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Its been one month since I had that strange dream..or a nightmare?
Is it really? I don't know which one is my reality anymore..
But truthfully, I'm enjoying my life right now..hehee..!
But,
Such warm days...which one is dream, and which one is reality?
I wonder how long it will last..
I don't want to lose its warmness..I want to keep going on like this..
Me and father, we eat our meals together every day..
Leah always complain about my low eating habit..
The whole mansion is busy preparing my coming of age ceremony..
Feels like I'm discovering a new side of them..feels good...
Well , and about my sword training, father said I can start it after my birthday..he said I'm still weak.. I need to eat more, be healthy and rest for now..
And after my birthday, he will personally teach me for a whole month..
Yup! I'm so happy... (￣▽￣)
I'm spending my days lazily.. Walking in the garden, reading books and mostly observing them..such happy faces..
As days goes by happily then night comes..and I keep having those nightmares.. Though, its just a split of seconds but I still wake up horrified.. It's just little parts of that first nightmare..but still scary..I can't sleep at night..
I didn't told anyone as I don't want them to worry..
So let's endure it for a little longer..it will go away eventually...Won't it?
If this place where I'm 15 years old is my reality, then that means I've spent 5 years in a nights dream..but is that even possible.. Because that dream.....it felt so real....
I can't be certain which is my reality..But if those memories were a dream.....a dream of future...then there might be an answer for this..I really need to know..
Sometimes it feels like this one is a dream..such a happy dream..
Perhaps my life was so pitiful that god decided to grant me one last dream.....
God?....oh!!
That's right....god...ahh...temple...!!
Temple of Beatrice..!!
Yes, that's right!!
Perhaps the temple of the Oracle will have the answer..I should visit there..
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"Why do you want to go there?"
Father asked while having breakfast..
"I want to pray for our well being!!"
"No need to travel that far..we are quite well right now.."
"But its not even that far.."
"You are still weak..don't tire yourself.."
"I'm not sick anymore.. Please dad...please..."
I'm giving him my most pleading puppy face..
"Ahem! Okay..then I'll go with you too!"
"Huh! No need, dad..its fine I'll go with-.."
"With me! Well, I also want to pray for everyone"
Ah! Don't lie father...haaaahhhhh... 😒
"Okay.."
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"Have a safe trip master, young miss.."
The Butler and maids bowed..
"Yes..thank you.."
I smiled and waved at them...
Ahhh...I haven't rode a carriage for a long time..it feels stiff..but watching the people outside from the window feels good..
"Are you still having your nightmares?"
Father shoot a question suddenly..
"Uh? No..why ask?"
"Isn't that's the reason you are visiting the Temple? Are you still not comfortable with me to share your sufferings?"
"Huh! Dad! Its not like that..."
"I waited for you to tell me yourself..I thought you are finally opening up to me...I thought we are close enough to share our burdens and sufferings.."
Father said feeling hurt...
"Dad!! I'm sorry! I wanted to tell you but....that dream...its...its so strange and confusing... I...I couldn't.... I...."
Oh no..I'm tearing up..I'm going to cry...
Those emotions that I was trying to hide desperately, are boiling inside..
"Why are you sorry, sweety!! Daddy is sorry..sorry for not understanding you..sorry for not always there for you...sorry for never shadow you...sorry, sweety...though I promised your mom, but I couldn't be a good father to you..."
"No dad..what are you saying...?!!"
Now I'm crying really hard...
Father sat beside me and hugged me..
I also hugged back while crying...
Those dreams are so frustrating... I also wanted to talk about it to someone...but those are just strange dreams...everyone will be worried... That's why I didn't told anyone.. I keep masking it..
But I never knew everyone already noticed and knows about it...but still being considered and never asking me anything..
"I'll try hard from now on...you can always count on me...I'll not let anything bad happen to you...so now you can let go of your guard...you can rally on me..daddy will protect you... So from now on, don't suffer alone..because I am here...I'll always listen to you...even if its strange or doesn't make any sense, I'll still sit beside and listen to you...so don't hold up..because I'm always here for you...because you are my one and only precious daughter.."
"Sob sob..won't you think I'm strange?"
"No way...why would I think that?"
"I don't know....maybe because, I think I'm strange...sob sob.."
"Silly girl....dad will never think something like this.."
"Dad....will you....will you listen to me.....about the dream....after I visit the temple...?"
I really want to share those things to dad...even if he thinks I'm crazy...I want someone to just listen to all of this... Because its frustrating to keeping it inside me..
"Of course.. Isn't it obvious? "
Dad smiled happily...
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Urgh!! My eyes are swollen for crying so much..
Nowadays all I can do is cry..damn!!
After a while, We arrived at the temple...
The Temple of Beatrice!!
This should be my first time visiting this place..but this place seems so familiar... Exactly how I saw this in my dream..
In my dream, I have visited this place as a crown princess..It was one of my duties as a crown princess..
Well...let's go inside first..
As we go, we first pray to god then pay respect to the high priest...
Huh? Him!! This priest!! I know him as well...this is not simple...how can it be..
..After paying respect, as we walking through the temple suddenly a knight came and said something to dad..dad looks little worried..
"Is everything alright, dad?"
"Yes, dear....I need a work to do outside for a minute.. Will you be alright here?"
"Yes dad...don't worry...I was thinking about going to the temple library for a peek..you take your time..don't worry..."
"Stay in the library then..don't go anywhere... I'll be coming soon..."
"Yes dad!!"
Dad patted my head and walk away with the knight...
And I also went to the library.. As if I knew its path..
Empire of Beatrice... Its named after the goddess who helped the first emperor to build this empire.. This temple of Beatrice is also named after her...its also called the temple of Oracle..
Because gods Oracle can only be heard here..the previous emperors listened to those Oracles and always work according to them..
But as emperors keep getting greedy and doesn't always work according to the Oracle, the gods oracles keep getting lesser and lesser..
People who are blessed with hearing gods words are also lessen..
The recent high priest is the only one who have this power right now..after more than a few hundred years someone got blessed with gods hearing..
Maybe its because of the newest Oracle after almost 500 years...
The most recent and sudden Oracle is from 16 years ago..
An Oracle about Three Child that will be born and save the empire from the ruins..it's kind of complicated..
Now it's a tabbo to even talk about this in the empire..
It's a long story..let's not think about this now...
I took some books and keep looking about Oracle , visions and reincarnation stuff... But there's nothing...there's Nothing to answer my questions..
Will I never reach to my answers..I'm feeling really gloomy...
"Lady Anisha, is there anything bothering you?"
Asked the high priest while glancing at my books...
"Uh! High priest!! Ummm...no...its nothing... Don't worry...I was just curious about something.... Don't mind me high priest.."
I've seen him so many times in my dreams...can I ask him about my dreams... Ow no! He will think I'm crazy...I haven't even said anything to dad yet...
He pulled a chair and sit infront of me..
"Sometimes you can't find everything in the books...you can ask me..let's see if can fill your curiosity"
He smiled looking at me..
Guess its an opportunity... I should ask him...maybe he atleast knows about something...let's take this chance...
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A/N:
Woah!! Such a long chapter.. My mind is blank now..
Maybe I need some sleep!!
Adios!! 🐙