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A/N- This chapter is really sad,
so brace yourself.
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•Zayn's POV•
I swirled my cereal about a million times already. It was now soggy, and soft. I didn't feel like eating anymore, I put the silver spoon down into the half full bowl of cereal and pushed the mess to the side of the table, i shifted in my seat a bit and stretched for my phone.
No New Messages.
I sighed, i sent a message to Scarlett last night, she didn't reply, i guess i was kinda stupid to think she was going to reply, she is in the hospital. It was as so strange, It was just last week i was calling her names, Abusing her, Physically, Verbally, and who knows, maybe mentally. I didn't want to be her friend, but at the same time i didn't want her to stop talking to me. I glanced over to the analog clock hanging up on the wall, 8:26am, i sighed. I put both my hands on the table and pushed myself off the chair, stumbling a bit from the lack of sleep. I grabbed my phone, and put the dishes in the sink, my mom will probably wash them. I trudged up the stairs, and stopped in front of my bedroom door, grabbing the doorknob, i swiftly pushed the door, and closed it tightly shut behind me, i placed myself gently onto the chair in front of my desk, i reached across for my note pad, and flipped to a new page, and started to sketch simple features.
Bright blue eyes, with silver linings.
Small pink lips.
Perfectly shaped nose, with a little piercing to the side.
Long thick eyelashes,
a small face.
And vibrant blue hair.
I drew, and drew, a simple sketch was turning into a work of art, i didn't stop, i just kept going, ignoring my mom calling me down to eat, i didn't speak, i didn't move, my wrist was the only moving part of me. My eyes roamed over the portrait in front of me. My eyes suddenly became heavy, i took one quick glance at the clock, 11:57pm, and my eyes closed shut.
[Dream.]
Her hair blew wildly as she came down the skateboard platform, she had a huge grin on her face as she jumped around, Skipping through the never ending field of green grass, i chased after her, and caught the smiling beauty in my arms. I looked at her flawless face, beam at me, The wind blowing her hair in all directions,
"Sing to me Scar." I whispered gently. She looked at me and spoke ever so softly,
***Listen to THE MUSIC VIDEO OF We Found Love by Rihanna, now!***
"It's like you're screaming, and no one can hear. You almost feel ashamed; That someone could be that important. That without them, you feel like nothing. No one will ever understand how much it hurts, You feel hopeless; like nothing can save you, And when it's over, and it's gone
You almost wish that you could have all that bad stuff back, So that you could have the good." She looked me directly in the eyes, She ran out of my grasp and started to skip around, arms spread out wide, and she started to sing,
~~ Yellow diamonds in the light
Now we're standing side by side
As your shadow crosses mine
What it takes to come alive...~~
She ran into a little corner shop and gave me a warm kiss, she jumped onto a little table and started dancing wildly, her hands in her hair.
~~...It's the way I'm feeling I just can't deny
But I've gotta let it go..~
We jumped into my car, and i drove the car in fast circles, she was standing up through the sun roof, singing out loud, She was screaming at the speed, but smiling at the thrill,
~~...We found love in a hopeless place
We found love in a hopeless place
We found love in a hopeless place
We found love in a hopeless place...~~
She jumped out of the sun roof, and i followed her lovely voice, she threw herself at me, singing louder than ever. My heart wouldn't stop beating, she was everything, and the only thing i ever needed, she was my love. My life. My one and only.
~~...Shine a light through an open door
Love a life I will divide
Turn away 'cause I need you more
Feel the heartbeat in my mind..~~
Her vibrant blue hair followed her twirling body, as she spun in circles.
~~...It's the way I'm feeling I just can't deny
But I've gotta let it go
We found love in a hopeless place
We found love in a hopeless place
We found love in a hopeless place
We found love in a hopeless place...~~
She fell gracefully dropped onto the ground as she lifted her hands up, drawing little hearts in the air, still belting out her feelings in a song, i fell back down beside her, grabbing her waist and pulling her on top of me,
~~...Yellow diamonds in the light
Now we're standing side by side
As your shadow crosses mine
We found love in a hopeless place
We found love in a hopeless place
We found love in a hopeless place
We found love in a hopeless place
We found love in a hopeless place
We found love in a hopeless place
We found love in a hopeless place
We found love in a hopeless place~~
She finished the song, and looked me straight in the eye.
