With Time.

Tranquility.

Genesis
In four days I was going to take my baby home finally.
The four days dragged by making every minute feel like an hour.
Nevertheless, the day came.
Today at noon, Malcolm and I were going to the center.
Trey wanted to come with but he had speech therapy.

Zala
Today was the day I was to leave.
After the incident with the three girls, I didn't open my mouth to say anything.
My throat was still congested with pain and anger.
The girls from the night of torture were transfered to other correctional facilities. Facilities worse than this one.
The guards that gave them a hand were fired too.
With all the slight justice attained, I wasn't fine and I probably will never be again.
My hair was still short, in fact I was taken to an actual barber to perfect the cut.
My skin was peeling due to the burns but I was okay. The water wasn't too hot.... that's what the doctor told me, however, I had a different opinion because the water was poured on me not him.
After I finished packing I just stared at myself in the mirror.
I hated each and every part of myself.

"Can I say something?  "Tony asked me and walked up to me.

I didn't answer her but she came over anyway. She knew exactly what was happening.

"For all its worth. You're really beautiful and I'm not just saying that......... Your eyes and eyelashes compliment each other. Your hair is beautiful......... You may not have it now but it will grow back. And believe me when I say this..... Even without the hair you're still beautiful because your beauty didn't lie on your hair. "Tony told me as we both looked in the mirror.

I smiled a bit and found myself crying because I wanted to believe her but I just couldn't.
She held me tight in a hug and told me more of the traits she thought were beautiful on me.

Genesis
We were already at the center when it was noon.
My happiness was undescribable.
Malcolm and I bought Zala all her favorites, in fact right after this we were going to go to whichever fun park she wanted.
Today was Zala day.
I just wanted my baby to have the time of her life.
She didn't deserve to be here.

Zala
I was walked out my cell by a really kind officer.
I had my journal leaned against my chest and my arms around it holding it close.
I was now wearing the clothes I wore the day I was brought in here.
The officer led me out with her hand on my shoulder, leading me.
As we walked down the other cells, all the girls watched in silence.
There wasn't a single soul talking.

Genesis
They finally brought my baby out......

Zala
I felt my mum's heart drop when she saw me.
She is a very emotional person and didn't hesitate to cry as I walked towards her.
Malcolm was as shaken as my mother was but he handled it better.
When I reached my mum, she knelt down and hugged me.

Genesis
The pain I felt at the sight of my daughter was unbearable.
I felt a sharp pain in my chest, a pain so great that no words could leave my mouth..... Tears flowed down my cheeks, each tear racing down my face one after the other.
I felt Zala's tears on my shoulder as she hugged me.
She cried softly but her whole body was shaking.
What happened to her beautiful long hair? What happened to her arms? Why were her eye's so red and swollen? Why was she so sad? My mind was filled with so many questions.
The officer demanded that Malcolm follows her and he did.
I remained with Zala.
After the long hug I carried her off the floor and took her out with me.
She laid her head on my shoulder with her arms wrapped around my neck and I loved that.
As we waited for Malcolm in the car, Zala fell asleep and I covered her up with Trey's little blanket.
As I sat in the passengers seat my mind kept imagining what happened with Zala.
I thought of all things terrible.

7:50pm

"She's still sleeping? "Malcolm asked me when we were at the kitchen counter.

When we arrived Malcolm left for work. We were supposed to spend this afternoon having fun with the kids but Zala never woke up.

"Yah. "I answered him as I drank my tea.

Zala didn't wake up to eat anything or ask for anything either.
I concluded that she didn't have much sleep in juvi.
Trey was so excited to see her but he fell asleep waiting on her to wake up.

"Can we talk about what you were told at the center now? "I asked Malcolm.

He explained everything that happened to Zala and it made me wish I never asked.
Children were evil and ignorant.
I couldn't believe what I was hearing.

"I already found a really great therapist. I think she needs it. "Malcolm told me and I agreed.

"Can you spend the night? "I asked Malcolm.

Malcolm kissed me on my lips before he answered me.

"Yes. "Malcolm answered. "How's my baby? "He asked making me smile.

This time around I made sure to do everything right so that I don't lose this child.

The doctor actually assured success with this pregnancy making Malcolm and I really excited.
When we got in together for bed Caesar texted me.
I waited till Malcolm was asleep before I texted back.
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Phone chat
CAESAR RAMÌREZ.

Hey I'm really sorry
about what I said.
💔💔💔
8:30pm

9:50pm

What the hell was
that all about?

I was just mad.
I'd never try to
hurt you or my cousin.
😥😥

Okay. But we're straight
now yah? You can't
come here
anymore😶😶

I will.

Caesar! 🙄

Not for you fool😑.
For Zala❤.
Is she okay??

Great. Thanks.
And no she's not.
She needs some time.

Oh this is not a
surrender. I know
Malcolm will fuck up
before the wedding.
I'll be waiting for you then.
❤😘

You should grow
the fuck up. You
should move on too...
What we had.
Its over.

Its on pause girl.
You know it...
Stop playing with
me 🙃😉😅

Caesar I mean that.

I also meant what
I told you that night
I was between your thighs
🙈😋. I love you Genesis
and I'll never stop.
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10:30pm

I promised you forever
and I'll give it to you.
Kiss my baby goodnight
for me😘❤. I love you
and our baby. You should
come by one day so that
we discuss baby names
😗💏🤗

😑😑😑😑😑😑😑.
As funny as you think
this is, it isn't.

I was thinking
something divine you
know like Heaven or
Peace Happiness.
😇😇

Don't come here.
Goodnight.

I love you❤❤.
And I know you
love me💖💖💖.
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Caesar was immature about all this. This rubbish might cost me a break up with Malcolm and I didn't want that.
As much as my old feelings for Caesar came back, I wasn't going to let them control me.