In general today was good. I braided Lacy's hair in the morning. I got to spend the day with Dad. When the kids got back from school we went to the park. I spun them around on the merry-go-round and could almost pretend we were just a normal family. I almost feel like I belong there, despite that little voice in the back of my mind. The one that tells me I shouldn't be here. That I shouldn't even be alive. That just by being here I'm putting them all in danger. I don't know what that voice's problem is. I wish it would leave me alone.