"I love you..." i said for the first time. Looking at her, my heart pounding against my chest.
"I Love-" and just like that she was gone. Poof. Like magic, i searched around for her but didn't find her. I got up and ran, for miles and miles, so i can hear her say those 3 words i've been dying to hear. My feet gave up in front of a tree, i suddenly saw a big pool of blue hair, i ran over to it, and in front of me was the love of my life.
Her eye's opened; it lost its sparkle.
Her mouth slightly ajar; no sign of a smile.
Her hands sprawled to the side; not holding onto mines.
Her lips a pale colour; not kissing mines.
Her face lost it's colour; shes no longer mines.
Her lifeless body drifted up into the sky, and just like that. She was gone.
[End of Dream.]
"Ahhhhh!" i screamed as i lifted my head up and knocked it against the lamp above me, my face was red and my forehead was drenched with sweat, my once perfectly styled quiff hair, was now laying flat. I looked around the room, outside was already very dark, and there was a note on my desk.
'We went to your grandma's house for the night. If you need to contact me, number's bellow
Goodnight Zayn.
~Mum.
910-000-0000'
I sighed and looked at the time, 3:49am. I shifted my gaze back to my desk where i had fallen asleep, my eyes stopped at the canvas drawing in front of me. What was happening to me? Its like i have a split personality, one minute I just want to spend all my time with her, and then next thing you know, i can't stand her. I looked outside and saw the trees and leaves blowing rapidly in the frigid wind. Typical weather. I looked at my sketch that i was working on, and wasted all my time with, i picked the thin sheet of paper up, and took it with me to the window, i rubbed my neck a bit, because when you fall asleep on a desk, it really hurts you. I unlocked the hinges on the window, and stuck my hand out, feeling the wind fly past my hands, i grabbed the piece of paper, and with one final look, i threw the portrait of Scarlett out the window, knowing very well that i was going to regret this later. Since i slept practically all afternoon, i wasn't tired anymore, and nobody was awake, it was the middle of the night anyways. I took my phone out and looked at my messages
No Mew Messages.
I was getting frustrated, why wasn't she answering me? I groaned and trudged downstairs, i turned into the kitchen and opened up the fridge, feeling the cool air blow against my once warm skin. I dug around for awhile but finally settled on a glass of milk and a sandwich, not the best choice considering i haven't eaten in 24+ hours, but i was way to lazy to make anything. I grabbed a movie from the collection at the side of the tv, and ran upstairs with my food, i set everything on my bed side table, i changed into sweatpants, and no top. I walked by the window and stared at it for awhile, no trace of the sketch, it was gone. I sighed and turned off the lights, i jumped into my bed and got comfy, i put in the movie and grabbed the sandwich, and thats how i spent the rest of the night... Well... Morning.
•Niall's POV•
Everyone seriously needs to calm the potato's down. I'm usually known as the carefree mofo in the group, but even i'm depressed. Alicia is just going nuts, i don't even know whats happening with her. Harry is either some confused demon, or doesn't understand his feelings for Scarlett. Louis is all tense now, i don't even know what happened to him? He used to be the one making us all laugh during our silly fights or disagreements, he's the one causing them now. Liam and I were so close,
and now, he's barely talking to me, we used to tell each other everything! Kat and Brianna seem to be distant now too... and on top of that Kat acts so awkward around me, i used to love her infectious laugh, and beautiful smile, Where did my Kat go... Where did my old friends go? I looked over and saw a picture of all 8 of us Last year. I remembered that day so well! We went to the Carnival, it was so much fun, we laughed, and smiled, and shared great memories, all 8 of us. I laughed at the memory of us at the zoo, where Liam fell face first into the the elephants... poo. And the time at the Lake, and My birthday.
