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Chanyeol's Pov :
My Life has been Normal since past few years.
Normal as in, waking up, going to school, meeting Jongdae my Bestfriend as we struggle writing down notes, study a bit sitting in the far corner of the library during free lectures, watching my secret crush secretly, going home, sleeping and the cycle continues.
Like any normal person, I have a crush who may or may not be the son of the most well-known Businessman in South Korea. He is really handsome, beautiful and charming, who stole my heart without him having any idea about it.
Well, his name is Byun Baekhyun, Imperial High School's Golden Boy. He is not only handsome but rich, smart, talented, and confident enough to approach everyone which was the odd factor in me.
We have been in the same class for 5 years but unfortunately, he has never noticed me that's what I think. It's not exactly his fault either because I'm someone who prefers to stay hidden on the back of the class and away from the students for few reasons. In those five years, I've been sad, angry, discouraged for not being strong enough to approach him.
He would smile at everyone but I wasn't that lucky to get one for myself. He would greet everyone but I was far from his reach. I didn't exist in his world. Those smiles which are never for me, those sweet greeting which I never had kinda made me self doubt myself, not because of his lack of attention towards the left out one but the reason is he never seemed to ever know my existence.
That's such a filmy intro but he is the main character of my life so yeah.
But as I said it isn't his fault as no one would take notice of someone always covering themselves with a hoodie over their head and large specs covering my eyes. I wasn't someone who let people under my space either.
Jongdae was an exception as we have been neighbours and friends since a long time. My best friend did try once or twice to get baekhyun's attention towards me, but it was still futile. My self-doubt was turning into confusion. Do I look like a Bad Guy? Yes I wasn't a social type but i am sure my looks are not bad either. Why does he never approach me? Maybe like everyone else he thinks I am weird.
We have never talked to each other. I don't want him to be one of those people who look at my outer appearance and judge me. Few people have looked away as soon as they see my plain hoodie and glasses.
I tried and even though I would love to be close to him, i am tired. Hoping someday I would also receive some of his attention but alas I have to make some more efforts. It wasn't helping that I was trying my best to hide and get by normally.
But, Hope can get killed. Mine Did. Almost.
After five years I finally decided to stop hoping and accept my fate. One sided love is always painful. It's one sided, as it's only me who was hurting. He doesn't even know my existence.
From past one year, I have been hiding at the back of the class sitting on last benches where no one mostly comes. No one approach me or even make an attempt to know me for me. During free lectures, I would always run away to the library going through my notes or reading books just to distract myself. I tried everything that would help me tune down my feelings but they have been only growing.
"You have been distancing yourself Chanyeol. Do you think I won't notice how you run away as soon as the bell goes off?" Jongdae my ever sharp bestfriend noticed as he huffed beside me. "Park Chanyeol am I going to get an answer or as always you are going to act as if I am speaking nonsense!"
I pretend to shuffle inside my locker hiding myself against the door. As he said I acted as if I didn't hear it at all. Jongdae my only friend here who has been by my side for a long time. I don't know what to even say right now. I'm not in a mood since my morning was already ruined.
"Aren't you going to explain? You don't even pick up my phone calls nowadays while all my messages are seen but unanswered. Am I not your best friend anymore?" Instantly facing him I rolled my eyes. He was there being pouting and whining again. Why is he so cute and annoying at the same time!
"I've been busy," I replied as quietly as possible. Jongdae raised a brow and gave me his most kidding look.
"What's making you so busy. The last time I remember we don't have any assignments to turn in until next week. You have already completed your vocal course including the piano lessons. The maths tuition you started was also delayed until next month. Our History, Arts and Science Projects are halfway done. Our Music class haven't distributed the schedule yet. The Orphanage Sisters haven't called you yet as you are still here attending school so no mister remind me again what is making you busy again" He finished ranting with a small huff before folding both his hands over his chest with a small frown plastered on his face.
That's too much information. I duck my head lower as to whisper to him to keep his voice down. Everyone was staring at us now. How the hell in the freaking world does he know everything? Do Bestfriends have to know about each other schedules or is it just mine who pays too much attention.
