(this one is a little long)
One point
At one point in my life
I was happy I had no worries
There was no guilt weighing down on my chest
For not telling my family that I love them
Before I lost them forever
I had friends
They weren't the best
But they were all I had
I never really cared in the moment
But now looking back I should have put a little more effort
And not have been so easily controlled
By just wanting some friends to sit with at lunch
Homework was easy
I didn't have any expensive clothes
No one really cared what kind of brands you wore on the playground
Most of the kids just wore payless shoes
I had high expectations for life
Now those expectations are spoiled
I see that life can be a pain in the ass
I just want to be a child again
With no cares in the world
Instead of stressing over chemistry
I would rather wonder what I was going to buy at the annual schoolbook fair
Back to when I didn't care about my 'flaws
When I wasn't broken
When I was a happy child
The child who always wore a smile
No matter the weather
Back when I didn't have to struggle with anxiety or depression
But that point in my life is long gone
I can be happy at times
But the stress tends to overpower
All those happy thoughts that run through my brain at random times during the day
I now use reading to escape from this reality
One that when I was younger, I couldn't wait to have
All we wanted to do was be older
But now it seems all we want to do is go back to when we were younger
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no I'm on to go do some chemistry homework that I really don't want to do
~xx hollyandmax:)
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It's okay to not be okay
PoetryA look inside the messed up brain of a teenage girl who always says "I'm fine" but who isn't lying when they say that two word line? A collection of short poems about many different topics Some of these poems are based on true stories while others...
