thousand words (random poetries!)

5: Carmella

In my last year in high school ,

I've met a girl named , Carmella

She's not that pretty ,

Well , she's not even smart

Surprisingly ... She's one of my new classmates ,

It's a bit ironic ... we're just too different

Kinda strange though ,

She caught my attention that it surprised me too.

Then days have passed by ,

We then settled in

She made a lot of new friends ,

I barely made a few ... I guess

She was really cheerful ,

I think that's her charm

Not too long then ,

We eventually became friends

She's still so friendly ,

I'm still introverted though

It's not been easy ,

It's all new to me too

But with her around ,

I got used to it

As the days goes on ,

I have changed unknowingly

I can now talked a few ,

I've loosened up a bit

This made me very grateful ,

I'm so glad that I met her.

As we get to spend time together ,

I've found something else

With her is never boring ,

There's always something new

Her smile makes me warm ,

Her laugh gets me through

But now I'm afraid ,

I want something more

I'm slowly , slowly falling ,

It's funny that I didn't even notice

I'm happy when I'm with her ,

If she's away ... I want to see her

Something has changed within me ,

I want it badly now

She's getting prettier to me ,

I like everything she does

But I'm afraid I'll lose her ,

Because I know her priorities

Her dreams always comes first ,

That's why I took step back from it

I decided to keep it to myself ,

Even if it hurts!

I might be doing something stupid ,

It's not the right time ... I guess.

Then comes the end ,

The graduation we awaits

We all seem excited ,

For the next chapter ahead

Personally , I feel so nervous too ,

If I tell her how I feel

It's quite regretful ,

Those words was kept hidden along the years

A simple , ' I like you! ' ,

But now it's too late

She then went away ,

Far from where I am

It's hard to accept it ,

But I did do understand

We have our separate lives ,

Different visions to reach

My always prayer to God ,

I wish her the best and happiness in life

As the years went by ,

I'm slowly moving on

But once in a while though ,

I do have my regrets

If only I'm braver before ,

Maybe things will be different

Maybe this is for the better ,

A sweet memory to keep...

But if fate will be kind enough ,

And let us meet again

And if we're still free ,

Thank God if it happens!

I'll definitely change the script ,

This time will be different

I'll rewrite the ending ,

I'll never let you go again!

Never again!!

~ nniiwwpoetry ~ 07/09/23