I felt a warm liquid fall from my left eye,
"Damn it, Niall!" i cursed to myself, i'm such a wimp! I promised my self i wouldn't cry. I sighed and started my 5 minute walk to the movies, where i would at least get to hang out with Harry. I walked briskly, i wanted to watch Titanic, i know, i know. I'm watching it with Harry, blah, blah, blah. I don't care you cunt buckets. I love that movie, and its a movie where i can cry, and nobody will care! I reached the front gate and bought a ticket, Harry can buy his own. I bought an extra large Popcorn, Nachos, a large root beer, a few Candy bars for me, its not much, but i'm saving room for Nando's later. I felt a vibration against my left leg, I got a text, I put the popcorn bag in my mouth, and carefully pulled out my phone,
"You got enough there or?" some random dude said while passing by me, i gave him the evil eyes, and went into the room where the movie was located. I passed by a couple, both of them looked like they were in there eighties. I smiled as i saw the old man holding his wife's hand. True love really does last. I found a seat in the front, and set everything down nicely, and grabbed one of the Mars Bars i had, and began eating it, i checked the text.
HarryMarryLarry: Where are you?
I replied,
Niall: Inside, i already bought my ticket.
HarryMarryLarry: and my ticket?
Niall: Nope.
HarryMarryLarry: ): What movie? Alien invasion? Monster reunited 3D? Zombie Girlfriend?
Niall: Titanic.
HarryMarryLarry: WTF?! are you crazy?! No way!
Niall: Get in here.
HarryMarryLarry: No!... fine.
I put my phone down and smiled at my victory, a few minutes later Harry walked in, and sat beside me. He stretched his hand out in my direction, aiming for MY popcorn, i jumped out of my seat, a few pieces of popcorn falling from the top of the over flowing bag. and ran about 3 meters away from him, i gave him a death stare, he looked at me confused for a few seconds, but then caught on.
"You mean to tell me, that you bought ALL of this food, and its ALL for YOU?" he asked gobsmacked. I nodded a simple no, and went back to my seat, cautiously. He sighed and just sat there.
"So um, whats up?" i asked, trying to strike a conversation.
"Nothing." he said dryly. I felt bad, i looked down at my popcorn, and back at him. I shoved the popcorn slowly towards him. He turned and looked at me, his mouth wide open.
"The Niall Horan... Sharing food." I looked at him sadly.
"Whats bothering you Ni?" he said.
"Its not the same anymore, everyones fighting, we dont hang out anymore, Its just yelling and thats it, we can't even hold down a simple conversation anymore! What happened to the times when we used to be so close, they 8 of us! Liam, Louis, Zayn, You, Alicia, Brianna, and... and Kat...?" I said my voice loud. I few people turned around and told us to keep it down, but screw them! The movie didn't even start yet.
"Niall, i'm sorry you feel that way, but its not our fault, things happen, you've gotta deal with it. Can you tell me what happened yesterday after you all left?!"
"We had a fight in the car, Lou on Alicia's side..." I was cut off by Harry.
"No surprise." he scoffed. Okay? i continued.
"And Liam, on Brianna & Kat's. It would've gotten out of hand, but Zayn told us all to go home, we did." I finished.
"You sure?" Harry asked one eyebrow raised.
"Ye-Yeah, i mean i guess, Lou dropped Alicia home though."
"Yeah well i went back to the party after i left Scar at the hospital, and found Alicia kissing Louis!" He yelled, my mouth fell, to be honest, i wasn't that surprised that Alicia cheated on Harry, not be rude or anything. But i'm utterly shocked that Louis would be the one! For the rest of the movie we both didn't bother saying a word, occasionally i would steal a glance at him, his faced seemed still, and it never moved. I hated seeing my best mate like this. We were at the part of the movie were Jack takes Rose to a party on the ship. They were dancing wildly when the two people in front of us started to kiss. I groaned and looked
at Harry,
"I'm gonna break them apart, i can't see." I said, he nodded. I tapped onto the guys shoulder,
"Can ya' mates stop?" The guy turned around and so did the girl, my mouth dropped, for what felt like the 20th time today.
"Louis?!" i yelled, a bunch of people telling me to shut up, Harry turned his head immediately as soon as i said his name.
"Alicia?!" Harry yelled right after. Louis looked extremely nervous, he scratched the back of his neck.
"Uh. Hey Niall, Harry." I was about to respond when Harry's voice beat me to it,
"Dont hey me, what the hell are you doing?! Thats my girlfriend!"
"Excuse you? I don't think so."
"We never broke up, shes still technically mines!"
"Yeah, uh huh. Sure, says the person who said they don't feel a spark anymore!" Louis said, enraged, i could've sworn i saw Alicia smirk. I was terrified, i was caught in the middle of two screaming lads. By now the people have given up on yelling at them to shut up. I didn't believe what Louis said, Harry loves Alicia, so much! He would never saw that. Harry lowered his voice.
