Troubles Of My Life ✔️

Revealed

It's a little bit funny this feeling inside
I'm not one of those who can easily hide
I don't have much money but boy if I did
I'd buy a big house where we both could live

If I was a sculptor, but then again, no
Or a man who makes potions in a traveling show
I know it's not much but it's the best I can do
My gift is my song and this one's for you

And you can tell everybody this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it's done
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you're in the world

I sat on the roof and kicked off the moss
Well a few of the verses well they've got me quite cross
But the sun's been quite kind while I wrote this song
It's for people like you that keep it turned on

So excuse me forgetting but these things I do
You see I've forgotten if they're green or they're blue
Anyway the thing is what I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen

And you can tell everybody this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it's done
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you're in the world
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May...

Things have been very busy for me lately so I haven't been able to write. I am writing now as I am sitting on the train heading towards home, I'm going to youth and soccer first so it's a long day.

I have been at uni for two months now, I have had some problems but the work is a good amount that I can cope with and I am very interested in. The course I am doing will take 3 years and I have just started this year so I have a bit to go.
I use the train to get to and from uni most days instead of driving. I do have my own car and a license just most of the time it is cheaper to take the train. The trip is longer but I wouldn't be doing much anyway and I can do work on the train if I have to.

I go straight to the hall for youth group. So far only a few of the girls have arrived. The two leaders Casey and Ella are here also, I go over to them and put my bag down. I find out that tonight we will be helping the girls to make muffins and play some games.
We start to get everything organised while waiting for the rest of the group to show up. All 15 of the girls show up and we start the night and tell them what we are doing. They always get excited whenever we are cooking.

We make 3 groups of 5 so that they can all help to make the muffins and it's easier to manage than one big group. We only make a small batch in each group so it makes a total of 18 muffins from everyone to have one each. The muffins are in the oven and we finish cleaning up when the smell gets to me and I go to the bathroom to be sick. I finish and go to my bag for a drink and the get a piece of gum to hide the smell.
Casey comes over to me and asks "are you sick?"
I shake my head and say "I'm fine"
She says "one of the girls heard you being sick and we don't want to risk the bug being contagious"
I say "it's not"
She says "we have to be sure"
I laugh and say "I am"
She asks "how?"
I look down at my stomach and back at her, she nods and says "can we talk about this at the end of the night?"
I nod and she says "good"
We go back over to Ella and the girls to play some games, they make and complete an obstacle course and then play a game of passing the ball between them and have running races.
They finish the games and we check the muffins and they are done and get pulled out of the oven.
We do some drawings and go over some badges in their books while waiting for the muffins to cool down.
We have the end of night ceremony and hand out the muffins before the girls all leave and go home.

Casey says to me "congratulations, how far along are you?"
I say "a bit over two months"
She asks "how does the dad feel about a child?"
I say "he will find out in court"
She says "wait two months ago you were out of it kinda one night but wouldn't say why, this is the reason isn't it"
I nod and say "I turned out to be in the percentage that gets raped on university campus"
She says "I'm sorry"
I nod and say "it's okay, I'm slowly dealing with it"
Ella who had been cleaning up in the kitchen comes over to us and says "I'm not interrupting anything am I"
I shake my head and say "not really"
She says "I thought that I should tell you two before I start to show, I'm just over two months pregnant"
I smile and Casey says "I'm almost three"
I laugh and say "wow, who would have thought all three of us pregnant around the same time"
Casey nods and Ella says "wait your pregnant too"
I say "two months"
Casey asks "Sop what are you going to do?"
I say "well I'm trying to change my uni timetable so that I can work more to get more money saved. I do have to find a place to live as when my parents find out I will be kicked out of home"
Ella asks "why?"
I say "family rule, if your old enough to have a baby your old enough to move out"
Casey asks "even in the situation"
I shrug and say "not sure but will have to move out eventually better to do it soon"
Ella asks "sorry what situation"
I say "my child will be the product of rape"
She says "I'm sorry"
Casey says "my husband Joe and I have just brought a new house and in the attic there is a bathroom and enough room for two bedrooms and a study. You can take it if you want to"
I nod and say "yes please, I can pay some rent and help out if you need me to"
She nods and says "I'll talk to Joe and then we can sort it all out"
I nod and say "thank you so much"
People from the next group start to arrive so I pick up my bag and say "I have to go now"
They nod and Ella says "we are both here for you if you need help or just to talk"
I nod and say "thanks, I'll see you later"
We say bye and I leave and head out to go to my soccer team .

I spend the night watching as I don't feel like playing, I tell them I'm not feeling the best. I start feeling sick towards the end but stay quiet as I'm not ready for them to find out just yet.