blessing.

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"I love you, please don't leave me." is all I hear in the ambulance before everything goes black.

"mommy?" I question as I see a woman who resembles my once loving mother.

"hello baby" she smiled, still as beautiful as I remembered her.

"you're so beautiful momma. I miss you so much." I started to cry

"you're so strong baby, look at all you've lived through." she hugs me

"mommy why do good people go through bad things, I'm a good person, but I can't catch a break." I pull my hair in frustration

"you have loving father figure now, a better one then your real father was. you have Jack haze, he adores you. zack and rian love you and so do all the other boys."

"mommy where am I?" I start to look around

"a place between life and death." she sighs

"am I going to die?" my mind begins to race.

"not this time darling. you still have a purpose." she smiles

"what's my purpose?"

"to love endlessly and completely darling. love everyone and under no circumstances is love unnecessary. love for the depraved, the broken, and the angry. love everyone and don't be ashamed of who you love." she smiles

"mom I think I like jack, don't tell anyone."

"I know silly, he likes you too. just be careful, you're both so young still. he's 21 (set in 2012 right now, so the age isn't incredibly off) and you're 15. (things are changing don't question it) you're father and I were five years apart and we were very in love for a long time."

"mom how long have we been here?"

"in earth time a week. here it's been an hour." she sighs

"what's that noise?" I ask my self out loud.

"it's alex" I say a little louder

"Now don't lose your fight, kid,
It only takes a little push to pull on through,
With so much left to do;
You'll be missing out, and we'll be missing you.

I heard that you've been
Having some trouble finding your place in the world.
I know how much that hurts,
And if you need a friend
Then please just say the word...

You've come this far,
You're all cleaned up,
You've made a mess again,
There's no more trying,
Time to sort yourself out..." i hear alex sing lightly and my hands start to tingle

"mommy I don't want to leave you again." I cry

"I'm always just a dream away darling."
and with that she kissed my forehead and everything was black again.

everything was black but I could hear everyone.

the first day it was alex singing to me all day.
the second day zack and rian brought me balloons and said how when I woke up we'd swallow the helium and talk funny together.
then it was Vic and the rest of ptv telling me I was strong. then om&m came and told me they were taking care of my cat until I was better. then it was the nurse telling me I was loved and I needed to wake up soon. then it was the doctor and alex. the doctor telling alex there wasn't anything they could do but wait, saying my concussion was bad and they weren't sure what I would remember. I'll remember them. I always will. still no Jack. I haven't heard him since the ambulance and I longed to hear his voice. I could feel days pass. alex was always here for a little bit. after what felt like years Jack came.

"hey hazey" I could almost hear his sad smile

"you missed my birthday, I'm 22 now. your birthday is in a month now. you've been out forever." he sighs

"they've postponed Max's trial until you're better. they said if you get better but I know you will. you're a fighter, that's what I admire about you mostly. you never give up no mater the circumstances. I admire how your eyes gleam when you see something you like or when you're doing something you love. I believe some people have old souls, you can tell how they look at the world. people here for the first time look at everything like it's new, drinking it all up. you look at everything like you've seen it all before, like you've lived it all. but you still seem so entranced my the worlds beauty and I love that about you." he sighed

"please wake up hazel, I miss you." he whispers in my ear sending chills down my body. he kisses my forehead and then he's gone.

that night I feel something strong in the pit of my stomach. like when you have to pee really bad and I knew tonight was the night. I forced myself to open my eyes and it took 15 tries but I forced them open and they stayed open. I couldn't move my legs yet but I saw one of them was casted up. I remembered falling. I remembered Max. I remember everything. soon I tried to talk but the air was filled with raspy nearly inaudible sounds. I could slowly move my arms and I reached for the call button, missing the first time. soon a nurse came and smiled

"I knew you could do it doll."

she checked my vitals and told me she called alex and he would be here first thing in the morning.

she fed me ice chips and tried to get my body moving a little, soon I could talk.

"I spent half my life wishing I were dead and when it came time to die, I knew I wanted to stay alive." my raspy voice shakes as I start to cry.

"you're a blessing. get some rest." the nurse smiled and kissed my forehead.

"wait, how long was I out?" I asked worried

"nearly 7 months." she sighed

"no zombie apocalypse or anything right?"

"no, but it took that skunk boy almost 7 months to come see you. he'd walk up to your door and leave every day." she shook her head

"I think I love him." I whispered

"I think he loves you too." she smiled closing the door.

AUTHORS NOTE ~~~~
are y'all happy lmao hack or jazel ? but do y'all like ???? I'm gonna start slowing things down a little after this because these past chapters have been a little crazy. but vote/comment do your thing !!!!

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