act lovers but pwede kami makipagusap sa ibang boys and girls...

He also told me na once na mafall ako sa kanya, panalo siya. We will be true lovers na. Then I agreed..

But I told him na we need to keep this as a secret to my family first. Madami ng pinoproblema ang parents ko, ayoko makadagdag.

"Mariz? Ano? Boyfriend mo naman ako eh." He then chuckled. "Haha. Amina kasi." Then he get my stuffs papunta sa car.

Pagdating namin doon ay nandun na silang lahat. Nahuli na pala kami.

I looked at Rollaine, mula kagabi hindi pa niya ako kinakausap eh. Nagulat ata sa inanusyo ko.

Bash me if you like! Bakit ba? I want to move on. Habang nagdadrive si James at ako naman nakaupo sa tabi niya ay napatinggin ako sa rear view mirror. I looked at Rollaine at nahuli ko naman siyang nakatinggin sakin. Pero nagiwas siya ng tinggin.

I looked at Jayanne while peacefully sleeping at Colin's shoulders who is busy facing his phone.. Naawa ako sa kanya, sa situation niya, nila I guess.

Cancer.. I pray na hindi pa severe ang sakit niya. I have guilt in my heart. I shouldn't think of bad things to her..

I know you've got the best intentions
Just trying to find the right words to say
Promise I've already learned my lesson
But right now, I wanna be not okay.

I already learned my lesson. I learned not to love the person who hurt me. Alam ko, Love and Pain is together.

I'm so tired, sitting here waiting
If I hear one more "Just be patient"
It's always gonna stay the same

I'm so tired Colin. Hoping na babalik ka sakin. You are giving me hopes, sa pinapakita ko sakin. Yung sa paghalik mo sakin.. stay?? Can I stay, kung lagi ganun ang nangyayari? You choses her..

So let me just give up
So let me just let go
If this isn't good for me
Well, I don't wanna know

I know it's for my own Good. It's for our Good. Magand na siguro na ituon ko lahat ng pansin ko Kay James noh?

Let me just stop trying
Let me just stop fighting
I don't want your good advice
Or reasons why I'm alright

I need to stop. Im too tired fighting.. Mahina lang ako compared sayo.. I wish you know. But You Don't know. (Yan yung title XD)

Natigilan ako sa pagiisip ng mamatay yung music. I looked at James.

"Tss." He then position his hand on my lips then shape it with a smile. "Can you smile please?" He said silently. I nodded.

"Thank you." I mouted.

He then played another song in his phone. He smiled at me.

There are three words, that I’ve been dying to say to you
Burns in my heart, like a fire that ain’t goin’ out
There are three words, & I want you to know they are true…