Emily
"I almost thought I lost you." He said with a frown.
"What were you doing?" I asked.
"When I went to your place, you were not there. Your mom was home at that time and she let me in and your dad called and said you almost drowned." And he sucked a breath.
"I'm okay." I said.
"You're okay." He agreed. "Last time you almost got hit by a car and now this? It's horrifying." He said to me and I watched him cry in front of me and it hurts me to watch him cry.
"Don't cry." I said reaching out to wipe his face.
"I promise I didn't mean to be distant, it sound like an excuse that I was drunk and kissed. I swear I didn't kiss her back. She tried to kiss me, but I pushed her away.
I'm sorry it sounded like an excuse that I was thinking about things, but I was and still am. Em, I was raised in a family where we don't give sh*t about anyone's feelings except for our own. You met my brothers. You saw what they did in my dad's birthday party. They didn't care about my dad's feelings. I'm worried you're loving the wrong person, Em. Already, I was too selfish enough and made you mine.
I was not sure if I could love you more than I love myself. I didn't mean to be distant and cold. Today, when I almost lost you. I knew that I love you more than myself and I mean it, Em. I don't want you to get hurt, but I did hurt you. I let you down for second time, now."
"I love you Everett, but I'm still upset about you getting drunk and someone else kissed you." I said taking his hand.
"I know. I want to say I'll make it to you, but I don't want to make any promises. I want to show you instead."
I give him a small smile and he returned one.
Later, I learnt my biological mother's name is Celina. She's a pretty woman and very emotional? She has been crying since I woke up and it made me feel weird. She's not a stranger, but at the same time, I don't know her well enough.
"What should I call you?" I asked awkwardly.
"You can call me by my name if you're uncomfortable calling me, mum." She sobbed.
"Celina." I said. "It's nice to meet you."
"I'm sorry." She apologized. "For putting you up for adoption."
My feature softened. "You didn't have a choice. You thought that was the best decision and maybe it was." I said.
"You're so mature." She said. "Can I touch your face?"
I nodded my head. She put her hands on my face.
"I wanted to come and see you, but I didn't know if you knew about your adoption and you seemed happy in the new home." She said to me.
"I am happy." I said to her.
"I know. Your dad sent me pictures of you for a while." She smiled.
"I know I shouldn't say anything about your relationship, please forgive me if you're offended. Can you give Grayson another chance? All he wanted to give you was the world." I said to him.
And she give me a sad smile. "I told him I was happy in that town, all I wanted was him beside me."
"He had dreams." I said.
"We all do." She said.
"Can't you give him a second chance?" I asked.
"It's too late." She said. "It's been years and I don't know if he have a significant other now."
"He doesn't." I said. "He still loves you a lot. He talks about you a lot."
"Does he?" She asked surprised.
"I know he made mistakes, but please think about it." I said.
She nodded her head and we both smiled.
Mom entered the room with the small boy from before beside her and a couple.
The boy shyly walked towards me. His eyes wide and his face was flushed. He shyly walked towards me with a bouquet of flower in his little hands.
"Theo wanted to say thank you to you." The mom said as Theo handed me the flowers and hid behind his mother. I smiled and waved at him. He give me a shy smile.
"We should have kept an eye on him." The dad said. "We're so sorry."
"I wouldn't want anything happening to him." I said and asked for a fist bump which he did, excitedly.
"My name is Emily, what's yours?" I asked.
"Theo." He said coming forward.
"How old are you?"
"Four." He showed me four fingers and I smiled.
"Is he okay?" I asked his parents.
"We're watching him closely." The woman said.
I nodded my head.
"Thank you once again." The man said to me and I give them a smile.
I guess..I kind of understand how Troy must have felt that time, while saving my life. You don't expect anything in return. All you wanted to do was to help someone and the feeling is nice.
Things have been crazy these few months, but I wouldn't complain about anything. It's like I'm seeing my version of rainbow after a storm and the rainbow looks beautiful.
I see my parents talking to Grayson and Celina. They seemed happy, talking and laughing. It almost seemed like they never separated. Everett was sitting beside me and holding my hand and telling me about his plans of making up to me and honestly. I didn't really cared what we'll be doing. I just want us to spend sometime together.
"I love you, Em." He said to me and I smiled.
"I love you, Everett and this time I can say I love you more." I grinned.
I don't know who needs to hear this or who wanted to hear this. All I want to say is please don't be too harsh on yourself. There are times when we wished things could have went differently or you could have did things differently.
I want to remind you, life is not picture perfect. We're not suppose to be perfect. We have flaws, we make mistakes and we learn from it. Don't try too hard to be someone who you are not. Don't let your diamond's light dim, all because you wanted to fit in. Just like how a diamond have a unique way of reflecting the light with the inside sparkling with brilliance and the outside reflecting rainbows. You're unique, You're not suppose to fit in, but you are suppose to stick out. After-all, you're different.
Everyone is different and beautiful. You're so beautiful and you're perfect as you are and maybe you don't believe me, but one day I hope you will realize how incredibly beautiful and special the way you are. Please be kind to yourself and to other. You're loved.
With Love,
Emily.
Author's Note: And with this, I want to announce that the book has come to an end and it has been finally marked as completed. Thank you to each and everyone of you who supported me from the beginning or later in this book. Thank you for those beautiful comments and for your support. You guys are really incredible❤️ I hope to see you in my other books 😄 love you guys so much ❤️