"WRONG SNAPCHAT" |solby

Is It Something I did

Tw self-harm

Sam's pov
It was so cute how thoughtful he is it was amazing for the first time for us yes it was a bit painful but you can get used to it  but Im not sure what I am now bottom, top or both if he just wants one of them I don't know.. Hey Sam ~SAM yeah I said,,, are you sure you are okay he ask yes im sure colby I just got in my thoughts I laughed a bit you - you don't regret it right he ask.. colby of course I do not I love you okay and I told you we will figure out everything together okay don't stress but are you okay I ask yes Sammy I'm okay I just guessing we thinking the same think and we should talk about it at some point.. I know let's get home and warm up and chance and we can talk with a Glas of redwine if you want.. sounds good to me if you want to we could also drive in the next town and we could eat at a restaurant he said I looked at him shocked really I ask.. He cackled yeah I mean why not we don't have to be hear the whole time right... Yeah that's true let me just get a quick shower  and you could chance and open a wine for us I said kissing his cheek I get in the shower and washed myself I get out ant dry off I chanced in some new clothes and get out of the bathroom I looked at colby sitting on the couch fiddling with his fingers I smiled and walked to the couch sitting next to him he jumped a bit "I'm sorry colbs" no your good I was just in thoughts colby please don't stress so much tell me what's in your head I said I don't even know I love you and it feels amazing to be with you, you are everything I ever wanted and dreamed off but I'm just scared he looked down colby - colby listen it is normal to be scared of new things but you have to trust me that I would never hurt you ever I love you so much I really do you are my dream boy and I love you you I said looking in to his eyes.. His eyes watering I hug him and he hugged me back instantly" everything will be okay colby I promise "I whispered in his ear soo and for the most important think I laughed.. He rolled his eyes and smiled what are we gonna do about the sex think.. I-I have to say I liked to be dominant I never had the chance to but be in control of the situation feels really good to me he said truthfully... Yeah? I mean I have to say I liked it to not what I know and I definitely have to get use to it bc my ass hurts I laughed loudly... He chackeld tell me about it he said how about this you can be my daddy I smirked but if you or me have Lust to switch we can okay? Bc I probably will miss fucking someone... He laughed" deal " but for now do you wanne watch a movie and later we go to a restaurant? Colby ask... sounds amazing I answered" but we never talked about a relationship I mean we had sex we said I love yous but no word about us being together what does that mean are we friends with benefits " sam - sam colby said y-yeah I said getting out of my thoughts are you okay I was talking to you.. Yeah I'm fine just got side tracked.. I ask if you want something to drink.. No thanks I'm good colbs

Colby's pov

Something was up with sam was it me did I do something the only think I know is that I will ask him out tonight at the restaurant I really hope he saß yes im still scared but I really trusting sam but what if I hurt him or fuck everything up when I break his heart when I can't protect him or love him the way he deserves and he leave me and I'm heard broken again oh no is this a panic attack shit not now I have to go to the bathroom real quick I tell sam going the bathroom locking it I looked at the bathroom Drawer" found it " I holding it to my wrist and cut 5 lines oh no what have I done know Sammy will definitely leave me I I quickly grab a cloth and stop the bleeding..... Colby are you okay in there sam said on the other side of the door... Y-yeah im fine sam im out in a second I put the everything away and clean up pulling my hoodie down I found in the bathroom going in the living room I go to the couch and sit besides sam... Colby please tell me what's wrong I can feel something is wrong he puts his hand on my are making me jump slightly.. I looked me in the eyes they looked sad I looked down I couldn't look at at him he probably just tell me he is leaving me.... Why colbs he whispered is it because of something I did.. I stayed silent since when do you do that... I few years I mumbled colby he said putting his finger under my chin making me look at him why dident you tell me colby you can tell me absolutely everything okay and we going through this together new let us clean them up okay he took my hand going to the bathroom it sit on the toilet and he searched for Bandages... Can I he ask pointing to my arm I just nodded he took my are and just looked at it his eyes broke my heart. Do-do you gonna leave me now I said almost to quit to hear... He looked up at me and directly in to my eyes" never " I love you just please don't do this please talk to me no matter what it is I can't lose you you said a tear rolled down his eyes.. No-no-no Sammy please don't cry please I'm so sorry I got so overwhelmed and anxious I dident know what I was doing but Im trying my best to stop as long as I have you I said... His eyes are watering but he smiled he huged me and I hugged back immediately... I love you colby I realy do he whispered in my ear making me smile I love you to Sammy.. Sooo you are not mad with me right I ask no colby im not but you promised me you talk to me okay when you can't tell me then write it down I don't care I nodded and took his hand so you wanna go still I ask... Of course I will im so excited for it I just have to change okay where are we going anyway he ask waking in the bedroom I thought we could go to the china's place I saw on the way here and eat sushi if you like I said chancing myself... That sounds amazing colbs he said coming out looking so beautiful he had white skinny jeans on with a light blue sweater I walked up to him you look so beautiful Sammy and gave him a soft kiss thank you colbs you don't look to bad yourself,.... You ready to go I ask yeah I think I'm just going to the toilet again real quick he laughed I chackelt.. I got out outside and walked a few steps waiting for sam until a smack on my head and anything went black......