Chapter 24: Back again
Sophie’s P.O.V
As the words sank in I stared at her in utter confusion, I didn’t think of the tears anymore, I barely felt them, but I still knew they were there “how can you like that?” I asked in a low voice. She smiled weakly at me wiping her eyes “different taste I guess” and with that she looked down and fumbled with her hands, letting them rub against each other.
She raised her ring-finger and looked at it smiling “I want the same things as you, you know” she said as if she had a great memory. “How do you know what I want?” I surprised myself with my little not so friendly outburst. ”I am a girl, I want what most girl dream of, marriage, house, kids, maybe even a little dog” Jessie laughed a bit to herself as if it was a funny thing having a dog.
I stared at her in confusion, then why is she living like this? This is hell, I have seen it in movies, I have experienced violence close to me, and I know that I will not be able to last in a violent relationship.
She must have sensed my distress because her eyes fell on me in a reassuring smile “please give us a chance, I can’t bare the thought of living without you, we have been looking for you for so long, I can’t lose you now” Jessie said as she teared up again and bended forward as if in pain.
It was not I physical pain. The urge to come close to her and comfort her became too much, I scooted closer so our thighs were touching. Licked my lips unsure of what my next move should be, should I run away or hug her or simply just tell her not to cry, I wanted to comfort her, but I didn’t want my comfort to give her a fake reassurance that everything is okay, because it is not.
Jessie looked up at me “I love you so much” she said. I don’t know what exactly happened but the next thing I know I am sitting on her lap straddling her while I hid my head in her neck. I crawled up in her lap, she did not force me or anything, all of this I did on my own.
And now that I was in her arms I never wanted to let go. I needed this comfort, I needed her silky breath on my hair her womanly hands rubbing my back as a comfort even though I was not the one who needed it the most, or maybe I was?
She was about to pull back but I held on tighter “don’t let go” I whispered into her neck making it sound muffled, but she must have heard because she held tighter “I will never let you go” she said leaving small kisses on my hair.
She moved her lips to my ear and let out a warm breath on my skin making me shiver in delight. “Xander and Jeremy are going insane…” my eyes widened as she said that, I moved back and looked at her in fear, “they are going insane emotionally because they miss you, we will never hurt you love” Jessie whispered in my ear.
I let out a shaky breath and hid in her neck again, “may they come over?” she asked me caressing my hair. I didn’t answer, what should I answer, he slapped her, and Jeremy just watched, and they like that lifestyle, am I ready for all of this?
“Sophie?” Jessie said louder this time and pulled my head up so that she could look me in the eyes, “They want to come apologize themselves, is that okay?” she asked in a caring voice, her voice so sweet and silky, just like your mother’s voice, I felt like a baby in a mother’s arms when Jessie held me, I felt so safe and knew that no matter what happens, then this very person will be there for me.
I nodded leaning back down to hid my face in her neck again. My fingertips followed my head and I started to draw small patterns on her neck from her neck to her chin. I studied my fingers way across her skin as if it was the most interesting thing I had ever seen.
Dark shadows hovered over us, covering us from the sunlight. I looked back followed the silhouette of a man I know very well from shoes up to his face. Xander. Beside him stood Jeremy, they both smiled weakly at me trying to seem happy but they were having a hard time.
“Sophie, please forgive us” Xander said, “forgive me” he added sorrowful, “please give us a second chance” he begged. I looked at Jeremy to see him look down “I know you are scared, but we are here for you, and we will never hurt you” Jeremy finally spoke up, he looked up at me and his eyes showed so much fear.
I looked back to see Jessie staring down at me with a small smile on her face. I let my hands fall and fumbled with my fingers as I stared at them as distraction from reality. “I am willing to try again” I said lowly but loud enough for them to hear, apparently. They all let out a relieved breath.
I got up and sat beside Jessie, “but I will not be a part of your lifestyle” I looked up seeing their hurt faces. “I just can’t… maybe you like it, but I don’t…” I told them truthfully.
Bad memories of physical pain caused by aggression filled my brain, women crying, my sister screaming and me sitting numb watching into thin air as something occurred right in front of me, the memory is old and damaged by circumstances. I wish I could say it was just a bad dream or scare scenario, but this was definitely a memory, I experienced this once, but when, where and why I don’t remember.
Xander crouched down in front of me “whatever you want princess” he said caressing my cheek with his big manly hand, I leaned into his touch unconsciously and closed my eyes enjoying his rough hand run over my soft silky skin in such a loving and caring motion.
I opened my eyes as his hand left my cheek and felt myself being lifted up, but only to be put down again on Xander’s lap. He held me close and rocked me back and forth showering my hair with kisses “I love you so much princess” he muttered into my hair.
Jeremy sat down on the other side leaving me surrounded by mates, but I didn’t mind that, it actually felt nice.
Xander’s P.O.V
Minutes went by just sitting there touching each other to reassure ourselves that this was real and we really were here together again.
I am born to dominate, so her words hurt like hell, I can’t be me around the girl I am supposed to spend the rest of my days with. I wish I could just stop being dominant and give her whatever she wants and just be a normal old fashioned ménage couple, but that is not in me.
My wolf is dominant, I am an alpha, alpha is dominating and if they can’t dominate their wolves will go insane, this is not only domination sexually, but also in everyday life, I need to be the top of the hierarchy even though I wish with all my heart it wasn’t like that when she doesn’t like it.
I can’t live without her in my life, I just can’t. She is my mate, she is made just for me, for us, I will not be able to live without any of my mates, they all mean the world to me.
Jessie needs to dominate, she has been suppressing it for all this time, without it her wolf will go nuts, and Jeremy needs her too. Somehow we have to persuade her to try it, just try it, the dangerous thing about is that when you start you get addicted to it.
Her idea of our lifestyle is wrong, but the look in her eyes when she said she didn’t want to do our lifestyle was so sorrowful, her eyes were blank and it was obvious she was thinking about something. My wolf keeps telling me that I should hunt down whoever is making her feel like this, but I will not scare her even more, she will tell when she is ready.
Whatever that is bothering her, needs to go away. I will not let a mate of mine feel distress.
Jessie’s P.O.V
Because of the events we skipped the date and went straight home. Jeremy carried a sleeping Sophie into the house. She fell asleep on the way back and mumbled our names in her sleep. That did it for us. That was what we all needed from her.
In the car she seemed uneasy in her sleeping state, she kept closing her eyes tighter and shook a bit, but then we all touched her and she calmed down instantly and fell into a peaceful sleep.
Jeremy smiled reassuring to me, he didn’t say anything and still he said everything. ‘She is safe now, she is ours now, she is home’ everything we all were thinking, and I gave back a toothy smile staring at the sleeping beauty beside me.
My wolf begged me to mark her, she was not willing to lose her again, and I agreed with her, but I can’t force her.
She didn’t want this lifestyle, and we all agreed that for now we should let her be and then hopefully she will change her mind in a day or two.
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A/N promise the next chapter will be more eventful, but now they are together again, yay! :D