Troubles Of My Life ✔️

Leaving

I still don't know what I was waiting for
And my time was running wild
A million dead-end streets
And every time I thought I'd got it made
It seemed the taste was not so sweet
So I turned myself to face me
But I've never caught a glimpse
Of how the others must see the faker
I'm much too fast to take that test

Ch-ch-ch-ch-changes
(Turn and face the strange)
Ch-ch-changes
Don't want to be a richer man
Ch-ch-ch-ch-changes
(Turn and face the strange)
Ch-ch-changes
Just gonna have to be a different man
Time may change me
But I can't trace time

I watch the ripples change their size
But never leave the stream
Of warm impermanence and
So the days float through my eyes
But still the days seem the same
And these children that you spit on
As they try to change their worlds
Are immune to your consultations
They're quite aware of what they're going through

Ch-ch-ch-ch-changes
(Turn and face the strange)
Ch-ch-changes
Don't tell them to grow up and out of it
Ch-ch-ch-ch-changes
(Turn and face the strange)
Ch-ch-changes
Where's your shame
You've left us up to our necks in it
Time may change me
But you can't trace time

Strange fascination, fascinating me
Changes are taking the pace
I'm going through

Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes
(Turn and face the strange)
Ch-ch-changes
Oh, look out you rock 'n rollers
Ch-ch-ch-ch-changes
(Turn and face the strange)
Ch-ch-changes
Pretty soon now you're gonna get older
Time may change me
But I can't trace time
I said that time may change me
But I can't trace time
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Friday...
Today I have only a half day at uni as one of my classes was cancelled. The class I did have finished and I am waiting on the train, the ride is boring today as I have nothing to do which is why I have time to write now.
I still haven't told anyone else about my baby or moving out. I get some lunch on the way home from subway and eat it sitting on a bench at the park to relax and look at the nature around me. I look at the playground and see parents with their children and I think that will be me in a few years.
After sitting for a while and finishing my food I put the rubbish in the bin and walk home.
No one is home yet so I take the chance to get some boxes and my bag and start packing the stuff I want to take such as my clothes, jewellery, makeup, photos, shoes, books, chargers, my laptop and some of the toys I had when I was a baby.
I put the packed stuff in my car so no one will see it.

I sit down at my desk and get a pen a some paper. I write the note to my parents...

Mum and Dad
I want to say I love you and thank you for everything you have done for me through out my life.
I have always known the rule about having a baby which is why I have left. I was raped a few months ago at uni and became pregnant, I am dealing with it fine and I have somewhere to live.
I'm sorry that I couldn't tell you in person but I haven't been able to get the words out and by writing this letter I know that I will be able to tell you everything.
I want you to know I am fine and will be safe, I may not come around much for a while but you don't have to worry.
I have taken some of my stuff and will be moving in with someone who knows my situation, they will help me when I need it. I will finish the year at uni as I'm due around November, I will take next year off to look after the baby and work more to start saving. My boss at work knows my situation and has given me more shifts and will let me come back after maternity leave. I have things planned and I would like to thank you for helping me get to this point in my life as without everything you two have taught me I don't know if I could do this.
Love Sop.

I hide the letter in my drawer and get the last things ready for me to leave tomorrow.