My Moms Friend

Chapter 8: Pretty Again

"I'll do anything to make you feel pretty again..." -J Jon

Leah~

When I got home I stripped out of my clothes immediately, I turned the lights on and saw Zaria sitting on my sofa, I jumped frightened and looked at her like she was crazy.

"I thought you were still at the party?" She folded her arms

"You've been sleeping with that girl? Sabrina's daughter." I looked at her shocked.

"How did you-"

"I overheard you two in the kitchen when I was looking for the bathroom and when both of you came back after disappearing both of y'all's hair was wet." I started walking towards the kitchen and Zaria followed behind me.

"If you're going to judge me I really don't need it right now." I said as I went into my fridge to get an apple.

"Hey I'm not going to judge you I love you whether you're gay or straight baby girl. I do have a question though." I sighed and bit into my apple.

"Yes?" I asked

"Do you love her?" I nodded my head 'yes'

"Okay well you need to call this engagement off with Stan then we can go to the pawn shop and get some money off this ring." She started reaching for my hand.

"Zaria I'm not calling the engagement off just yet. I need some time to think." She groaned

"I love Paris though, she's super funny, sassy, and cool as hell." She said

"Yeah and mine." I said

"Girl you can't have your cake and eat it too." She was telling the truth I couldn't.

"Z, I really love her it's just.." I couldn't even explain it to her.

"Give her some time and give yourself some time then meet her for dinner and you guys can talk all this over." I sighed and put my hair in a bun.

"You're right I'll give everything a minute." I hugged Zaria and walked her out, I went upstairs and took a long shower. It's been one héll of a day.

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It's been a month since I've spoken to Paris I think we've had more than enough time, I invited her out to a little cafe it was around 7:45 pm and a little chilly outside but manageable. I had a table outside and right next to the fire place the setting was very relaxing.

I saw Paris walk in with a pair of skinny jeans on, white foams, and an all white t shirt. She had on these shades which was weird since it was dark outside. Once she sat down she took them off and sat her purse in the chair right next to her. The waiter cane and she ordered a water to drink and started to get settled.

"Hi." I broke the awkward silence between us.

"Hi, look lets cut to chase what did you invite me here for Leah?" She asked

"To talk." I said

"Talk.." I took a deep breathe and started.

"Listen I'm sorry I love you baby I really do I just have a lot to think about right now with this engagement and you, and you know everything was real, I wanted you but you wanted to be friends Paris." I said and She nodded

"So let me ask you a question, do you think me letting you fúck me in the bathroom meant that I wanted to be friends?" She asked

"No." I answered

"Okay then." She sat all the way back in her chair.

"Listen Paris you can not blame for all of this!" She looked at me with a deadly glare and sat back up.

"Okay, it's my turn to talk and listen close because I'm only going to say this once. I'll do anything to make myself feel pretty again, because you scarred me and made me forget that I was pretty within. I knew I should have left for real the first time we broke it off cause look at where we are right now! What is it? Is it because I can't give you babies like him? Or because I don't have a pénis or a flat chest like him? But I did everything else that he didn't I was even there when your "friends" we're acting different and I still got did wrong! I guess I'm not worthy enough I bet he showers you with gifts and makes you feel like you have all the luck in the world. I was already insecure now I just feel shìtty as fùck you got me looking in the mirror trying to analyze my figure making me feel like I won't be good enough for no man! So I don't love no man, you know why I don't trust no man? Cause even my father left my life when my mom died I couldn't even trust my old mans! I was adopted by Sabrina and Chris but that dosen't matter. But you I cared for you I was always there for you when life was looking bold I was the one caring for you I shed a lot of tears for you and said a couple of prays for you." She stopped for a second to take a breath then resumed back

"What do you find in him anyways what's the big deal? I completely changed because of this shít! My heart is cold now and you're the one to blame for this shìt. My next relationship I swear I'll be trained for this shìt cause now I'm thinking like a Nígga so I don't get played like a bítch!"

"But baby we can-" I started to say until she interrupted

"Nah it's too late for this shít I lost myself I've been smoking more and drinking again and I even lost my virginity to Ronnie.... Cause I just want to fúcking feel pretty again." She was in tears, I tried to reach for her but she snatched away and grabbed her purse and shades and stood up and walked away crying..

"I'll do anything to make you feel pretty again.." I said aloud.

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Next chapter will be longer I promise :)!
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