Frozen Heart (KARA FANFICTION)

Chapter 28: Sheila Marie Pineda

AN: Holy week.. I'm supposed to be unwinding but acads too cruel on me so nag-ud na ako ng magkasunod dahil kundi sigurado akong matatapos ang Mahal na Araw na isa lang na-UD ko. Gusto ko 2 kasi ideally dapat may 5 araw akong break haha. 

Pagtyagaan n'yo 'to kasi raw product. Maraming typos baka pati grammar ko inuuod na haha. Gusto ko na lang talaga mag-UD

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Nasabi ko na bang ang saya ko? Pwes, kung hindi pa uulit-ulitin ko hanggang sa magsawa ako kasi ang saya, saya, saya, saya, saya, saya, saya, saya ko! Syete! Ang corny ko. Haha. Pero wala eh. Ganito yata talaga pag inlove. Nakakabuwang. It's just, never have I ever imagined that I could be this happy in my entire life. This was the kind of happiness which overflows in a way that it could not be contained. The kind that makes someone feels so light as if floating in midair. A state which is simply too overwhelming to take. Everything is just somewhat surreal that I still couldn't bring myself to believe that I can finally look at her with so much affection and this time I need not try my best to hold myself. I am no longer a prisoner of what I once thought as something that can never be reciprocated. Now, I am free. Free of all the emotions I have kept for so long inside of me.

I looked at her as she sleeps peacefully and beautifully on her bed and I couldn't help but feel my heart flutter. I smiled with the realization that I really love her so much to the point that if only I was born a writer I'd do nothing but write about her all day. I'd write poems, anecdotes, short stories, novels, and books about her. I would offer every literary work I could think of only to her. I would never stop writing until I've written every bit of detail of how much I love her. Then, when I finally run out of words, I'd go out there and venture the world just to tell everyone of how I met this girl who turned my whole being in reverse and defied the law of gravity.

I didn't know I was capable of loving this much that I drowned before I even realized it. Dati naman kasi wala akong masyadong pakialam sa tinatawag na pag-ibig na 'yan lalo na't wala naman akong ibang iniisip noon kundi laro. Akala ko 'yun lang 'yung napapanood kong palabas sa tv. 'Yung konting pasweet, pakilig dito at mga kung anu-anong banat dyan. But now, I've realized that love is more than just that. Hindi pala madali at isa kami ni Bang sa patunay nito. Love is not a path of roses but the exact opposite. It requires constant sacrifices and a lot of patience. Madaming pagsubok ang pagdadaanan at maaring nagsisimula pa nga lang kami ni Bang pero alam ko na kakayanin namin lahat basta magiging sandigan namin ang isa't-isa.

Kami. Ang sarap isipin na may ganitong konseptong namamagitan sa amin at nakakabaduy mang aminin pero kinikilig pa rin ako hanggang ngayon. Ganito pala ang pakiramdam na mahal din ako ng taong mahal ko. Parang ayoko nang matulog dahil sa wakas hindi na lang panaginip ang lahat. Totoo 'to at gagawin ko lahat para ingatan kung ano man ang meron kami. S'ya na ngayon ang pinaimportanteng babae sa buhay ko sunod kay moms at ibibigay ko ang lahat-lahat sa akin para lang mapasaya s'ya. Her happiness is my happiness and I would do anything so I could be the best girlfriend if not perfect, for her. I love her so much that I wouldn't stand seeing her without a smile even just for a moment. Masyado pa nga siguro kaming mga bata at hindi ako dapat masyadong magpakalunod sa lalim ng nararamdaman ko pero ngayon lang ako nagmahal ng ganito. Sa totoo lang, natatakot din naman ako kung minsan dahil baka masaktan din ako sa huli pero para sa kanya handa akong sumugal. I just really love her, from her flaws to her perfections. I love every bit of her and for me, she's the one. Wala akong pakialam kung sobrang aga pa para sabihin ko 'to pero hindi naman kasi ako 'yung tipo na mangongolekta lang ng babae. Hindi ko hiningi ang matamis n'yang oo para lang sa huli ay maghiwalay din kami. Oo, ako na ang cheesy, corny at baduy pero kung s'ya naman ang dahilan ay hinding-hindi ko 'yung ikahihiya. I'd actually even be proud because it only shows how truly, deeply, madly and genuinely in love I am with her.