*Felix*
When I saw the pills in the wardrobe as I was about to pick out my suit for the day
Thanks to matilda's suggestion that I have my suits here so I don't have to go home every morning to change
Now i don't have to be rush home. I can take my time now
I stare at the pills dumbfoundedly...
How did this get here
I recognize it quickly.... It was just the same kind as the one Jessica was using when we just got married
I don't understand what is it with the women in my life and their lack of desire to have kids for me
When I found out that Jessica was using this pills not only pills she had the full birth control package and even though now she claims she's no longer on it.... There's still nothing to show my off
I got really furious after seeing it..
I dashed out of the room screaming her name
She hurried out of workshop confused
I was so angry I started yelling then she said unwanted pregnancy and I was just about to lose it
I may have everything I can afford but what I want more than anything else is a mini me running around the house. He or she calling me daddy.
I know I overreacted with Matilda
She probably thinks she's doing the right thing
Trying to protect our relationship.
The truth is she has always been very open minded about what she wants and she has never been been quite enthusiastic about kids
She had already told me once that she was not with me because of my money and now she's making it clear that she's not going to tie me down with a child
She was confused that I want her to have my child.... I'm not exactly thinking right now but am sure I would never throw any opportunity I get to be a father
Having a child with Matilda would totally blow off every cover
And she didn't seem quite eager about it... I guess we'll still have to talk about it but now I just need to clear up this pills matter
And then she brought up the issue of Jessica inviting to host her in some silly show another fund raising experience for my dear wife
I went home straight after work today
It been almost a week since I last went home
And now that I know that Jessica is in town.. I have to at least go and see if she's doing OK
I parked outside and moved into our big house... Almost too big
I walked over to the bar and poured myself a glass of whiskey
Then I heard a voice that made me almost jump out of my skin
"There You are.... "
I turned quickly and was startled by Jessica standing in the hallway in her sexy black silk night gown and it jacket and her hair hanging around her shoulder
I use to think Jessica can be sexy in anything.... She's very meticulous about whatever she wears.
Something she changes her nighties every week... It use to be alluring, endearing and compelling but now all I see is a fine woman and nothing more
I sighed and took my drink and down it in one gulp.. Allowing the hot stuff burn my throat
"Have been waiting for you"
She said softly almost like a whisper but the house was too quiet to not hear it....
She rest her back against the wall right next to a huge painting of her, raising one hand to mess up her hair and the other resting on her thighs
"Really.... You have been waiting "
"All day baby... All day"
She smiled
I grabbed my jacket from the bar stool and stroll towards the bedroom which means I need to walk pass her
She hurried in front of me grabbing my red tie and pulling me closer. Hooking my leg with her long legs
I looked at her and noticed she was wearing her heavy makeup and her red lipstick was very pronounced even in the dark
I tried to pull away but she was holding firmly in position
"What are you doing "
"What does it look like am doing baby"
She dive her hands on my chest and massage gently circling her long fingers to unbutton my skirt
I know what's she's doing but it felt so awkward
It like getting a ticket to watch a movie and spending half the movie time on the queue to get popcorn
Don't get me wrong
Am very aroused by my wife
She has a very unique way of getting you in the mood
But it just doesn't work for me like it used to
I held her hand to stop her but she's so stubborn
"Baby I want to do so much dirty things to you... Just let me show you, "
"Show me whaaaaat.... Look am very tired am exhausted, I have had a long day and I can't deal with this right now"
"Don't be such a Pussy... And just relax those nerves.. "
She moved her hands to my shoulder and massage gently
"As tempting as that feels... I really am not in the mood "
I pulled away but she still stood in front of me
"I haven't seen you in a couple of days.... You haven't touched me in weeks..... What now baby don't you miss me"
"I miss you alot but let's not get ahead of ourselves here.... We have a lifetime to ourselves "
"I know baby... But am so horny.. I need you inside of me"
She pushed me against the wall, slammed my back against it and captured my mouth in a fierce and violent manner
It was like mouth kissing a vampire. She was biting and chewing my lower lip and it was so yucky
It was so unbearable
With full forced... I tossed her away and she was bouncing steps away from me
"What the fuck is your problem... Didn't you hear that I just said.. I'm not interested.... What's with all this crap... You better get your shit together and stop behaving like a horny stripper "
She gasped at me and I suddenly wished I didn't say all of that
That was too much
"Am sorry.... "
I said quickly
"What has gotten over you... Why are you acting so weird.... And since when did you start using so many curse words..... "
"Since recently.... I never stopped using them "
"Excuse You..... Do you think I don't know you at all.... You have never sweared like that.. Especially not to me"
"I said.... Am sorry... Truly sorry. I try to turn you down nicely but you wouldn't budge what was I suppose to do"
"You try to turn me down nicely. Can you hear yourself... You just called me a slut and you think it cool just because you said sorry "
"I didn't mean it like that.. I'm just having a bad day'
"Bad day my foot.. You have been gone for weeks.... And all I see is your shadows.. It like you are here but you are not"
"Work has been hectic lately "
"Oh am not buying that anymore.. Something is definitely up and you are not telling me "
"Oh so now that am not available... You find it very hard to compromise. Have you forgotten that I use to be the one who literally beg you to stay home with me while you go on your endless trips and shows and parties.. I use to be in the current situation you are in now, desperate for love and affection "
"Don't You dare turn the tables on me"
"I didn't die during those times so I'm sure you will live too"
"So what happened.... You decided to let go of all the affection "
"No.... I learn to not let it define me... Now if you don't mind.. Its been a really long day and I have to rest"
I moved away from her and head to the room...
Everytime I remember that my wife took certain measures just for her career like she always does like the time she went for a plastic surgery and didn't say a word about it to me and so many other things .... It makes me even wonder what my place is in her life
I took a long shower to ease the nerves and when I finished she was sitting by her dressing mirror taking off her mountain makeover
"I'm going to schedule an appointment with one of the best marriage counsellor in town"
"And what's that for"
"We need to see a specialist and talk things out"
"And You just decide that on your own just like that "
"We need to see someone Felix and we are doing that "
"What makes you think I'll do this, or just because you decided to call the shot you suddenly think I'll be dancing to your tunes"
"What does it matter who calls the shot.. It is what is needed to be done and am not just going to fold my hands and sit back and watch my marriage crumble "
You have been doing just that all these while
I sighed heavily
"You won't stop nagging and complaining and now the way you insult me like am a filthy whore "
"Oh now am the one with the problem "
She rolled her eyes and turn back to her mirror