Reborn in attack on Titan as a bender

Mental health

Last time in I was reborn in attack on titan as a bender

"Didn't you eat while I was serving food"I said tilting my head to the side a bit
"The lady ate all the food and took some of the food in her bag"Mikasa said

It then hit me, she came into the house with an empty bag on her, then left with a full bag.
"How did I not notice that" I muttered realizing what she did.
"Are you fine with fruit as dinner?" I said to the hungry girl.
She nod her head yea in I went inside to give her food with her following closely behind.

Now we continue where we left off
"Finally the prototype is done," I said looking at my first attempt to make a motorcycle.
I looked at the metal piece of junk with wheel power by a steam engine on the back.
"This doesn't look like a motorcycle at all," I said looking at my latest invention

"Let's test it in see if it work" I mutter while getting on it
The second I sat on it I realize of uncomfortable it was to sit on.

I started the steam engine, the machine started to move very slowly, I do mean it when it when I say slow, I felt like I was moving at a snail's speed, even a person walking will be faster than me, to make it worst 20 minutes later it ran out of fuel in stopped working altogether.

To say that I was disappointed would be an understatement but hey I can't expect for everything I do to turn out great.

I got out of that uncomfortable invention in stared at it for a very long time thinking about all the changes that need to be made for it to be just the way that i want it to be.

"First I will have to remove the engines, and put in somewhere it won't annoy me, second got to remove all the things that make it uncomfortable, in lastly give it some real tires or some real wheels so it's not just metal on the front" I mutter out loud thinking of all the change that will need to be made.

"Enough of me rambling, let's see how Mikasa doing," I said as drag the metal machine behind me.
"This thing is surprisingly light," I said as I decided to lift it up instead of just dragging it.
I'm 19year old mentally but physically I look like a 10year old, but considering the influx of memory I'm getting from my ancestor or the person I'm the reincarnation of, I'm probably much much older mentally but I have so many childish urges in my mind,

'So what those that make me, a child, or an adult, even if I wanna argue that I'm an adult no one will really believe especially when I get that child-like urge my appearance does help either, but I'm not really a kid considering how much I know, plus the fact that I have kill before. Talking about killing why didn't it affect me when I mercilessly murder the people that made Mikasa sad, I felt nothing after murdering them does that make a sociopath 'I thought while in the direction of my house

I was stuck in my mind debating whether I'm a terrible human being with no moral values whatsoever, 'I did save a kid in need but if I had remembered what would have happened that day I could have saved her parents too, was it really greedy of me to steal eren future sister from him, I did save her because I don't want her to get sold to slavery but at the same time it's is very lonely living alone in the woods was it really selfish of me.'Those were my thoughts as I continue walking back to my house

As I continue to walk the more I was thinking about my life choice that led me to this point,'I made the life of the people living inside the wall easier by creating modern stuff to help them with their daily stuff but at the same time most of the economy of the wall lie on the hand of a child, I helped the scout lower their casualty rate by at least 90% but at the same time now the king have his eyes on them more'I thought to myself as I continue to walk

'No matter how I look at it, the way that the murder didn't affect me in the slightest like I was used to murdering people but from my memory, the only one I had killed on earth was bugs even then it was on accident.'

I was so lost in thought that I didn't realize that I was already approaching home when I look back I saw that Mikasa was taking care of a tomato sapling.

Taking care might have been a strong word more like poking it but hey that more successful than what I'm building right now.
"Mikasa please come back inside before the sun go out," I said

Instead of staying out the second, my leg went inside she left whatever she was doing in walked inside.
I was bored so I made some orange on which I sipped on using a straw while thinking of reading the book.

"Jack, when are you going to read the book that weird lady gave you it's been a week since she gave it to you"Mikasa said looking at me acting like a programmed robot.
"Oh, the book," I said remembering the book that Frieda gave me.

I took out the book from the bookshelf it was easy to find considering it was the only old book inside the bookshelf.
Mikasa looked a bit curious about the content of the book.

"If you are so curious we can read it together," I said inviting the little girl to sit next to me.
She nodded before sitting down next to me.
I open the book and we started reading.

A/N 5or so chapter later I think that when the wall going to get attacked.