Before I could make up any other excuse my eyes snap towards the main entrance as three most gorgeous boys strut themselves inside as if they came straight out magazine a magazine. Now all the eyes are on them following their every move including mine.
I couldn't take my eyes off from a certain someone who keeps fidgeting on his heels seeming nervous than before. He walks towards his locker pulling out a thick black book with few blue and black pens arranged neatly in a transparent case. He looks up once, twice to smile around only for his brown eyes to fall directly on me before they are swiftly moved away stopping at Jongdae. I felt a pang in my chest as they share a wide smile. I stay rooted in my spot unmoving. As always I ducked my head down and turned around.
Inhaling and exhaling I snapped my locker shut, ignoring the curses of few people. I'm not going to let him make me feel like this. So Vulnerable and broken. My soul is already in the brink of a breakdown. That's dramatic but it's true.
Jongdae doesn't follow me nor do I want him too. Unlike me, Jongdae gets quiet well with the golden Boys aka, Oh Sehun the Dancing Fairy, D.O Kyungsoo the Drama club's President and Byun Baekhyun the Prince of Melody.
Jongdae is also a Vocal and has quite a reputation in the Music Club. He was always paired up with Baekhyun as they blend in beautifully. Anyone can call them Bestfriends if not for Jongdae who always deny about being close to Baekhyun. I, on the other hand, was never involved with any of them in any way. Jongdae was closer to Baekhyun than me so I never told him about my feelings as I don't want our friendship to stain.
Sehun was a very fantastic Dancer, along with his bad boy looks he was hot as hell attracting both boys and girls. I, on the other hand, is not quite a Dancing person. He was also quiet and seem to avoid talking. He rarely even smiles, unless he is around his friends. Anyways, Dance and I never go well. I'm afraid I would break his toes or something for one I'm clumsy, insecure and taller than him which always made me feel awkward and second Dance was never my thing. He was also cold and cared less about his surroundings but I, on the other hand, would always watch out. I would sometimes find his curious gaze stop over me but it wasn't like i would acknowledge it.
D.O Kyungsoo was not only good at Singing but he was a fabulous actor. His acting skills were praiseworthy. Every year he would win the best actor award in school's festival along with his team who was guided by him. I, on the other hand, don't know how to act. I can't even spell the 'A' from the word Actor. He is quiet mysterious but once or twice I was seen him goofing with his friends. He is also the only one to nod over me as he always finds me beside Jongdae during morning hours.
It wasn't a hello but atleast he notices my tall self.
Lastly, Byun Baekhyun the Prince of Melody and the school's heartthrob.He has beautiful eyes and an even more beautiful smile. He is shorter in height but perfect to fit in my arms. When he laughs it's louder but full in bloom. He has such delicate fingers that I want to encase them in my palms. His hairs are so soft that I want to sooth them. His Voice makes me fall in love with him harder. When he sings, everyone has his attention including mine. His voice is so soft and soothing.
We have never been in the same Music sessions but i would definitely never want us to be. He won't be seeing me as Park Chanyeol anyways. It's will be Loey my pen name. It's a shock still that no one had ever noticed me before but who will under this hood that covers me whole.
The bell rang signalling everyone to pile inside the class. I quickly walk towards the back near the window away from everyone's eye before taking out my belongings. Sighing, I look towards my left and find the seats empty. Who would even want to seat beside a plain tall wired guy?
Silence fell around the room as the Golden trio walk inside. The surprising thing was Baekhyun was blushing, his cheeks red as cherry and eyes cast down as he avoids eye contact with everyone. Beside him Kyungsoo look annoyed which he quickly masked away with a blank face before I could look closely. Behind them comes Jongdae and Sehun who had smirks each plastered on their faces as they whisper something to each other. I quickly look away as they turn my way before walking towards their seats at the opposite side from where I was.
After some time I heard the chair being pulled as someone took a seat beside me. First it was surprising but as soon as my eyes fell on the person they were wide and shocked. In those five years, no one had bothered me beside Jongdae, who seems to annoy me by declaring himself as my best friend which I never denied.
