Scared
I've never been scared of some of the basic things
Like arachnophobia, acrophobia or even trypophobia
Don't get me wrong needles and spiders can still scare the shit out of me
I'm not really scared of heights
Not since the end of second grade
When i realized there was really nothing wrong with heights
But mainly I have thanatophobia
Which if you don't know means the fear of losing somebody
I have lost so many
Whether they were close to me or just friendly people who sat next to me in class
Friends or family
It doesn't really matter
The lose still affects me tremendously
They all had some form of impact
On the person you know today
The girl on the varsity cheer team helping me learn how to do a forward roll
Another girl from when inviting me to her birthday party when I was only a freshman, and she was a senior
My Algebra teacher taking the time to explain the things I didn't get the day before
My best friends saying I should follow my dreams
My followers saying that they enjoy my work
Now that just always puts a smile on my face
Random people in my class or on the internet that think I'm pretty
Now that just makes me smile for hours
These may seem like little things
But to me they can make a big impact
On how I see the world around me
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here's another update for you to enjoy while I either go back to reading or do me spanish homework.... we all know I'm just gonna read on wattpad for the next few hours:)
~xx hollyandmax
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It's okay to not be okay
PoetryA look inside the messed up brain of a teenage girl who always says "I'm fine" but who isn't lying when they say that two word line? A collection of short poems about many different topics Some of these poems are based on true stories while others...
