Brian's POV
After my argument with Jess, I felt terrible about how I left things. I was the one who hurt her. I pushed her away when she didn't deserve it. I should've understood that she just needed some space, and that she needed to let out her feelings. But instead, I yelled at her and confessed my true feelings.
I don't regret telling her I love her. It's the truth, and it'll never change. But I regret the way I did it. I never imagined that the first time I told her I loved her, I would be shouting it at her, in the middle of an argument. But I knew that I needed to make things right.
So, a few hours after our argument, I went back to her house to apologize for my behavior, hoping that it wouldn't turn into another fight. It seems like we've been doing that a lot lately. I didn't know how she would react. I assumed she'd be angry with me for leaving an argument like that. I considered that fact that she might not even let me in the house this time. Just in case, I decided to write her a letter to express how I was feeling. I figured that I could get my feelings out better in writing, instead of being a stuttering mess while speaking to her. And at least if she turned me away, I could leave my note there for her to read whenever she felt like it. I decided that I had nothing left to lose, so I poured my heart and soul into this letter:
8/12/16
Dear Jessica,
I'm sorry that I yelled at you. But I'm not sorry for telling you that I love you, because it's the truth. I have been in love with you from the moment I met you, almost five years ago. Every day that I spend with you, I fall deeper and deeper in love with you. I guess that's why I've been acting so irrationally.
You've always called yourself my "biggest fan," which I find quite adorable. But I know this means more than just being a fan of the show. You've always been there for me. And I'm sorry that I've taken advantage of that lately. I appreciate everything you've done for me. I'm grateful that I have you in my life, and I don't tell you that nearly enough.
You're everything to me. I don't want to lose you. So, I promise you, I will accept however you feel. I'll respect whatever decision you make. I love you, Jessica, even if you don't feel the same way.
Love,
Brian.
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I arrived at her house, with my hand-written note. I didn't know what to expect, but I knew I had to at least try. I couldn't just give up, because Jess was too important to me. I knocked on her door several times. It felt like déjà vu from just a few hours earlier. Of all the possibilities that ran through my head, nothing could've prepared me for what I saw.
When she opened the door, she was a stumbling, stuttering mess. It took me a minute to realize what was happening because the sight of Jess like this was so foreign. She was drunk.
I was so confused that I didn't realize what I was seeing at first. I had never see Jess drunk before, so her behavior was so bizarre to me. She was typically in control of herself, and now she was a bit of a mess.
"Oh, look who's back," she stuttered.
"Jess... are you okay? Can I come in?" I said, asking for permission this time instead of just barging in.
"Sureee... of course. Don't I always let you back in?" she said, somewhat sarcastically.
My whole plan was thrown off. I completely forgot about giving her the letter I wrote. Now I was just focused on making sure Jess was okay. That was the most important thing right now.
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Loyalty
FanfictionWhen Brian met Jessica, he instantly fell for her. Almost immediately, they became best friends. Brian always wanted more, but there was something keeping them from being together. This story begins right before Impractical Jokers began airing.