Dreams
Do you know the meaning behind dreams?
Well, neither do I
Maybe we can find out together
The dreams I have every night
Tend to keep my up during the dark hours of twilight
You could classify them as nightmares
Not dreams
I've tried everything
Counting sheep, doing different types of meditating, even medication
But nothing seems to work
I lose many hours of sleep
I very much need
In order to act like a basic human being
And get through these long 9 to 5 workdays
The demons come out to play
Emerging from their hiding place under my bed
In the early hours of morning
They team up with the anxiety
That's already rooming around in my head
To torture me almost to the break of insanity
Every night they get closer and closer to winning
I need to work on not letting them in anymore
Block out the lies they say
Over and over again
They say things like
"You failed the chemistry test you took yesterday"
"Nobody likes you, why do you still try?"
"You should just give in and live with me on the dark side of this reality"
What he offers is tempting
But I know that it will only be temporary
The pain will always be inside of me
For the rest of eternity
The only way I can get rid of the never-ending pain
Is to get over it
Now that may seem harsh
But what I mean is not let it control me
Anymore....
It was one of the last days of the coldest month of the year
That was a special day for me
It will always be
It was the day I met my very best friend
She saved me without even knowing it
I was at the darkest part of my life
Nothing seemed to bring the serotonin like it used to
But just knowing I had her
Made me fight harder and longer than I ever have before
Thanks to my best friend
For helping me through the biggest battle of my life
I owe you everything
Because without you
I might not have been here today
It's been a few years
And I can happily say that I am okay
It's better than the lie 'I'm fine'
I'm not all the way sane but also not insane
I'm just okay
And that all I can ask for
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for once I don't have chemistry homework but I do have spanish 2 homework to do. anyways have a good day loves:)
~xxhollyandmax<3
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It's okay to not be okay
PoetryA look inside the messed up brain of a teenage girl who always says "I'm fine" but who isn't lying when they say that two word line? A collection of short poems about many different topics Some of these poems are based on true stories while others...
