I have been frantically searching this app like a wild animal, looking for something to sink my teeth into and feast on. I NEED A CURE TO MY BOREDOM!! I feel like im rotting away in this bed soaked with my stinky sweat. Every book I pick up just GRAAH THEY FRUSTRATE ME. Theyre moving so fast my brain cant catch onto anything, completely slips from my grasp. Dude, you just met yesterday, WHY ARE YOU CONFESSING YOUR LOVE FOR EACHOTHER??!! I mean it is wattpad - my standards shouldn't be too high, BUT COME ON. ONE DAY?? So I decided to give it a break and do something different, taking this into my own hands and writing my own story. I hope its okay? Ive tried writing stories before, Ive published some on this account even...but...sigh...deleted them all. I sit on my hands and knees looking up at him, a collar around my neck and I feel his tug from above. Insecurity. He always eventually pries up my fair skin and snuggles inside, I can never get a break. Every time I publish something he comes back to haunt me, pulling on my strings, controlling me like a damn puppet. Im cursed. I filed a divorce and slammed those papers down right infront of him. I will not let this monster keep making my decisions, taking away parts of my life I want to experience. I. Will. Write. My. Book. I. Will. Write. Lots. Of. Books. No matter how insecure I feel about my work I will not be taking it down, I will be leaving it up and let my progress show as I write more and more. So ENJOY!!! Thank you for reading, hopefully I can be the one to entertain u tonight/day wherever you are. I DO GOTTA PUT A TRIGGER WARNING FOR SELF HARM AND SUICIDE‼️‼️‼️ those emos ugh 🙄 oh and sexy stuff...JADE IF UR READING CLICK OFF RN. maybe some abuse too JUST DONT READ THIS IF U GET TRIGGERED GUYS!!!