I couldn't die though i'd tried hard to
alline had been asking around town
about my whereabouts .. my safety
she'd touched my heart in a way
only she and i could understand
reckon I was past the worst part
i'd no idea what was yet to come
frenchman and kilo moved back to winnie
we shared rent again on a nice, roomy place
wasn't there no time ..i'd completely changed
related to alline .. she and I are over
cried when she left .. slammed the door
I was searching for the meaning of life
next six months I prayed daily in my closet
before finally .. a spiritual voice was heard
i'd been having nervous breakdowns
thought i'd simply end my miserable life
i'd lost everyone I love .. everyone
the spiritual voice in my closet
assured me i'd made the right decision
to search the spiritual world
I became calm somehow
during the next two weeks
the Great Spirit cast out of me
evil spirits, satan and a legion of demons
I began to feel cleaner inside
than i'd ever felt before .. then I began
started seeing things i'd never understood
the Great Spirit showed visions to me
when I was a child .. demons had entered me
flashback .. when i'd stolen my church tithe
tremendous guilt had soon followed me
many, many lies i'd been told
everything in life i'd done bad
came to surface .. momentarily
when i'd blasphemed .. cursed God
over my broken silver pocket watch
i'd known when i'd cursed it wasn't me
something bad was growing inside me
i'd no idea i was demon possessed
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