Penny for my thought. Give me the penny's. (Part 4)

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[Nothing... just nothing....]

[I can't be the only one who thinks iiSuperwomanii is hot...]

[~Some may be from showing up. Others are from growing up. Sometimes I was so messed up I didn't have a clue! I ain't winning no one over, I wear it just for you, I GOT YOUR NAME WRITTEN HERE IN A ROSE TATTOO!!!~]

*Randomly while half sleep* [I feel that my best friend needs a hug... Fuck she's not down the block anymore...now i need a hug... 😔💔]

[I'm sick of being sick. I'm sick of being tired. I'm sick of stupid shit and being uninspired.... Wait a second... BARS!]

[3's a charm.]

[IF THIS FUCKING TRANSIT WIFI DON'T START WORKING ON THIS STUPID ASS TABLET... Why? Why must I suffer?]

*Hugging a friend on my cat* [Can I hold you a little while longer? I kinda need this.]

[Apple ,slapple, snapple, japple, napple, flapple, dapple, capple, chapel, happle, rapple...]

[What if dragons don't hide what if they are so big we just assume they aren't there because they blend in with nature so much? I mean they could just be hiding though, like seriously there are parts of central park that people don't ever see unless they walk off path...]

[Why do I suddenly want to lick your face...???] *looking at my friends cheek*

[I just wanna be OK, be OK, be OK, I just want to be OK today!~]

[How do you piss someone off? ... You ask questions!!!! Start with the W's.]

[When? When did you discover that you didn't love me?, When did you discover that I love you? When are you going to love me back? When are you going to make up your mind about leaving or decide to give me a second chance? When are you going to tie up this loose end or reattach the string?]

[Why? Why do you stick around? Why do you insist on telling me you love me when I know you don't? Why won't you go? why wont i go? Why do we continue with this back and forth? Why won't you tell me the truth?]

[Where? Where will we be in a few years? Where did it all go wrong?]

[What? What's the point? What purpose do I have to you? What's the reasoning that neither one of us has fully let go? What will it take to mend this all or end it? What am I not giving you? What won't you give me? What's my worth in your eyes?]

[Then you move on to other questions like If's, But's and How's]

[If you had nowhere else to go would you come back? If Certain events didn't happen how would we be? If you wouldn't have left would I have stayed? If the roles were switched would you stay?] 

[How do we handle this? How do we move on from this point? How do we let go or mend this? How long is it going to take?]

[But is that the best choice? But what If we can't fix it? But what if we can? But where do we go from there? But how will this affect us?]

[Fuck a Tsunami dream. I'm learning how to swim, float, hold my breath all that shit. My cat learning too.]

[Angel hair pasta is for spaghetti, Fettuccine is for alfredo, Rotini is for chicken noodle soup, Macaroni is for baked mac & cheese, Tripolini is for stove top white cheese and broccoli, Alphabet pasta is for tomato soup. Lasagnette is for lasagna STOP FUCKING WITH MY FOOD! And how does one mess up Ravioli?]

[Holy crap... I might have to get a buzz cut...]

[Do they sell tubs of gelato?!?!?]

[Neko-Neko-Ni~ .... What the hell am I talking about?]

[But why can't I just have a shrine just to have a shrine?]

[WHAT. WHY. WHERE?. STHAPPPPP. AREN'T FUCKING MOSQUITOS SUPPOSED TO DIE OR MIGRATE IN THE WINTER TIME???!!! LORD HELP ME!]

[How many things can I write on in my house with sharpie before I get in trouble???]

[We-pa-ram...Toot Toot To-Toot Toot Toot Toot, Toot To-Toot Toot Toot Toot, Toot, To-Toot Too Too Toot, Toot Toot Too.... Make em whistle like a mistle. Bomb-Bomb.~]

[Doo-do-do-do- Dora. Di- Di-Di-Di-Di-Dickhead fox won't get a life and leave that little girl and her monkey alone. He needs a hug and some damn friends damn it.]

[why can't I find full episodes of Strange days at Blake Holsey High and House of Anubis?]

[They shouldn't have picked Cece to be A. It should have been the first guy that died that I could never remember the name of.]

[The power of 3 will set you free.]

[But how do I know I'm not a alien?]

[What's the name of the seasoning on those salty spicy mango lollipops? I wanna put that shit on a chicken quesadilla. Bitch waaa that shit sound so good.]

[Don't kill her, Don't kill him, NO BREEANA PUT THAT HAND DOWN YOU CAN'T STRANGLE A PERSON OVER PEANUT BUTTER.]

[Does my mom really think I don't know she keeps coming over here to pull random shit of the shelf just to read what I'm typing?]

[If this woman rubs her ass on my shoulder one more fucking time I'm biting her...]

[I want to go swimming and be on a swing. What if I can swing under water?]

[Find me where the wild things are.... Not outdoor wild but kinky crazy wild...]

Boy: Me and my girl wasn't talking when I started messing around with that other chick so technically I wasn't cheating. [If I punch you when your used to getting slapped are you still getting hit? Dickhead.]

[What if I end up fighting at prom? A flawless fighting Queen.]

[It would be nice if people stopped blaming sexuality, gender, race and religion for hate crimes and just stop covering up for those who create problems just so they can keep a paycheck...]

[Got my nose broken in a fight. I might be pregnant from a guy who really doesn't give a fuck about me. I only have a finger worth of talent. I have no type of life goal. I have to try everyday not to get shot, stabbed, or killed by either a cop, druggie or a bully (really no difference at this point). I'm fighting depression and suicidal tendencies those of my own and my 'Friends'. I'm highly paranoid that my grandma and cat will die around the same time. I'm still trying to get over heart break. Im slowly giving up on myself. My big toe probably has a higher IQ than me. I have the attention span of a goldfish. I'm still figuring out my sexuality. I'm hanging around people I don't really like because i just feel so alone that something is better than nothing. I hate my face because I look so much like my mother. I can't stand my biological father nor my mother's boyfriend. I'm pretty sure I'm failing every class. I have around 45+ more problems besides all this big and small and all I ever say instead of venting is "I want Icecream." "I want to swing." "I'm tired".... And yes the smile on my face is fake....] 

[I'm still a fucking Queen though...]

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