I stared up to the light above me as I lay on my bed. I had barely touched the pizza mom sent up for me. I was lost in thought. About the letter, about Stella. I remembered her face as she read the letter, the excitement she got when she thought she would find out who saved her. I died inside when her excitement died out.
I was considering telling her it was me, but I had my doubts. What if she thought I was a coward? What if she couldn't look at me the same way again? These thoughts raced through my mind. All the "what ifs." It made me crazy. If I told her, maybe she'd be grateful, maybe she'd be mad. But if I never told her, I'd never know.
I ended up promising myself that I'd tell her as soon as I could. And face-to-face. I couldn't stand a day more with her feeling bad, or curious. I agreed to tell her the Monday after that.
The following morning, I woke up early and left for the beach to catch morning waves. I decided to use my new board. I saw it at the local Rip Curl store a year and a half ago and ever since I'd been saving up for it. It was a bright scarlet with colorful palm trees at the bottom. I packed my small backpack with my board wax and a towel and began walking to the beach. I didn't live right by the beach the same way Stella, Kianna and Colin did. My place was about a block away.
When I reached the shore, I put down my bag on one of the tables. I waxed my board, sitting next to it on the sand. The waves that morning were strong. I watched as they built up in size. The same way it was when I stopped to watch Stella. The way she moved around the waves so smoothly and swiftly, and how it broke at the single wipe out. It reminded me of my dad.
I caught my first wave when I was seven. My dad taught me when we were on vacation in Cali. We hadn't moved here to Hawaii yet. I had a few wipeouts at first, but I eventually got it. My dad pushed me to ride the waves perfectly. How to maneuver the board better, and all that. One morning, I found my dad surfing in the morning alone. I had walked to the beach alone upon reading dad's note: "surfing down at the point." I sat on the beach and watched. He rode the waves better than ever. I examined and took mental notes down for my next wave. On this one wave - a great big wave he rode, he fell of his board after perfecting an aerial. He went back-first into the water, slamming down hard. I panicked. I didn't know what to do. I started screaming, after all, what can a seven year old do when there's no one around? When he didn't come back up and I ran the two blocks back to our motel and called for mom. That day, I lost my dad. I swore I wouldn't let anything like that happen again. I swore to not let anything like that pass by without me doing anything. That's why I saved Stella. Because she brought me an opportunity to do that day over.
After my board was completely waxed, I headed for the water. It was colder than usual, but my body adjusted. The swell of the waves were building quicker when I got in. It made it harder to get out deeper into the ocean.
The first wave I caught that morning was a bust. I fell over as soon as I got on. The waves I caught next became better and better. I tried to get up early on most days to surf so my ride could get better. I'd been anticipating joining an annual longboard competition. The summer before, I had gone to the beach to surf, but the contest was ongoing. I instead sat there and watched. The judges were some of the most highly acclaimed surfers in Hawaii. I planned on signing up the next summer.
After a few waves, I had gotten tired so I paddled back to shore. I noticed someone was sitting on the sand. When I reached the shore, I recognized the person. It was Stella. My stomach flipped when I remembered I had to tell her. I took off my leash and approached her. "Hey," I greeted. Her crutches were rested next to her.
She looked up and closed the book she was reading. She smiled and said, "Hi." I sat down next to her with my wetsuit just hanging by my sides. "I didn't realize that was you out there."
I let out a fake laugh, still haunted by the fact that I had to tell her sometime. "What are you doing out here, anyway?" I asked.
"Haven't been on the sand in a while, which sucks serious ass," she said. I ended up laughing a real laugh. She put her book on her crutches and watched the waves. I stared at her as she looked out to the ocean. She giggles out of nowhere and looked down, then back up again. "I remember one time, I was in my room just staring at my boards, then out my window to watch the current," she began. "I let out a big sigh and just randomly said, 'take me to the ocean, please.'" She began to laugh. I went along with her.
We talked for a long while, although I barely paid attention. My mind was still racing on how I would break the news to her. I honestly felt like she was finally opening up to me, which made telling her all the more harder. I watched her, and how her lips were moving, but I could barely hear a word she had spoken. I just looked at her, smiling and nodding. I had too much on my mind.
When I stopped thinking too much about situations, I started listening to Stella's stories. It turns out, she had a lot of interesting stories. I guessed a lot of things happen in New York.
"You're pretty good," she said, changing the topic and jerking her head at the ocean, and not looking back at me.
I smirked. "Not as good as you," I replied. It was true.
She smirked as well and said, "If I was I wouldn't have this." She slapped her cast and glared at me, like a joke. That's when my thoughts again returned. I realized that was the perfect time to tell her.
"I have to tell you something." I couldn't have said it at a worse time. Right when I began, she said that she had something to tell me, too. "Oh, you first," I told her. She refused, and told me to go first but I insisted for her to go first.
She sighed and began. "Okay, so uh," she paused for a while, but went on. "Colin asked me out."
I should have gone first.
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Take Me To The Ocean (Editing)
Teen FictionThe only thing that Stella looked forward to about moving to Hawaii was that she would finally get to spend time with her best friend, Kianna, and get to surf any chance she got. But when she meets Colin, a boy from Kianna's school, Stella finally h...