Hurt...(Jacob Perez love story)

Tell her.

::Brianna POV:: 

I...I don't know what to say. I didn't mean for it to go that far. I could see the hate and frustration in her eyes. She scared me to death. I thought she was gonna kill me. She didn't look like she would hesitate either. All of a sudden I feel this guilt come over me. I've been torturing her since the 1st grade and she's finally snapped. I accomplished something. I made her feel how I've always felt. insecure, alone. I've noticed the marks on her arm but never said a thing. It's hard to believe that I've been the cause of her almost dying, twice. I know when she tried to commit suicide I acted like I didn't care, but truth is...I was terrified. I thought maybe I would leave her alone, but then I noticed all the attention she was getting and it pissed me off. Why is she so special?  Jacob was right. it was all my fault.  It's just.....I was so sick of her always being better then me. Every boy in school always stares at her when she's not looking and raves about how beautiful and thick she is. I want that. I don't get how they do that and still laugh at her when I bother her. I respect her for the way she handled her self at the party. She took that ass whoopin' like a straight G. No questions asked. I must be pretty cold hearted to actually stomp on her head. i did it all out of jealousy. i'm not afraid to admit it. I had so much of her blood on my shoe that i had to throw them away, and I couldn't really live with the guilt. I know Jacob must hate me. I really liked him. I didn't want him to be with Charlene because then she would have it all. We both gave each other our virginities. He lied to Charlene and told her that I forced him. I admit, I did come on to him, but not once did he hesitate. Believe it or not that was my first time too. But I was willing to sacrifice if it meant that it would hurt Charlene. That day when we went to the zoo I heard their whole conversation. I heard how loving and caring he was towards her and she just kept pushing him away because she wanted to be left alone. I wanted him to be like that with me. I know that she would never forgive me, but if I had a chance to apologize to her, I would. I know my words hurt. They have too. I see the she cringes when I say something to her. I used to feel a bit of relief in my stomach when I saw that. Now, I just wanna cry. School has been hell for me ever since. Everyone stares at me and gives me dirty looks. Kinda like how I used to give Charlene, just for breathing. When I walk in the hallway i'm known as the girl who was so jealous to the point where she had a girl attempt to take her own life twice. That's exactly what I am. Except they forgot one thing. I'm a monster.... 

::Jacob POV:: 

I cracked my eyes open one by one to see a beautiful sight. My bonita was sleeping. She was really a sleeping beauty. The way her breathing becomes heavy, and how she always likes to keep her hand under her face is adorable to me. I had my arms wrapped around her. I could feel her soft, swift, heavy breathing on her stomach. I let go of her and examined her beautiful features. I ran my fingers down her soft, chubby cheek. It irked me to know that tears have fallen from those beautiful almond shaped eyes. I softly pushed her hair out of her face and leaned to her ear. "I love you so much" I whispered to her. I planted soft, gentle kisses on her shoulder up to her neck. When i reached the top I put my hand under her chin and kissed her sweet lips so delicately. That woke her up. She moved around a little and opened her eyes. "So your just gonna watch me while I sleep? Stalker much?" she asked with her voice groggy and flat. She sat up while I stayed laying down. "Oh, hush up. Now come here" i said laughing as i pulled her on top of me. "Oop" she said as I pulled her. Her legs were in between mine, but there was a huge difference considering she was a midget. I intwined our fingers in each other. I got lost in her eyes again. It's so easy. "How'd you sleep?" she asked. "Great, knowing that you were right there next to me" I said meaning it. She smiled her adorable smile. "What do you want to do today?" I asked her. "I don't know. You could fill me in on everything and we could just...chill. If you want." she said shrugging. I don't want to do that. Only because I might have to tell her everything that's happened for it to make sense. I don't want her hating me all over again. "Ok, we'll see." I said simply while kissing her hands. "Do you want me to make breakfast for you ,baby?" I asked her. "Ooo, Can I help? It sound like fun!" she said smiling. It's like i wanna eat her up. Literally. "Ok, mami" i said as I let go of her hands and dragged them down her body and making a stop to her a.ss. She look at what I was doing and looked at me. I winked at her. She playfully rolled her eyes and shook her head. "Gimmie kiss." I said puckering my lips. "No." she said shaking her head. "Why?" I asked pouting. "Because you have dragon breathe, now go brush." she said scrunching up her nose. "Well damn! So it's like that?" I asked laughing. "Exactly papi" she said laughing with me. "So if I go brush i can get my kiss?" I asked with a pleading face. "Of course" she said smiling. She got off of me as we both got up from the bed. As we were standing I slapped her butt and licked my lips. She looked at me and smirked, she slapped mine as well and bit her lip. I swear to god. One day. We went to the bathroom. She walked in and looked to the side to see a mirror. She looked at herself and was startled. She slowly walked over to it while touching her face. I stared at her knowing that I was gonna have to explain to her what happened. She turned around to face me. Her eyes were glistening. "Jacob.." she paused and took a breath "What happened to me? This looks like a lot more then just getting hit by a car...and..why do I have all these cuts on my arm?" She asked with a single tear coming down her cheek. This was what i was afraid of. We were so happy 5 seconds ago. i don't want that to get ruined again. i walked over to her and took her hands. "Bonita, can I tell after we brush our teeth and eat, please?" I said kissing hers soft hands. "Ok." she said a little down. She kept glancing at her face. "Hey..." I said squeezing her arm. "no matter what your see in the mirror, you'll always be my bonita, ok? Remember that." i said kissing her nose. She blushed and nodded her head. We brushed our teeth and blah, blah, blah. I watched her as we went downstairs to make breakfast. then i realized something. I still didn't get my damn kiss! I grabbed her arm spun her around and held her super close to me. She was so close that he boobs were suffocated against my chest. Ay yi yi! Kill me now. But I still liked it. "I want my kiss" i said lowly at her while my finger trailed down her soft plump lips. A smile crept upon her face. She got on her tippy toes, leaned in and gave me the most softest most delicate kiss. When she pulled away she bit my lip, tugged on it, letting it make a popping sound and winked at me. I swear she knows the best way to turn me on even in the morning. I had chills going down my back. She began walking away towards the kitchen. The hell she think she going? I had a grip on her hips and brought her back once again. "I'm not done yet." I said in my low husky voice. "What do you mean? I gave you your kiss." She said sounding innocent. "I know, but it's the way you gave it to me. I want more." i said leaning closer. Our lips were practically bushing against one another, teasing each other. Soon, I just couldn't take it anymore. I pressed my lips against hers. I felt that spark. So perfect. I sucked on her bottom lips while letting my hands take a trip down her body. I tugged on her lip asking for an entrance and she excepted. I tightened my grip on her as I stuck my tongue in her mouth deepening the kiss. As I did that she wrapped her arms around my neck, while rubbing the back or it. Our tongues wrestled and circled around each other. After our full blown make out session, I slowly pulled away. She did the same and blinked repeatedly. I know that she's gonna be think about that for a while. "Good God." she muttered. I smiled at her. I pressed my forehead against hers and looked her deep in the eyes. "I love you with all my heart, forever bonita." I whispered to her. She looked up at me. "I love you more ,papi." she whispered back. "That's not possible." I said with a serious face. "Yes, it it because it's true" she said smiling. I kissed her bottom lip twice before bringing her to the kitchen so we could start on breakfast.