*Matilda*
Whoever says time heals everything wasn't right in my case, even after all these while I still feel as shitty as always
Lately I get really emotional
I cry over everything
When I accidentally broke a mug
When Nanny had to go to camp for two nights and I was stucked with sally
I even cry over accidentally spilled milk or when I can't turn on the TV
Basically everything
I try not to think too much about Felix's confession i might just start crying. Although I like to call it bluff but I know Felix enough to know he doesn't bluff
He'd rather not say anything than say things he doesn't mean.... But then he did lie to me and said things just to get me hooked.... And this is all temporary, soon he will be gone
He didn't stop coming and it got even harder to be in the same room as him, infact he stays back till really late sitting not too far from me, pretending to be interested in my horror series, but he has also been really quiet, reserved and dull lately
Atimes I wonder how Jessica must be taking his late nights... Or does she already know that am pregnant.
Knowing that woman she may have hired a private investigator or something
I was trying to concentrate on my movie and gummy bears, when I glare at Felix and he was dozing off on the armchair with his mouth slightly opened, he must be really exhausted from working too hard.
I felt really bad for me, he has to drive to and fro three hours after an hectic day
Without thinking I stood up and moved closer to him, maybe I was just dying to get a closer look...... I bend over his face listening to his even breathing and felt his hot breathe hit my face. His beards were coming out rough.. He hasn't been shaving. He looked really worn out, or maybe he is having problems at work
Before I could get my senses back he opened his eyes and I jerked back with a tiny scream escaping my throat, I felt so embarrassed.. Why did I even do that
"Are You okay.... " he asked looking concerned
"Ahhh yeah am good, sorry did I wake you "
"No its fine, I don't even know when I dozed off "
"You look really tired, do you want to call Mario to come pick you up"
"No, no.. That's not necessary... I'll just get going now"
He stood up and took his jacket
"You should really get some rest"
"I will... Thanks "
Halfway to the door he turned and looked back at me
"Uhhhm Matilda, I don't know if you have any commitment on Sunday "
"No....... Why"
Is he planning another picnic
" Actually my dad has been askin to see you and I told him I would ask you about it"
"Your dad"
Felix hardly ever talks about his dead and it feels weird that he was asking to see me
"Yeah..... But it cool if you have things to do I can always come up with an excuse "
"No if he wants to see me, then yeah I should go"
"Really.... You sure"
"Yes of course"
No am not sure
"Alright.. I'll tell him you agreed, Enjoy your night Matilda "
"You too....Goodnight "
****
Sunday morning and I was standing in front of the mirror trying to strap my brown leather jacket on over my green stretchy flair dress
The jacket was getting tight but it felt right, I pulled on my boots and joined Felix on the porch talking to my Nana
I wasn't introduced to any of the parent of the guys I ever dated
And this kind of feels really awkward
I don't even know what to expect but it not like am going to show up and be like
"Hey there... My name's Matilda, am the girl that is pregnant with your son's child"
How's that for cheesy
The drive was in complete silence except for the soft rhythm playing on the radio... He didn't say a word to me and I would really like a hint of what am going up against
I needed a distraction or I'm going to start counting the road signs
I scratch my palm and sigh
"Hey are you OK "
"Yeah. I just wouldn't mind a gum or candy"
"I think I have a chocolate bar right there.... "
I stick my hand in and swooped out an hotel key card
"Have You been staying at a hotel"
He stare at the card in my hand and sighed
"Uhh.. Yeah"
"Why"
"No reason in particular "
"Is that why you have been staying back late because you weren't going straight home"
"Yeah but don't worry about it"
"Are You having issues with Jessica, does she know am expecting ur baby"
I had to ask
"No.... No... She doesn't yet"
"Is that why we are going to see your parents "
"Its not that "
"Then what... "
"Jessica and I are getting a divorce "
Words got stuck in my throat and he suddenly pulled over
And I turned to look at a breathtaking mansion with a statue lion water fall in the middle of the large driveway
I wished he had told me sooner
I may have had enough time to take the news as now am about to confront his family
