Loving You Was a Dream (A Bongbong Marcos Fanfic)

Chapter 21

Bong's

It's now 3am I just woke up from a dream, hindi ko alam kung ikatutuwa ko ba iyon o hindi, i think it was the continuation of my last dream with ella. I was catching my breathe when i woke up.

I was crying in my dream, i was looking for her and then i saw her, she cameback. Sabi niya hindi niya na daw ako iiwan, she said she love me, inaya ko na siyang umuwi, kaso bigla akong nagising habang hinahabol ang hininga ko, at pinag pawisan ng malamig, is it possible kaya na binabangungot ako?

It do really feel like surreal, ano ba itong nangyayari saakin? ano bang ibig sabihin ng mga panaginip kong iyon? Paano kung natuloy iyon, may mababalikan pa kaya ako rito? At napahilamos nalang ako sa mukha ko.

Sa mga oras na ito ay pinilit kong bumalik sa pagkakatulog pero hindi ko maiwasang mag isip ng kung ano ano. Tas dumagdag pa sa iniisip ko ang pag uwi mamaya ni Ella mula sa hospital, Kaya napag desisyonan ko nalang na magbasa ng libro.

Inabutan na ako ng umaga, at hindi na ako dinalawan ng antok. Baka Mamaya lang ay pauwi na sila sandro, kaya tumayo nako, did my morning routines and went downstairs.

Im excited at the same time nervous, i dont know what to feel gusto kong maging masaya dahil magaling na si ella at matagal tagal ko pa siyang makakasama, pero may pumipigil saakin, kung pwede lang. Kung pwede lang sanang kami nalang.

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They've already arrived at nag pahinga lang ulit saglit si ella, im so happy that she's finally okay, atleast now i have reasons again to wake up everyday and to continue living in this world. I want to see her everyday, i want to wake up everyday beside her, gusto ko, siya ang una't huling makikita ko sa buong araw, I want to be with her, i want her to know that she's my pahinga, my tahanan, even if she's not even mine.

"Hey, Sandro. The lunch is ready, go call ella na, so we can eat na" pag tawag ko kay sandro, i cooked ella's favorite, kare-kare tho it's my favorite too.

Ella's

This is my second chance to live, at hindi ko na sasayangin iyon. Ito na ang panimula ng bagong kabanata ng aking buhay, hindi man ang taong pinaka mamahal ko ang makakasama ko sa bagong panimulang ito, makakasama ko naman ang taong paniguradong hindi ako iiwan at sasaktan.

I know Sandro suffered a lot with me, and now maybe im ready to give back the love he deserves. But it does not mean that i'll unlove tito and forget my feelings for him, no i would never do that.

"Hey, are you ok?" Sandro asked while we were eating, "yeah, im sorry may iniisip lang" i said and simply smiled, hindi ko ba alam pag katapos ng mga pangyayari palagi na akong nawawala sa sarili.

We're now eating, gustohin ko mang sumali sa usapan nila pero sa di mawaring dahilan, bigla bigla nalang akong nawawala sa sarili.

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"Hey, Sandro" tawag ko sakniya at lumapit, na nakatayo sa may garden, at tumingin saakin.

"Yes, babe?"

"I-i have something to tell you" kinakabahang sinabi ko, eto na, eto na yon hindi na ako pwedeng umatras "hmm?" He simply hummed and looked at me.

"Uhmm, napag isip-isip ko lang na, bakit hindi ko subukang buksan muli ang puso ko para sayo"

"Huh? What do you mean?" He confusedly asked, at itinaas ang isang kilay neto.

"L-lets start over again, i want to start this new chapters of my life with you" kinakabahan ko parin sinabi, at pinag lalaruan ang aking mga kamay.

"What? Tama ba yung narinig ko? Are you sure about that?" Hindi niya makapaniwalang sinabi, at inangat ko uli ang tingin ko sakaniya.

"Mukha bang nag bibiro ako? Ayaw mo ba?" Sinabi ko At pabirong aalis, alam ko naman kasing iyon ang gusto niyang mangyari, na one day i can love him back.

"No, i mean. Gusto, i would love to be part of the new chapters of you life" and he hugged me tight "thank you, ella. Thank you for letting me" hinawakan ang mukha ko at hinalikan "i love you, ella. I promise I'll not waste this opportunity, you've given me" and we kissed again, at Pinag dikit namin ang mga noo namin.

"I-i love you too" utal utal ko pang sinabi because i wasnt used to say those words to him, napangiti naman siya ng marinig niya iyon mula saakin at niyakap akong muli, i dont know why but my tears are starting to fall out "what did you just say?" He teased me

"Y-you are making me embarassed" i said at sinamaan ko siya ng tingin, natawa naman ito and he kissed my forehead.

Eto na, dito na nag sisimula ang panibagong yugto ng aking buhay.

Bong's

I was about to go upstairs when i saw the both of them sa may garden nag uusap. I dont know why pero napatigil nalang ako at pinanood sila.

It's like may pinag uusapan silang seryoso, i can see how nervous ella was. I'm do really curious kung ano ang pinag uusapan nila, it's too serious kaya. And eventually from serious talk they became sweet.

I was about to leave, not until i saw them kissing, they were kissing intimately, i felt like my heart shattered, para akong na estatwa habang pinapanood silang nag hahalikan, gusto ko ng umalis rito sa kina tatayuan ko pero hindi ko magawa.

I know they are in a relationship so they can do that, but i wasnt used to see them doing that thing. It was my first time seeing them that sweet for over seven years, yes. I know na hindi rin ganon ka ayos ang relation nila, i feel like it's a one-sided love. Kaya ganito nalang rin siguro ang gulat ko ng makita ko silang ganon, is it possible kaya na it's not one-sided anymore?

Is this a sign na kaya na kailangan ko nang kalimutan ang nararamdaman ko para sakaniya? Na kailangam ko ng palayain ang sarili ko mula sakaniya? No, ofcourse not. I wont do that, i love her, kaya paninindigan ko iyon. i'll still continue loving her secretly. I'll still continue admiring her, walang mag babago. Patuloy ko siyang mamahalin kahit na masakit.

Hindi, Hindi ko kayang umibig muli, Habang buhay nalang kitang hihintayin.. and my tears starts to fall out kaya pinilit ko ng makaalis sa pag kakatayo at ng mag tagumpay ay agad ng umakyat sa taas at inilock ang sarili ko sa kwarto.

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