is that all i am to you? (harry potter x reader)

"kill her"

a/n

currently crushing on james☝🏼

•••harrys pov•••

i'm sitting in the great hall with hermione, ron and y/n. they're all rambling on about randomness and i cant help but this about what voldemort said last year at the grave yard.

"thinking of poor sweet y/n now are you? keep dreaming, you won't make it back to her tonight. oh! or how about i kill her too! your weakness, your love for her. pathetic"

am i putting them in danger by simply taking a liking for her? 

i get pulled out of my thoughts when dumbledore starts his speech

"good evening students!" everyone grows silent "now, we have two changes in staff, please give a warm welcome back to professor grubbly-plank who will be taking care of magical creatures while professor hagrid is on temporary leave. also a welcome to professor delores umbridge, taking spot in defense against the dark arts"

i turn to hermione whispering "she was at my hearing, she voted for me to be expelled" she looked at me with a confused face

the woman in pink stood up and made her way by professor dumbledore "thank you headmaster for those kind words, and how lovely it is to see all your smiling faces"

no one was smiling.

"i'm sure we're going to be very good friends"

"that's likely" the twins sarcastically muttered earning a small giggle from y/n

"the ministry of magic has always found the education of young witches and wizards to be of vital importance-" i tune the rest of her speech out, thoughts flooding my mind. i put my head against the table and just think

"harry. harry, hello?" i hear the faded voice of y/n

"harry. wake up" i hear her much clearer now

"oh uh sorry" i say picking my head up

"is everything okay?" hermione asks examining my expression

i nod in response. i didn't pay mind to eating. i pay no attention to the conversation but throw laughs and nods so it looks like i am.

"thinking of poor sweet y/n now are you? keep dreaming, you won't make it back to her tonight. oh! or how about i kill her too! your weakness, your love for her. pathetic"

"i kill her too"

"kill her"

those words taking place in my mind again, over and over again

"kill her"

"harry, dinners over, let's go" hermione says as she snapped her fingers in front of my face

"right sorry" i get up and leave, leaving them behind. i don't bother looking back when i hear y/n

is it too risky to love her

"bloody hell harry can you not hear me" all of sudden y/n is

"i can hear you, i'm just choosing not to respond"

"and you're doing this because? i didn't do anything to you" they let out with a with a sassy tone

"you don't understand y/n"

"then help me understand" they drop the tone and i picked it up

"no, you don't need to understand"