NOTE: This book is under the process of editing.Please,don't get turned off by some grammar mistakes if you find them and also by cliche and cheesy momets.Also,this is my original idea and rewriting it anywhere else or translating it without my permission is not nice(not to mention illegal).
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This is the first requested one shot.I hope you like it!
Requested by:afiqahzmn
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He was always watching him.
From the every corner of the room,every single day.It felt like his eyes didn't belong to him and they drifted around by themselves.Every breath Jackson took,step and noise he made,Mark was always there to catch it.He sometimes hated himself for it,wanting nothing more than this silly phase to pass.But his mind and his heart knew that it wan't just a phase.
He was gay,and tragically in love with his band mate.
It would've been much easier if he was the only one in love with him,though.
Mark also saw the way Youngji was looking at Jackson.She was always close by the handsome male,trying to get his attention with her undeniable charm.Good thing Jackson was so dense to see her poor attempts of seduction.
''Hey Youngji,can you pass me the remote?'' Jackson asked gaze fixed on the screen.Mark,of course, didn't miss the slightly frustrated tone in his voice.He was eager to change the channel.
Without hesitation Youngji was quick with her hands,grabbing the remote and handing it to Jackson with a sly smile.Mark noted how she made an extra point to show of her big lips and white teeth as her face stretched out in a grin.
''Thanks."Was all he replied,changing the channel quickly and patting the seat next to him.In one moment,Mark was ready to smirk and do a victory dance because of Jackson obvious lack of interest in her,but his face fell as she made herself comfortable next to him,snuggling against his side.The one thing that hurted more than their physical contact was the fact that Jackson made no attempt to move away from her.
Unintentionally,a very frustrated sigh escaped Marks lips as he got up quickly off of the couch.
''I'm going to grab a soda."He mumbled unsure if they even heard him.Youngji was too busy staring at Jackson with her big eyes and Jackson was too busy watching a game show on TV.The whole scene would've looked much more bearable for Mark if Jackson's hand wasn't secured tightly around her waist.
Marks adverted his gaze from them,tears building up in his eyes,threatening to spill over.He gulped and turned around heading to the kitchen.Luckily for him,all the other members were out, busy with their schedules, leaving an almost empty dorm.
Almost.
As he opened the fridge,he was able to see a few cans of soda,lined up neatly and one can of beer poking his eyes.With slight hesitation,he pull out that same beer can,hissing at the coldness of the drink spreading quickly onto his fingertips.Quickly,he opened the can making a pleasant sound,before sipping a great amount of liquid from it.He could clearly feel the fizzing on his tongue and slight burning as it passed down his throat.He scrunched up his face in disgust.He didn't even like beer,so why was he drinking it?
'Maybe it would feel less bitter then my one sided love.' He thought, cringing at his own pitiful thoughts.
''Jackson stop!''A loud shriek,followed by a series of giggles entered Marks ears.He narrowed his gaze at the wall trying too hard not to squeeze the life out of the poor can in his hands.
''Give me back the remote,and maybe I'll stop.''Familliar voice replied.Mark decided that i would be best just to go back into his room and avoid further heart damage.But,in order to get there,he needed to pass the living room.Suddenly the whole thirty two steps to his destination seemed like a way up the mountain.But it was the only way.
Just when he exited the small area where the food is usually made,he immediately regretted it.He sure wasn't ready to see Youngji spread out on the floor,tightly grasping the remote with one hand,other one plastered on Jackson's bicep,with just as much force.And then there was Jackson,hovering above her,with his hands placed not so innocently on her narrow hips.
He could feel the dryness of his throat ,as his eyes became moist second time in a row.Hands trembling,eyes drifting from one figure on the floor to other,all he could do was watch.Watch the scene before him with the sound of his rapidly beating heart in the background.
''Mark,are you okay?''Jackson's tender voice spoke up,ringing through Mark's ears.''You look a little pale.Are you sick?''The said male stood up quickly,already moving across the room to put his hand on Mark's forehead.That one act of kindness came out of nowhere,almost knocking air out of Mark's lungs.He could feel his forehead burning slightly,but it wasn't from fever.
''I-I...''Unable to form any kind of sentence,he did the only thing he could think of.And that was to smack Jackson's hand away and run blindly to his room,leaving both young people confused, behind him.
Inside the room,surrounded by the four walls,he dug his head into the pillow letting out a big ,chocked sobs.He knew this was going to happen,and yet he let himself fall in love with one person he should've never fallen in love with.
His cries didn't seem to die down for a long time,as he poured his soul out onto the pillow,which became soaked with tears,but he didn't mind.Actually,he didn't care.Shutting out everything around him,he almost missed the voices in the hallway,and a sound of door closing.
He wasn't quite sure if the door to his room opened with a squeak seconds later,hosting somebody inside,but he surely didn't miss the palm stroking his back caringly up and down,occasionally losing itself in his messy hair.
''What happened back there?''Soft,deep voice asked,making Mark's soft cries stop.As a replay to the question he just sniffled,wiping his eyes with the back of the hand.
''Giving me the silent treatment now?'' Jackson chuckled,even thought there was an audible concern in his voice.''You know,Youngji got really worried about you.She think's it's her fault."Upon hearing the young girl's name,Mark groaned,sitting up straight while fixing his gaze on Jackson.The other male seemed a bit thrown off by the sudden movement.
''Again about her!''Mark snapped surprising even himself.''Why are you always hanging out with her?I'm your best friend.''
Somebody could accuse Mark for being selfish and childish,but only he knew how much it hurt,so he was allowed to whine like a kid.
Jackson however,looked rather amused,as he scooted closer to Mark,entering his personal space.''Are you jealous?''His voice was still smooth,with slight mischief in it.
''No!''The answer came rather quickly so Mark tried to cover it up by speaking again,''Me jealous,of her?No way!You are out of your mind,Wang."
His flusteredness was only proving Jackson's assumptions further.
''I mean why would i be jealous of-''The restnof the sentence was cut off when a pair of plump lips came crashing down on top his own.Arms sneaked around his waist as Jackson pulled him closer.Mark couldn't believe what was happening.He could only sit still,unable to move.
When Jackson pulled away,Mark's stiffness giving out the wrong impression,red haired male wanted to curse himself for not kissing back.
''Why did you do that?'' Mark asked touching his pink lips.
''Oh no reason,i was just bored and decided to kiss a guy.''Jackson answered,sarcasm dripping off of his words.''I love you dumbass!''He exclaimed after a long pause, throwing his arms up in the air.
To say that Mark was dumbfounded would be an understatement.He could swear he forgot his name for a second until Jackson called it out,asking if he's alright.
''You love me?''Out of all things he could've asked,he decided to go with the most obvious thing in the world.But he just couldn't help himself.Even if he didn't want to admit it ,he would like to hear those words coming out of Jackson's mouth over and over again.
''I always did.''Jackson replied in a low voice.
''But,what about Youngji?''Mark remembered the girl he envied so much these few months.Jackson just smiled cupping Marks face in his hands,and closing the gap between them.This time,Mark kissed back,wrapping his arms around Jackson's neck.The happiness that he felt in that moment couldn't be described with words.
''Does this answer your question?''Jackson asked with a slight smirk playing on his lips.
"Definitely."
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