I kept pondering about what has happened today... First with koko and his smart idea to wiggle me to his side
I know that a lot of people have appreciated my work in the best... In fact I mostly use to sketch just flowers... My grandmother is a florist so I just spend a lot of time in her garden
But later I started making scanty sketches of image that pops in my head..... Starting with animations and then the dresses
I mostly just start a design sketch and leave it halfway coz I had no idea what I was doing
I wasn't a fashion freak, my fashion sense was whack and I only owned a few pair of old jeans and faded tank tops
I was just sketching for fun
Until I met Eleanor and I got this job that has sustained me ever since... Even though I use to act like I owe the place, show up late, skip a few days and even go home after doing nothing the whole day
I'm not exactly a fool... I know I must be really worth it to have Eleanor put up with me.. Coz she aint that nice In fact she's not even nice at all..
This job has really paved a way for me and I'd be an ungrateful bitch if I just turn everything down and walk away
Cole Marshall maybe one of the best bridal designers and top model in town but he's just not it... I don't even trust the guy... With the way he twist and maneuvered the whole issue when Eleanor showed up
On the other hand, I still have to take note of some things Stacy said because I know she's right...
What we do behind closed doors don't count half as much
I wish the situation was different with Felix, I wished he wasn't married
I wished we didn't have to keep what we have and share to ourselves
It's so damn frustrating
It wasn't long after I got home that Felix showed up
He wanted to take a shower first because he was stressed and all
I was just going to hand him the towel but he made me get into the tub with me
I helped him scrub his back while he scrubbed mine and that's how we couldn't get our hands off each other and we ended up having sex in the tub
And then again in the bedroom
And I passed out
I wish I didn't but I wanted to talk to him
I guess I didn't sleep so soundly coz I woke up alone on the bed in the middle of the night
at first I thought he had left but then I saw his shirt lying beside the bed on the floor
I got out of the bed quickly and covered my naked body with his sky blue shirt that looked like a dress for me... Riding up my thighs
I buttoned just two set and stare at the window... It's still very dark
the time was just past 4am
I strolled to the living room and I saw Felix in the last place I ever expected him to be
In the kitchen....
And what was he doing with an apron tied round his body
He was only wearing his boxer shorts so his upper body was bare
I chuckled at the sight of him in the kitchen and he looks like he actually knows what he is doing
I rarely ever come into the kitchen myself
"Ohhh You are up... Baby good morning did you sleep well"
"You are asking me if I slept well after the night we just had.... Hell yeah... I slept like a knocked out engine"
He grinned broadly
"Am glad you enjoyed your night"
"What exactly are you doing there Felix... "
"Am preparing us an early breakfast"
I burst into laughter
"You....... Ha haha, drop it already"
"Am serious am making breakfast.. I figured after the night we just had we might need food to get through the day"
"You are being serious"
"Yeah"
I moved closer to the kitchen table where he had all the ingredients set out
"Where did you get all this stuff"
"From a grocery store"
"I don't understand... You went out by yourself to get grocery at this hour''
"Not exactly by myself... I sent Mario to get them for me... You don't even own a bag of salt in this house... Other than cereal and milk and Oreos of course"
"That's because I don't cook anything besides I didn't know you could cook"
'Ahhh what do you take me for.. Am a master of refined best homemade dishes "
"How flattering..... I can't wait to taste it though"
"Hold your horses girl... You about to be blown away"
"am already blown out of proportion "
"Stay calm and watch"
"Okayyy but why did you decide to show me your talent today after reserving it all this while"
"You exhausted every bit of my energy last night... I woke up with a growling stomach.. I had to sort that out"
"Am sorry you had to go through all the trouble but you exhausted me last night not the other way round so if anyone should be complaining it should be me"
"Okay miss...... Whatever you say... That shirt looks nice on you by the way,, "
I giggled and spin round before leaning back on the kitchen counter
"I know right... I should totally keep it. You know I was thinking maybe I should order some suits from Eleanor's and have them delivered here so instead of rushing home every morning to change you can just change here and head straight to work... Or what do you think"
"Nice idea, OK I'll do that in the morning ''
"No.. I'll handle it"
"Really"
"Yeah just considered it my thank you gift" I honestly thought he won't agree because it means he won't be going home in the morning
"For what"
"For everything"
Breakfast was served... Mac and cheese
It was actually very nice and tasty too
I never expected Felix to be such a great cook
He is the real deal... The whole package ... He's just too perfect
While we ate I gave him a recap of what happened at work with Koko and all
"Matilda am sure by now you know just how talented you are... You don't need a soothsayer or an analyst to tell you. I think what happened today is just a show of the already known fact... And I don't want you to feel like you are intimidated or persuaded to do something you don't really wanna do.
You have worked with Eleanor for almost two years right"
I nodded
"You understand the basis of the job and the strategy attached to it.... And what the other guy is offering you is a big deal and a major step.. To be your own boss... But do you want me to be straight with yo "
I nodded
"They are both after their own personal gain, I think the question now is what you want... You have learnt a lot from your current job and you enjoy working there but at the same time you are thrilled to be given an opportunity to expand to be part of another business unit... Which one exactly are you opting for"
"I.... I don't know, am confused"
"Chill... No one is pressuring you... You have time to think about it but I think you are missing on another major option here, you can actually set up your own clothing line and be your own boss"
"Me!!! I doubt that"
"What are you so scared of"
"I can't handle anything right... Am too messed up"
"I've told You to stop saying that... Do you know the advantage that you have now... You are not just the creative mind. You can also market your line... Cmon don't gimme that look, have seen you do it"
"It's not so easy"
"Nothing is easy.... But there's indeed one problem, You can't start something you know barely nothing about so I suggest you time yourself. Use the period to learn more about this line of work, dedicate yourself to doing more and gaining more knowledge, make sure you put yourself in the lame light...... Be there to defend your work and convince people to like it... But don't give them your best.... Save your best designs for yourself start working on them here, like the bride's wear you are making.. Do it here... We'll set up a workshop in the other room or something... You just have to start somewhere "
This makes a lot of sense. Geez Matilda you are so daft compared to this guy, he speaks with so much wisdom
"Thank You... Thank you so much for everything I really can't thank you enough and this spectacular advice... Am so grateful... I wonder what I would have done without you"
"Am glad I can help"
"You are just too much and this piece of heaven you made... Damn you are such a great cook... Tell me is there anything you are not good at"
He nods as he cleared the dishes
"So.... I was wondering "
I just had to spill it am too curious
"What"
"Would You like to go out with me to watch a movie or something... You know you and me together "
He turned slowly and the frown on his face made me wish I hadn't said that at all
"Why would you ask me that... You know I can't go anywhere with you"
"Yeah.. You are right, am sorry"
"You know but you asked anyway"
"It slipped.. Am sorry"
"I don't appreciate you pushing things Matilda... You know this is all we can have... Or do you have a problem with that"
"Noooo.. No problem at all, am so sorry. Forget I said anything"
He walked passed me to the bedroom
"Can I have my shirt back"
Oh oh I pissed him off with my stupid questions
What the heck is wrong with me
I just ruined a perfect moment
I forgot am not Stacy
And in this relationship there's a lot of compromise