*Felix*
I didn't mean for things to end this way
It was never my intention to hurt Matilda....
And I sure as hell wasn't ready to say goodbye
We shared really great time together and I don't regret it for a second
I'd still be the same miserable sulking husband...
If I decide to go under the radar with Matilda just so the heat can pass am sure she would agree but I can't do that to her.. She deserves better
And up until now I have stayed faithful to my wife. Lemme try and get that back in track
When I saw Matilda walk down the runway... There was no words to describe how beautiful she looked.. So gracefully gorgeous... I couldn't take my eyes off her. She looked pretty tensed at first but with time she loosen up and rocked the runway like she own the show
And then after her bow and recognition, she winked at me.. The tiniest and carefree reaction from her makes me even more drawn to her
At that time I knew I wouldn't be able to bring myself to end things with Matilda... She makes me feel so alive... Like the whole world is behind us and we are the only two people left in the universe
I wanted to get out of there first... While I waited for my car...
I notice the media rounding up on someone . when I heard her voice. I knew right away that it was her
They were crowding her and asking questions....
And then she had to just say something about.. The Mistress
And it felt like all the blood in my vein were drying up
the truth was unveiling right in front of me and I felt like a complete moron
I started having issues in my marriage because my wife spends more time with the media than with me.. I hated that she couldn't get her priorities right and we were growing apart
But here is Matilda another star in the making..... With the way she swayed her designs just now.. She nailed being a model and a very talented designer
And Even if it her first night of being a media star.... She's going to grow out of proportion and I won't be able to help it..... There would be just another episode of media fantasy in my life looks it an unending phase in my life
Jessica started just like this.... With her rally and champaign for student union in college until she became a news anchor and now runs her own show
Matilda maybe different and be after her own progress and she's going to be successful.. I don't need a soothsayer To know she is going to be the next big thing
I just wanted to disappear so fast but the moment I got into my car, I don't even know where she came from and how she saw me she just hopped into the car and said.. 'Let's go'
I guess I have to get this done tonight
Once and for all.
She was chattering endlessly and my mind was experiencing heart quake..
I wish she would just shut up and read the lines
I can't take her back to the apartment
I know that would just be a terrible idea.... I'll try to start but I'll end up getting her naked because I can't help it... And yet we won't achieve anything.. By doing that, I'll just get even more confused
The last thing I want to do is take advantage of her for another night
After driving myself crazy with my thoughts.. I finally pulled over in a place that seem fit for the kinda conversation we were about to have... And with no one lurking around
I've said no to thousands of applicant, close down a business deal without even going through the files, have declined several business offers and stripped out of many deals..... Not once have I felt so unsure of doing the right thing
This was freaking me out and am losing it gradually....
I avoided her eyes.... I try not to laugh at her sarcasm.. She's so cute when she's trying to be funny but I can't even smile or all this would be for nothing
Then she just went on and said
'I have fallen in love with you Felix '
I want to hug her so tightly and kiss her jawbone and carry on my waist
Even though I keep denying what I know is there.. I know how much I care about my shorty and how much it hurts to say all these awful things to her
She's making it so damn tough
I really wished the situation was different..... And it didn't have to be this way ... But there's no other way
And when she was begging me to stay.. My knees were getting weak and if I didn't get to the car on time I might just go right back into her arms
As I speed off, I couldn't take my eyes off the mirror as I watch her stand there helplessly
Fuck... This is so cruel
I shouldn't have left her there I should have offered to take her home
So I called Mario and told him to go pick her up and take her back to her condo and make sure she's fine
I can't undo my wrongs
It started with a very strong attraction between us... I thought it was just sex but it grew... It became an obsession. I always want to be around her and look at where that got us
In a messy ridiculous breakup
Mario called me when I was pulling into the driveway at the house
"Yes mario.... "
"Hello sir, I couldn't find her....... "
"What, and why are you just getting there"
"I was unable to locate the place on time "
"Well check everywhere, she has to be around there somewhere, she couldn't have gotten far"
"Alright sir "
"And do what you have to do.... Don't call me, I'll call you "
"Ok sir''
When I got off the phone I was hearing music playing faintly in the background and when I looked out the whole driveway was occupied with different cars
What the hell is going on
I walked into the house and found Rosita carrying a tray filled with croissant and she was wearing a costume with two others
"Hey Rosita, what's going on here and where's that music coming from"
"Welcome back sir.... Madam has been waiting for you to join the party "
"What party...... "
"Your party sir.... Everyone's out in the garden"
"A party... You've gat to be kidding me "
I walked out through the back door and was staring at my back lawn turned into a party ground
Chairs and tables in round circle, music blaring... And people pacing around in groups
There's even a barbeque stand,
It almost 11pm and they are all here
Mostly familiar faces and I felt drowsy all of a sudden
I thought I was heading home to have some peace and quiet not this charade
Just when I was busy thinking of how to disappear from this
Someone spotted me and I was dragged into the party
Jessica of course was wearing a red ball dress with her hair up and pearls on her ears and neck....
She walked towards me and embraced me then gathered everyone round
"The man of the hour is finally here"
Everyone cheered and clapped
My mom and sister was here too...
There's even Ronnie my childhood friend I haven't seen him in years and other close relatives
"Am really happy you all came out here to support and honor us" she continued
"As we celebrate our seventh year anniversary... Thank you all for coming.. We love you all"
It my anniversary party and I didn't even know I was having a party
I wore a big smile and shake as many hands as possible, hug as many people as possible
I was worn out and everyone wants to hear one or two things about the happy couple when it looked like I couldn't keep up anymore..
I had to get Jessica's attention and call her to the house
"Hey sweetie "
"What is the meaning of all this "
"Our anniversary baby, do you like the surprise "
She pulled at my jacket
"Oh look at you so stressed... I had your matching outfits waiting but you didn't come early... Where were you "
"Why would you pull a stunt like this without informing me "
"What stunt... This was meant to be a surprise "
"What surprise... Our anniversary was last week, don't you think this is unnecessary "
"Unnecessary " she chuckles
"What is unnecessary is what stood in the way of having this party at the appropriate time... Do you remember, the little affair you had with that whore "
Of course I remember
You do a great job at making sure I don't forget
"I thought we are suppose to be moving pass this not reflecting on it"
"Exactly which is why you should be out there entertaining our guests not complaining "
"Am not complaining "
"Yeah You shouldn't because you lost that right.... That reminds me did you take care of it"
"Of what "
"Your bitch "
"She's not a bitch"
"She's not a whaaat..... Oh you want to go ahead and defend your mistress.. Go on "
"Am not defending her "
"That's what I thought, so did you take care of it"
"I did"
I answered reluctantly
She locked her hand in mine and led me back to the party
Welcome to my new hell