Now this was quiet a shock as it was not just anyone but D.O. Kyungsoo himself. For a while I just started but soon i quickly looked away as it would be creepy to stare.
After just a few minutes of staying silent he finally cleared his throat, snapping me out of my thoughts. I didn't turn towards him but from the corner of my eyes, I could see how he seemed a little hesitant and uncomfortable. What is the world is going on?
I pretend not to see or hear him or even look his way. He need to be vocal if he wants to talk to me.
Until Kungsoo thought he wasn't expecting to be ignored.
"Hii, may I borrow your notes? Mine were left at home. I need to review those before the test"
Smooth. But why is he making such an excuse!
I passed my notes without looking at him or responding to him. I have reviewed them already so it's okay for him to have them. I can feel his gaze trying to take a good look at my face but i quickly faced the window. Why was his gaze so calculated? What was the main purpose of coming here of all people to me.
It was already 8 pass 10. How long will the professor take to come? He needs to hurry up.
"Umm, so you are Park Chanyeol, the one who Jongdae clings too all the time" He speaks. I wanted to reply back with 'he is not clingy' but held back myself. I don't want to cause any misunderstanding so I finally faced him.
"Does it have something to do with your curiosity?" I voiced out with calmness.
I expected him to get angry but he only chuckled surprising me even more. "Not exactly, but i would like to ask you something else which I might need you to be truthful about"
A frown took over my lips as I studied his features. He doesn't look relaxed as his posture look stiff and muscles tensed. His gaze kept shifting towards his friends and then me again.
"Is this and interrogation?" I asked wondering if I should keep up with him anymore. But he is baekhyun's friend. Talking about first impressions.
He shook his head before clearing his throat again. Keeping his voice low he turned his whole body facing me before whispering.
"Ask Baekhyun Out"
If I was drinking water, I would have definitely spilt it all over him. I looked at him as if he was out of his mind. I'm dreaming? I would like to pinch myself but it would be funny.
"Huh?"
Seeing my reaction he groaned before rubbing his face, as if he it took a lot of effort for him to say that. Even though he whispered.
"Don't get me wrong but I actually want you both to date" I seemed to zone out for sometime as my mind started to replay his words.
My gaze turns cautious as I give him a blank Look. "What makes you feel so sure that I would agree to what you said," I asked.
"Because you like him? Think about it thoroughly. Its a good catch. Its like a dream come true to date your Crush afterall"
"And on what basis are you saying that?" I internally start to panic! "I don't like him that way"
Kyungsoo let out a snort. "Oh, come on, it is not that hard to guess. You have been pinning over him for years. It's not exactly unnoticeable"
He quickly tried to calm himself down. He was grateful that he has the hood up. He refused to let anyone see his flustered self. "You are making no sense. There are plenty of people who like him. Why don't go an ask anyone of them to volunteer"
"You aren't denying it i see" he smirked "Well i could have, but they aren't you Park Chanyeol", He said as a matter of factly.
Now this got me all alert. "I don't understand"
Kyungsoo stared ahead with a deep gaze as if he was having a conversation with himself. He looks so serious. "I don't want his heart to fall into wrong hands you know". Then he turned towards him and gave a soft smile. "Believe me when I notice something I am never wrong about it"
I don't know what came over me but I just couldn't hold it anymore. This was not at all okay. No one was going to know. This was my secret. But then he appears and shakes my resolve. My heart was trembling with an unknown emotion.
As I got up abruptly not caring about all the looks I stood up, picking up my things and strolled myself out. The class is about to end anyways and the professor was nowhere, so the test is automatically been cancelled.
I rub my chest, feeling all kinds of emotions flaring inside me.
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his wasn't supposed to happen. This is all wrong. I don't get how did he see through me. It was just a coincidence. I should calm the hell down. Yeah library is a good place.
Byun Baekhyun you have ruined me. Why can't I make my feelings vanished!
As I walked out of the building, I truly wished that one day it won't hurt so much anymore. That one day I would get over my feeling which is deeply carved inside my heart for only one person.
Byun Baekhyun.
I'm falling even harder for you even if my feelings are one-sided.
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