"You know thats not true." he said, poor lad. I didn't know what to do, i wasn't used to this, by now they both stood up.
"Alicia; tell him i never said that!" Harry said desperately.
"You did Harry, and it broke my heart." Oh now she didn't! Shes lying!
"Guys stop, this is a movie theatre, st-" i tried to calm them down.
"See!" Lou said.
"You know what Louis, A true friend is always honest no matter what, they tell the truth, even when you know that the truth may hurt and possibly even cost you your friendship, but i know you're not telling me the truth. A true friend is someone you can rely on. Where were you when i was by myself? Snogging my girlfriend?! A true friend would respect the fact that shes still my girlfriend, and i love her with all my heart! A true friend would ASK before taking MY girlfriend!
But a true friend doesn't drop you to be with someone else. A true friend will sacrifice their own comfort or happiness and put you first. Ha! Yeah right, instead of fooling around with her, why didn't you give me some time? Let me get used to the fact that you wanted my girl! A true friend you will stand up for you when you need it. Even when you don't ask them to. You know i'm not lying! A true friend is patient with you. They are understanding when things need time to change or get better and won't judge you even when you make the same mistake over and over. As long as you're making the effort to get better. But i can't do that! You're not even trying to make an effort to fix this problem. You can't fight fire with fire! A true friend is not a fair-weather friend. They are there for you in good times and in bad times. Wheres the Louis i use to know? A true friend is not scared to tell you what you're doing wrong . I i was treating her wrong, why not tell me?! They're not scared to seriously intervene if they see that something is seriously bad for you or if you're going down the wrong path. But they always support their criticism with advice that can help you improve. And finally, a true friend has the ability to forgive. Everyone is human and we all make mistakes at times. We may even break one or more of these golden rules of being a true friend, but if you realize that you messed up and you really show that you're sorry and try to make things right, a true friend will be able to forgive you. Just don't mess up in the same way again because there is a limit to forgiveness. And you've crossed that limit." I was now gaping at Harry, and so was everyone else in the theatre. I've never... no wait... NOBODIES ever seen this side of Harry.
"Well then, i guess we're not friends." Louis said simply. Harry raised fisted hands to hit Louis but his hand stopped half way, he looked over to the person that had stopped his Punch.
"Jason..." Harry whispered.
"Some friends are worth it. Others are not. I personally hate your living guts. But you'll regret this later. Go." Harry lowered his hand, and Jason walked away. Harry turned on his heels, and began walking out the door, i called after him.
"Harry wait...!"
"Save it Niall." he said and walked out.
"Louis?" i said sadly.
"Go home." he said, and walked out, Alicia following closely behind him. I looked down at my trembling hands, What've i done? I began walking slowly towards the exit, everyone starring at me, i couldn't care less. I was about to leave when i heard the same old couple from before talking.
"I'm thirsty." The old woman said barely a whisper.
"I'll get you so-something dear." The old man said, he started getting out of his chair, but he just couldn't he was trembling. I then remembered the water bottle i had in my hand that i never touched, i rushed over to them.
"Here, take this ma'am." i said politely, her hand shook as she reached for the bottle.
"Thank you so much." she said sincerely. I nodded and started to walk, but then the man grabbed my hand,
"Your friend forget something. True friends stay together through thick and thin, through all the rumors and the grins, through all the pain and all the tears; true friends are there throughout the years. Forgive. But never forget." And with that he let go, and i walked out of the theatre, tears slipping out of my eyes.
"You're right." I whispered.
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So i literally cried writing this chapter. I really feel bad, but its part of the story.
Picture of Zayn's drawing at the side.
On a brighter note
OMFG the Take Me Home album. Its just amazing. So many sexual feelings during the song 'Rock Me' and 'Heart Attack' . Omg.
On another sad note, I heard Justin and Selena broke up? If you have any thoughts on that comment bellow.
New chapter in about a week.
15 fans?
Loulica?
OR
Harria?
Zalett?
OR
Halett?
Comment bellow.
Until next time,
~PurpleDinosaur💋
Youtube Links:
We Found Love
by: Rihanna.
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=tg00YEETFzg
Rock Me
by: One Direction ( Take Me Home )
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=z61sIXAHM6U