CRY OF THE CASANOVA [Ms.Fearless VS Mr. Casanova, #1]

[86] - Wild And Fearless

OK, UD for tonight. Sensya kung maiiksi lang guys ha. Bawi-bawi din ako pagmay time. :)

Yung sa mga nagtatanong pala kung ilang chapters pa, well...masasabi ko lang malapit na. Hindi ko lang matantya kung ilang pa. HAHA pero malapit na talaga ang ending. Itong mga inuupload ko ngayon, last parts na. So ayun. Saka na ako magsspeech pagtapos na ang kwento! :)) 

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CHAPTER 86

Wild And Fearless

This is one of the worst birthday ever! Pangalawang beses na nangyari sa tanang buhay ko ang magkaroon ng ganitong birthday party. Ang una ay noong namatay si mommy. Ngayon, sinundan naman ng kagaguhan ni RJ at nang babae niya.

Alam niyo ba kung ano ang iniisip ko ngayon? Isa lang naman. Yun ay...plinano niya ang lahat ng ito. It is part of his plan to make me fall in love with him and eventually break my heart in the end. Hindi ba't ganito naman talaga ang gawain ng mga casanova? They love playing games with women, they love to seduce them and they make every woman fall in love with them. But in the end...when they get tired of them and has already got what they want, they leave them. Just like what RJ did to me. 

Seriously...paano nya na-plano ang lahat ng ito? His wise. Really wise. Wala akong masabi sa kanya kundi ang galing niya. Ang galing nila ng babae niya! Siguro, hindi na natiis ng babaeng iyon ang pinaggagagawa niya kaya inilantad na lang ang lahat. And he thinks that his plans have no chance of being revealed. Well, he's wrong about that. Buking na siya!

Hatred is what I feel right now. Pagkamuhi at pagkabigo ang nararamdaman ko. Kinamumuhian ko siya sa lahat ng ginawa niyang panloloko sa akin. Sa lahat ng mga salitang binitawan niya na napaniwala ako. He made me believe that everything is right by his damn efforts. Pero effort lang pala iyon para paniwalain ako. Pagkabigo, dahil...kung kailan mahal na mahal ko na siya, dun niya sinira ang tiwala ko't pinaglaruan ang pagmamahal ko. Sino bang mag-aakala na sa lahat ng kanyang mga ginawa at pinakita sa akin ay puro lang pala pagpapanggap? Napakagaling. Now, I've realized that not all efforts are sincerely done and showed. Sometimes they are only to make a person believe for own interest or fun. 

I took a sip of wine in my glass. Just arrived in my condo an hour ago. The first thing I did was soak myself in this bathtub, having a bubble bath. It was raining heavily a while ago, thus I got so wet from the rain. Really epic, nakisalamuha pa ang ulan sa amin kanina. I actually wanted something romantic to happen when it rains...and it's kissing under the rain. Sino bang babae ang hindi pinapangrap ang ganito? It's romantic. But things turned out to be the opposite way around. 

I put back my wine glass on my side. I closed my eyes and slowly submerge my whole body in the tub. 

"I won't cry. I'm never gonna cry over something that is not worth my tears." I said to myself. I promise. I swear. Never.