I d i S A ss o C i A t e
I disassociate
When life gets
Stressful
My mind goes blank
And
I turn off feelings
And when anyone tries to talk
I can't function
I'm an empath
When you cry
I cry
When you're stressed
I'm stressed
When you're happy
I laugh with you
When you're angry
I can fight with you for hours
If you're embarrassed
I'll blush for you
If there's something wrong
I'll make it better
When I disassociate, I turn off my feelings
I don't understand people's reactions anymore
I loose friends because I can't help them
I isolate myself
I become withdrawn
I internalize everything
I don't feel like I should
I don't feel anything
I know I should
I start arguments
I'm not a good person when I'm like that
I will do whatever I can just to feel again
But I'm just hollow
So hollow
I try to turn to drugs
Not to numb myself
But to feel alive
It doesn't work
In advance:
I apologize
I cannot help it.
It is a mental disorder.
I cannot overcome it alone.
I am in therapy.
Please be patient.
I will do the most I can for you
I will help you
I will understand
If you need a friend I am here
If you need to be alone I will leave
Please understand I can't always be what you need though
I have my own life
I have my own problems
Please do not use me
I will always forgive you though.
YOU ARE READING
Summer '17
Poetry"Reality denied comes back to haunt" -Madeline Roux • I keep trying to write about my life and I always try to start at the beginning. It doesn't ever work, I never make it to where I am now in life. So now, I will start writing from here. Just me...
