Unspoken Words

limampu't dalawa

I asked my self once when I already reached the limit that I barely know I set in the deepest part of my being,
"Why bother?" then I asked again,
"Why not?"
But questions started to pile up and I feel the sudden jolt of pressure and the numbness of my soul to every thing and every one and to the world.
Then I thought,
with my last piece of hope that I store carefully when they took everything away from me,
do they even bother that I bother?
do they even know that I bother?
do they even deserve my bother?
I laughed and laughed until I no longer feel the happiness that a laughter should give
and should have.
I am living in a world where humanity is slowly vanishing into the dark together with the countless chances that was only taken for granted and the opportunity to be better are being thrown away.