He opened the door and I stepped out slowly..... The view was wonderful and the interiors... Oh my God I suddenly want to pee, crytal chandeliers hanging down the ceiling
I guess I've been too busy thinking about whom I was coming to see I didn't take time to imagine what his parent's home would look like
A nice maid let us through the house to the back where the dinning was set by the pool
A woman in a peacock design kimono jacket approached us, she had silver blonde hair matching her silver eyes. She had to be Felix's mom although she looked younger and really pretty
"Hello... Ma'am "
I said smiling but she walked over to her son and hugged him
"Welcome son, You are right on time for brunch "
She led us to a table of what I'd rather call feast for a dozen people
I sat beside Felix to his mother's left, I don't think she likes me that much
My eyes moved first from one delicacy to the other
Is this how rich people have breakfast, there are three different main courses on the table with sponge cake and muffins
"Hey mom, where's dad "
"He just woke up, he is getting ready "
"Okay so... Mom this is Matilda "
"Hello mrs Harper " I tried again with a bigger smile
"So this is she... " he nodded
"So how far gone are you "
"Eight months"
"Eight months.. Huh, were you ever going to tell us about this Felix "
"Yes ma...... Can we just start eating already "
"You know we can't start without your father. So Matilda how long have you been having an affair with my son"
"Ma"
"A couple of months back, but we are just friends now"
"Friends...... Do you know he is married to a very loving and adorable wife"
I don't know about the adorable part
"Yes" I answered slowly
"Mom we are not here for an interrogation "
"Well well well..... "
A loud voice came from the house and a tall blonde lady walked out with another lady trailing behind
"If it not my brother and his MISTRESS on a sunny Sunday morning "
She announced walking closer to the table
"Audrey, do you mind.... "
"What, did I get any of it twisted "
I bowed my head slowly
This is going terrible...
"How can you think of cheating on Jessie with this tramp"
Felix flared up tossing the napkin on the table
"Now don't you dare call her names, what the hell is wrong with you "
"Am fine, I don't know about you .... Where did you even find this one"
"None of your business... And I'll appreciate it, if none of you speak ill of my guest, we are here to see dad, I think in the meantime you can all keep your opinion to yourself "
"Matilda.... "
A soft voice called and I look up to see Cindy... She was the other girl beside Audrey with the short black hair holding a tablet
Oh my gosh, things just went from bad to worse
How's she even here right now
I haven't seen her in four years
Why here Cindy... Why now
"Its really you... Bitch "
She launched at me and Felix stepped in front of me, I stood up to hide behind him
"Now.... Who the hell is this"
"That's my assistant Cindy.... "
"You have an assistant... For what "
"None of your business... Cindy do you know her by chance ''
"Of course I do, This fraudster and I went to college together "
"Okay calm down, what did she do"
Audrey sounded agitated but I really wish the ground can just open up and swallow me
"Oh.. I see, You are one of the people that invested in the food truck "
Felix chirped in
"Hell yeah.... Do you know what she did, she duped me and ran off with my money"
"Oh my God...... You don't mean it"
Audrey chuckled loudly
And I just want to cry so bad
"And today that I have finally found this bitch, am going to collect every penny from her, "
But I don't have two hundred grand
Where am I suppose to get that from
"I can't believe this, she's a mother fucking pimp "
"Shut up Audrey "
"Don't yell at your sister because of this con artist, she's definitely out to destroy you and the beautiful thing you share with Jessica.. Why can't you just open your eyes son, she's only here for the money. Are you even sure that baby is yours"
The tears were rolling down quickly I couldn't control it, I want to just disappear Felix was still arguing with his mom
I started walking away like I was invincible but Cindy stood In my way
"And where do you think you are going "
"Cindy pls, it was all Logan "
"I gave the check to you not Logan"
"Don't You dare lay a finger on her, I'll pay you your money, so back off "
Felix joined is quickly
"Are You really going to let her get away with this, just because she's your baby mama"
Audrey asked with a scowl
He put his hand around my shoulder and for a moment I felt better
"What did I miss "
We all turned in the direction of the voice to a man strapped to a wheel chair