Our Nanny is a Boy || bxb

85. Dear Evan Hansen

Robin's POV

They stumbled across a cute café not much later and decided to check it out. After ordering their coffees, they sat down in a corner of the restaurant, close to the fireplace. 'Hm, perfect,' Robin sighed in content, sipping his caramel latte. 'I couldn't have wished for a better date, honestly.'

Peter grinned. 'My pleasure. Do you have anything in mind for our next one?'

'Well, actually I do,' Robin said. 'Because I've heard about this new movie that's hitting theatres next week. And it's starring Lady Gaga!' He gasped.

'Wait, you mean "A Star is Born"?' Peter said. 'I was planning to go there, I just didn't know with who. Well, that settles it.' He clapped his hands.

'Oh my god,' Robin said, feeling excited. 'You like Lady Gaga too?'

'Duh,' Peter said. 'I'm bisexual. I don't even know why that never clicked with me.'

'For real,' Robin said. 'You liked Lady Gaga and sincerely believed you were straight? I'm- I'm sorry, but I can't defend you anymore. You are really dense.'

'Well, no sh*t, Sherlock,' Peter said. 'Still less dense than you, though.'

'Oh, I noticed,' Robin said. 'I just didn't want to, so I acted like I didn't until I actually believed it.'

'Fair enough,' Peter said, sipping his iced coffee. 'I guess that was the case with me too. Acknowledging my feelings meant to me that I had to acknowledge that my feelings for Richard were real, and pretending like they weren't was honestly the only way I could deal with my trauma at first.'

Robin nodded. 'Yeah, I get that. I guess Isaac was also a big part of the reason why I didn't want to acknowledge my feelings for you at first. Because that would mean putting myself in that vulnerable position again, where I could get hurt.'

He noticed Peter, who was grinning widely, and looked at him in confusion. 'Why are you smiling?'

'Do you realize you just confessed to me?' Peter said.

'That wasn't a confession,' Robin said quickly.

'Oh yes, it was,' Peter said. 'You said you acknowledged your feelings for me. So you do have them.'

'Well, wasn't that obvious?' Robin muttered.

'Very,' Peter said. 'It's just the first time you've said it out loud.'

Robin looked away, blushing furiously.

'Thank you.' Peter changed his tone to a softer one. 'For putting yourself in that vulnerable position with me.'

Robin had his left hand resting on the table and Peter reached over to put his hand on top of it. 'I'll take good care of you.'

'I know you will,' Robin said quietly.

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They had to walk all the way back to the car, but it felt different from the way they went before. Robin felt like something within him had changed the moment he fully acknowledged his feelings. He wanted to talk. He felt... ready. Ready to tell Peter about Isaac. So he did.

'I met him while I lived with my uncle,' Robin said. 'Stuff wasn't going well. You see, he tried to take good care of me, but he didn't really have an easy life. He was a gambler, it was compulsive. Whenever he got money, he found ways to lose it again. He tried to stop, but every time the gambling world would drag him back in, via ads, the lights of the casino's. He really wanted to take care of me, but he was just... not ready. Eventually, I had to drop out, as you know. I worked two part-time jobs, one at a fast-food restaurant and one as a babysitter, to provide for us both. But I had to be very careful with my money. He stole my card twice and spent like a 1000 dollars with it. He was really sorry afterwards and in the end he paid back 500, but yeah... it was still tough, living there.'