Arranged Marriage

026- The Break-Up

A week had passed and a lot has happened. Me and Mattheo have managed to sort things out, but we were being quite awkward around each other and not how we used to be. Me and Draco are being distant, he acted as if the kiss never happened. We had went back to 'being enemies' and he had went back to being cruel and ignorant. Millie, Pansy and Blaise have been acting strange as well, they keep staring at me and Draco in a weird way and we don't know why.

I just hope no more drama happens as I do not want to be involved in any of it! Over half of sixth year had already passed and it hasn't been the best of years.

Everything is really awkward between me and Mattheo now and I'm not sure how he feels about me. I think it's time I break up with him, before he finds out about the 'whole marriage thing' from someone else. This was going to be the hardest thing I would ever do, but I have to do it. I'm doing this for him, I can't keep lying to myself thinking that we will ever have a future.
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Pansy and Millie interrupted my thoughts as they came barging into our dorm.

"Y/n, you are not going to believe this!" Millie squealed as Pansy came in rushing behind her.

"Don't you dare say a thing!" Pansy pointed her finger at Millie.

"I'm sorry, what's happening?" I asked them.

"I swear, if you say anything!" Pansy warned Millie as she was about to say something.

"Pansy fancies Blaise!" Millie blurted out, which made Pansy give her a death glare.

"She what? When did this happen?" I asked in amazement. I do think that Pansy and Blaise would be a good couple.

"She put Veritaserum in my drink!" Pansy complained.

"You're always so secretive and never tell us anything, so I wanted to find out if you liked anyone. It's so obvious that you like Blaise anyways, I didn't even need to give you the potion." Millie chucked.

"To be honest, I've always thought that you fancied Blaise. I can't believe you actually do though." I chuckled along with Millie as Pansy's rage face turned red.

"This is why I never tell you two anything! You make a big deal out of it when it's not a big deal!" Pansy groaned, seeming quite frustrated.

"It is a big deal! We are in sixth year, we leave Hogwarts next year. Why don't you tell him how you feel before it's too late." Millie tried to persuade Pansy but I don't think it worked.

"He probably doesn't even like me back, so what's the point?" Pansy sighed.

"There's every point, I bet he likes you as well." I told her to try and boost her confidence.

"You and Y/n matched me and Theo up and look at how that went. Why don't me and Y/n match you and Blaise up?" Millie suggested.

"That's perfect!" I exclaimed.

"That's dumb." Pansy rolled her eyes at Millie's suggestion. I think it would be great if Pansy and Blaise started dating as they would be a great couple.

"Why don't you try flirt with him?" Millie smirked.

"That's a bit bold." Pansy shrugged her shoulders.

"You could at least try, it might help you know whether he's into you or not." I said, trying to help.

"I'll try flirt with him in class but subtly. I think the matchmaker stuff is a good idea but maybe not yet, maybe in a few days." Pansy told us.

"We get it. Who knew we would be giving you love advise?" Millie chuckled which made me and Pansy join in laughing.

All of this talk about love made me remember my relationship and how I need to break up with Mattheo. But what if I ruin the whole friendship group? What if I ruin Pansy's chance of being with Blaise? If I break up with him, it'll have to be soon. I'd rather do it and get it out of the way so I can stop thinking about it so much. I should ask the girls for some advise.

"Guys, can I talk to you about something?" I asked Millie and Pansy in a serious tone.

"Yeah, of course." Millie replied and Pansy nodded. I needed to make up a lie for why I was breaking up with Mattheo as I couldn't tell them the real reason.

"I think I'm going to break up with Mattheo." I told them, looking down at the floor.

"Why? You love him so much!" Millie gasped.

"I do love him, but ever since the love potion situation happened, he hasn't been the same. He's being really awkward around me and I feel like the connection is going. I'd rather break up with him now to avoid getting heartbroken by him later." I explained.

"That's tough, I'm sorry," Pansy frowned.

"If you want to end things with him, then you should. But please let him down gently though, as you don't want to start a war with the boys." Millie gave me a small smile, which I returned.

"I don't want to fall out with anyone, I want to still be friends with him. I'll break up with him tonight." I told them. They both nodded their heads but looked nervous. I was nervous, very nervous. I loved Mattheo so much, I can't bear to loose him, but it's the right thing to do.
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The night came quite quickly to my dismay and it was time to find Mattheo. I basically hid in my dorm all day as I couldn't face him before tonight.

I made my way to the boys dorms and knocked on his door. The door opened and I saw Mattheo on the other side.

"Oh, hey Y/n." He greeted me.

"Hey, can we talk?" I asked in a low tone.

"Sure, come in." He said and let me in his dorm. I assumed that we were alone as no one else was in the dorm. Mattheo took a seat on his bed and I joined him. "So, what did you want to talk about?" He asked.

"I know it's been awkward, for both of us. Ever since the love potion you haven't been yourself. You have been awkward around me and we hardly talk now. I get that you would never cheat on me and I know it was a love potion, but I feel like we're loosing the connection. I'm sorry." I explained whole trying to hold back tears.

"What are you saying?" Mattheo stuttered.

"I want to break up with you, I'm sorry. I love you, but I don't think it's working anymore." I told him as tears started rolling down my cheek. He pulled me into a hug and I rested my head on his chest.

"I'm sorry, Y/n. I get how you're feeling and I love you too, but I agree that the connection is disappearing." He sighed.

"I know it will be awkward even more now since we are in the same friendship group, but can we still be friends?" I asked him.

"Of course." He smiled softly. I smiled and lifted my head from his chest.

"I should go, I'm sorry." I told him.

"I understand." He smiled. I smiled back and exited his dorm. I loved him, he was everything to me. What have I done?