The Bad Boy's Girl is a Gangster

[35] fragile heart

Sofia's POV

I'm still in my car. Thinking on how to apologize, pero hindi kay Autumn. Ayokong nagagalit sa'kin si Joshua lalo pa na kakagaling lang namin sa away nung nalaman niya ang pagiging gangster ko. Christmas is coming and I don't want it to celebrate without him. Goddammit! Bakit ba kasi kailangan pa umeksena ni Autumn? She's in the bad timing! I'm just having my bad day then she makes everything worse! I'm jealous, and it's pretty obvious right? I don't want to see her touching my guy. Kahit nga ang paglapit kay Joshua ay ayoko. I know girls. Most of them are being clingy to guys just to get the fucking attention. Tss.

A knock on my car's window drag me out of my thoughts. Nilingon ko yung tao na yon and without hesitation I open the window. "Hindi ako makakauwi sa condo ko ngayon. Sasamahan kong magpacheck up si Autumn," he said with a serious tone that gives shiver in my whole body. "So? Why are you saying this to me? Magkaiba naman tayo ng unit diba?" I tried to sound cold pero hindi ko maiwasan malungkot sa sinabi niya. I hope he won't notice the pain in my eyes. I don't want him to have pity on me.

"Nevermind, just say sorry to Autumn for what you did earlier," my eyebrows turned into V form. What the fuck did he said? Say sorry? Tss. Bitch please.

"Saying sorry to her is useless. I have lot of things to do and it's just a waste of my time. Ginusto din naman niya 'yon. Don't be so stupid Joshua. I didn't do that just to have fun or hurt her. I did that on purpose because she's hugging you for pete's sake!" napahigpit ang hawak ko sa steering wheel and I know na masyado din malakas ang pagkakasigaw ko dahil may ilan na estudyante ang nakatingin samin but who the hell cares? Sanay na ako sa atensyon na nakukuha ko sa impyernong to.

"Mali kasi ang ginawa mo Sofia! Sino ba ang isip bata na gagawa ng ganon?!" I sarcastically chuckled because of what my BOYFRIEND told me. So isip bata pala ako? Isip bata dahil nagseselos ako? Wow.

I gave him a disappointing look. Gusto kong sabihin sa kanya na nasasaktan ako. But I don't have the courage to say it. I start the engine and drove off the damn school.

Masakit yung mga sinabi sa'kin ni Joshua. He didn't know how painful his words are. It's like a dagger that stabs my chest. Siguro kung hindi lang ako magmumukhang tanga sa harap niya kanina baka naiyak na ako. Pero hindi ko yun gagawin lalo pa't nanonood si Autumn sa'min. I won't give her the satisfaction she wants.

I heaved a heavy sigh before hopping off of my car. I'm here at the exclusive bar owned by our guild. I have a vip card here because I'm the guild's princess. Dere-deretso akong naglakad papunta sa counter. I ordered Sherry wine because I want to get wasted tonight. Kung pinili ni Joshua si Autumn kesa sa'kin, well wala na akong magagawa dun. Gusto ko lang makalimutan ang lahat ng problema ko ngayon.

Nang maubos ko ang pangatlong order ko nakaramdam ako ng presensya sa tabi ko. Nilingon ko ito. Hindi ko masyadong makita yung mukha niya pero unti-unti naman nakapag-adjust yung mata ko kaya namukhaan ko na siya. He playfully grin.

"Long time no see, black."

Now I know kung sino talaga ang nasa tabi ko. He's Jonathan. Matagal na din kasi nung huli ko siyang nakita. I didn't know he's going here and having some wild time on his life. I mean enjoying his life rather. Ugh.

"Yeah, long time no see."

Itinuon ko ulit ang atensyon ko sa shot glass na hawak ko. I didn't want to talk to anyone. Sana naman maramdaman niya iyon. I'm broken. I don't know how to fix this broken heart.