Rose's POV
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The night of the tournament was 3 days again now, i had escaped Snape's grasp on me when we entered the castle and ran all the way to my dormitory. I have not left since. I closed my curtains around my bed and have been sat here either crying or sleeping. It's been the same these past few days. I'll only get up to use the bathroom when no one else is here and I have barely eaten or drank anything whatsoever. I didn't care to, I felt dead already. Katherine went out of here way to leave me scraps of food out everyday but I barely touched plate.
My entire body ached, some hours of the day I'd feel completely numb and just stare endlessly at the ceiling. Other days I'd have to put a silencing spell on my bed so I could let out all the screams and sobs in my throat. Eventually I would tire myself out from all the crying and screaming and fall asleep.
Katherine had tired to talk to me, but I never answered her. Hermione had been as well as Madam Pomfrey but they took my silence as I sign I did not want to be disturbed. I'd heard Katherine loosely tell me Cedric was killed by one of Voldemort's men. That he who must not be named was back. I think she was worried about how I'd take this but honestly I don't care at this moment in time how he died, he was dead either way. Harry had been tried to come visit me but I heard Katherine force him back down stairs luckily. However, Draco has been relentless in trying to see me, it's got up to four times a day now where he'll try. But I'm just not ready. I don't want to see him, Hermione, Katherine. No one. But at the same time I don't know how much longer I can continue as I am. I feel sick all day, my body is icy pail and I can feel the pain in my stomach as it begs me for food. But I just can't see the point. I'd even missed Dumbledores speech about Cedric and his memory, I almost went but I just couldn't make it out of the door without breaking down.
Yesterday was the worst day, Snape had left a small box by the door and when I went to collect it I saw he'd fetched Cedric's friendship bracelet I'd given him the night before he died...the night before he was murdered. I fell to the floor crying, it was supposed to bring him good luck and all it did was the opposite. I blamed myself for not listening to my gut maybe if I would have told someone or explained more he could still be alive...but I could sit and blame so many people right now...
I was just about to go to the bathroom while Katherine and Pansy were gone when I heard an owl tap on my window. The early summer heat hit me right In the face as I carefully took the parchment from the owl and watched it fly away into the blue sky. I'd received a lot of letters over these past few days, none of them had been opened but I didn't recognise the writing so I tore it open.
Dear Rose
I am so sorry for you loss my dear, a few of the students from the two schools have held back as I was contacted by your friend Maddison. She expressed how they want to do something for Cedric and for the students who will be unable to attend the funeral and say goodbye. I am planning on having everyone gather In the great hall in 2 nights time. I know some of your friends are planning on signing, along with the help of the school choir, we will be sharing memories and photographs along with this. I understand that you may not feel up to do, but if we want to come along, to sit and listen, to sing, or talk you are more welcome. Don't feel any pressure, you can simply turn up on the day if you feel like it.
My condolences
Professor Dumbledore
I held the parchment tightly in my hand as I re read it over and over again until I couldn't anymore. How do I know whether I can cope with this? I mean I know I need to face everyone some how and part of me knows if I missed this...I'd regret it no matter how I'm feeling. Cedric loved music, we've spent our entire childhood going to shows and even preforming together. It would be a celebration not like a normal funeral that focused solely around death rather than someone's life...or atleast all the funerals I've attended have been that way. Cedric would want us to celebrate him this way, Maddisons idea was amazing. Especially because not everyone would go to the funeral, knowing Mr Diggory it will be close family and friends only. People like Maddison, Cho and Matt need to grieve. I wanted to go, I think. All I want is to make Cedric proud I don't want to miss and opportunity to do this. I can't.
Dear professor
I don't feel I will be able to cope with the thought of missing an opportunity to celebrate Cedric. I want to attend. Just send over any song or materials everyone had decided on.
Rose
Katherines POV
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"So she's not eating" Harry asked me frantically
"Odd bits here and there" I muttered
"She has to eat" Hermione shouted
"I can't force her Hermione can I!" I shouted back.
Silence
"Look I'm sorry Mione, I just don't know how to help her" I frowned
"No it's fine Katherine, it's a horrible situation"
"How's Matt and Cho" Ron asked
"I've spoke to them a few times, there both in bits. Matt barely leaves the common room anymore" I explained
"And Cho?"
