this really only gets decent at like entry 42 so feel free to skip the first half. i've been writing this since 2016/2017, i was 13 then, and now i'm 19. a lot in my life has grown and changed throughout the entries in here and i only advise you to read the whole thing if ypu want to see me change. warning: feelings n shit (tw: self harm mention/suicide mentions, as well as substance use)