"I've seen her about but she doesn't look good, almost like she's sick"
"She has to come out of her room sometime surely?" Harry asked, worry consuming him.
"She lost her best friend, she knew Cedric since she was born literally! I don't think she'll ever get over this let alone make it out of her bed" Hermione explained.
"All we can do guys is offer her support, it's up to her whether she takes it or not" I said.
Silence
"Katherine?" I heard a voice mutter from behind me. I turned round to see Draco Malfoy stood, hands in his pockets looking at the floor. Quickly I got up from our seats and followed him out of the great hall.
"How is she" He muttered
"She not eating..."
"Is she sleeping okay?"
"I think so, I mean she keeps the curtains closed the entire time"
"Is there anything I can do, i feel helpless!"
"Listen Mal-I mean Draco. She just needs her space and when she's ready she'll reach out"
"Yeah, I'm just...worried about her"
"We all are but we can't force her out of the room"
"Yeah...yeah your right"
"I promise I'll update you if anything changes Draco I swear!"
"Thanks ... Thanks Katherine".
Suddenly we were interrupted by Hermione running over to us.
"Katherine!" She shouted
"What's wrong Mione"
"Is it Rose!" Draco shouted back
"Yes..."
"Well spit it out Granger!"
"Draco!" I shouted "calm down"
"She's attending the...well the celebrations I guess you could call it we're having for Cedric in the great hall".
"How do you know?" I asked
"Dumbledore told McGonigal who just told us"
"And she's definitely coming" Draco questioned
"I mean it said so on the letter she wrote".
Rose's POV
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Time slowly passed on, it was now the morning off the schools version of a funeral for Cedric. I had eaten a little more over these past 2 days but it was still not enough, it's progress still. Draco had stopped by countless times. I wanted to let him in so badly, for him to hold me again but every time I got to the door to unlock it something in me made me stop and crawl back into bed. Maddison had sent me over some sheet music and I have been pouring all my energy into that, it's been a healthy distraction. I just wanted it to be perfect, for him. He deserved that much.
I just needed to get through it, but all the energy in my body was gone and I was running on empty. Everything was a challenge from showering, to waking up, to sitting up, going to the bathroom. At this rate I won't even make it out of the door even if I want to.
I haven't spoken to Katherine still, I felt bad. She lost a friend to, everyone has but it was the same story she'd call out to me and I wanted to answer to badly, but the words got lost in my throat before they could escape. It was as if my mind wanted me to be trapped in this cycle of depression. But Katherine and Pansy did not return to the dorm last night, I'm guessing that wanted to give me my space today. As much as I loved my friends and appreciate them part of me just wanted Draco and only Draco. All my other friends knew Cedric and were friends with him, I didn't feel like I could confide in them because of this. However Draco was different, he didn't over bare me with speeches on how things get better she would just simply sit with me and let me feel whatever I need to feel. I hadn't realised until now just how badly I wanted Draco.
Draco's POV
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My entire body ached without Rose by my side, it felt like psychical torture sat here not doing anything. All I wanted was to see her, I felt utterly useless sat around doing nothing. I'd sat in the common room every night until the sun came up these past few days, simply on the hope Rose would decided to come downstairs. I'd even checked the astronomy tower on the off chance she'd go there like she normally did when she wanted to see the stars, to feel at peace. But nothing could make her feel peaceful now, I mean how could it. I'm scared she won't survive this, I know I wouldn't of I lost her. She lost the closest person in her life I mean how does someone go on after that, how does someone breath.
I sat in the common room, yet again as students passed me by. I just sat, yearning for Rose.
I don't know what came over me but I decided to try again to see if Rose would speak to me. It was now morning and it was the day everyone would gather in the great hall. I just had to try.
I made me way up to the girls dormitory's quickly as my need to comfort Rose grew even more by the second I walked as quick as my legs would carry me and then I got to her door...My legs suddenly felt weak for some reason, my heart was pounding in my chest out of control. I took in a deep, heavy breath and softly knocked on the door.
"Rose, Rose it's Draco" I softly said hoping she could hear me.
I stood staring at the door closely listening for any movement, I just needed her to answer back even if it was to tell me to go away. Anything.
I huffed and slowly began to make my way downstairs again when I heard the door click open...